A Valkyrie Born

Trying to get fit before Valhalla calls. Old as fuck.

[thekashishverse]

I hate having an internal monologue. Girl shut the fuck up.

[deartreadmill]

My internal monologue has turned into an internal soundtrack, which turned into external constant humming about a year ago and it is seriously making me crazy. I catch myself humming ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Not specific songs, the actual goddamn soundtrack in my head has become audible.

Maybe this is a sign of music genius, but I seriously fucking doubt it. That said, I can understand now how Beethoven kept writing music after going deaf.

[belovedgoofball]

I have a resident at the nursing home who has lived there for almost 7 years now, and they can never get her to take a shower on day shift when we have a shower aide. But I am always able to get her in the shower whenever I have time (unfortunately it's very rare) but I was able to again tonight. She got a good scrubbin' and her hair washed and I had to trim her hair too because it was so matted 😬 she definitely went several months without being washed and it's so frustrating that the higher ups in the office just...let this happen.

She said she felt so good after (I also put clean sheets on her bed) and that going to bed in clean sheets after a shower and a shampoo was like falling asleep in a hug 🫂 it literally made the day for both of us, I think 🥰

[deartreadmill]

I had a patient like that years ago. She said no to everyone but me. I’d finish my meds and take her into the tub room and scrub her down and keep refilling the tub with warm water while I tried to demat her hair. One day both the care aides that were on came in and helped and we got almost all the matting out, and then she let me cut her hair!

And then she would go months without bathing again until I could nag her to let me care for her again.

[deartreadmill]

Ok. Conference is next week. I leave for Winnipeg on Wednesday.

I am so nervous. My presentation is about ADHD, so obviously I am not finished yet.

[deartreadmill]

I GOT THE PRACTICUM PLACEMENT I WAS HOPING FOR! It’s a 2/3 class at the ARTS SCHOOL!

Also, the day before Dad would have turned 82, I got this memorial tattoo for him. I got home and could practically hear his ashes rustling in disapproval.

[integrationslady]

Getting to Know You

Tagged by @gainsaf

Reading: My Black Country by Alice Randall, but I keep taking breaks to read (and re-read) Rachel Reid's Game Changer series

Last Series: I finished my umpteenth rewatch of Heated Rivalry last night. I'm also in the middle of DARK on Netflix (also a rewatch).

Last Film: People We Meet On Vacation. (Good movie on its own, not a great adaptation of the book.)

Last Song: Madonna Love Makes the World Go Round

Salty or Sweet: both, preferably together, with some spice too

Coffee or Tea: coffee

Currently Working On: My house, always. My art, not often enough. Myself, but maybe not hard enough.

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better:

@noahs-kayak @deartreadmill @painterofhorizons @kirstielol @m0tiv8me @mariana-runs @hrstories1234 @uhhhhnoooo @xtinedancefit

[deartreadmill]

Reading: assessment and motivation, early years numeracy, foundations of literacy, a lot of really short fan fiction

Last series: NCIS

Last film: I think it was the muppets Christmas Carol

Last song: pickle jar rag from stardew valley

Salty or sweet: alone? Salty.

Coffee or tea: COFFEE

Currently working on: Bachelor of Education, running a gala fundraiser, breaking 1 million gold in stardew valley

I am so out of touch with the fitblr community, but I always love hearing from @serenity-made-visible , @fatgirlgetsfitatlast , @lucy-sweats-love

[sol1loqu1st]

I feel like all the "they broke weird al" "weird al got serious we're so cooked" comments about the killing in the name cover are missing the point. that is not a broken man. comedy is politics. comedy has always been politics. weird al has been satirizing politics for a long time because he knows the court jester can say to the king what other people can't. by doing a serious cover of an explicitly anti-establishment song that his gen x and millennial audience knows by heart when he's built his career on parody, he's saying this can't be satirized anymore and he's saying it in a very deliberate way that his audience will understand. those aren't the actions of a broken man, they're the actions of a man who is trying to tell you something. are we going to listen?

[livelovelaugh-777]

[deartreadmill]

I am going to Winnipeg in February. This is insanity - I am going there though for a conference for student teachers where I am speaking about reframing ADHD from disability to superpower.

I am sofa king excited.

This entire experience of first block has restored my confidence. I’ve always accepted that I’m clever but I feel like a fucking rock star right now. It’s so good.

This is my boy Floyd. Isn’t he cute?

[beardedmrbean]

[guerrillatech]

[revelware]

[vampirecatprince]

[kaelio]

[bagadew]

[kael-writ]

[woodmeat]

[iamonlyhereforthefreefood]

When Everything Everywhere All at Once said “The only thing I do know is that we have to be kind. Please, be kind, especially when we don’t know what’s going on" 

When the Good Place said “Why choose to be good every day when there is no guaranteed reward now or in the afterlife… I argue that we choose to be good because of our bonds with other people and our innate desire to treat them with dignity. Simply put, we are not in this alone.” 

When Jean-Paul Sartre said ”‘Hell is other people’ is only one side of the coin. The other side, which no one seems to mention, is also ‘Heaven is each other’. Hell is separateness, uncommunicability, self-centeredness, lust for power, for riches, for fame. Heaven on the other hand is very simple, and very hard: caring about your fellow beings.“

[quasi-normalcy]

Love that we’ve elevated the conversation to such a degree that, if you’re going to be grimdark nihilistic in fiction, you need to argue philosophically against 4 seasons of The Good Place.

[lightofraye]

From the comments and other reblogs:

When Kurt Vonnegut said, “Hello babies. Welcome to Earth. It’s hot in the summer and cold in the winter. It’s round and wet and crowded. On the outside, babies, you’ve got a hundred years here. There’s only one rule that I know of, babies—God damn it, you’ve got to be kind.”

[deartreadmill]

Block 1 finished with roaring success. There’s 2 weeks before school goes out for the kids so hopefully I’ll sub every day!

I’m exhausted today and had a pretty big sleep in and then had a moment of peri-menopausal tears as I released some of the semester’s stress.

But otherwise I feel good and am excited about next block. By this time next year, I will be finished my program and will be a real live teacher.

[deartreadmill]

I had an amazing weekend working with the Job's Daughters that I lead. The drawback was that I am SO sore from sleeping on an air mattress all weekend. The minister at my church is moving across Canada, so his last service was yesterday. I cried. There was a guest choir that came an sang and they were incredible - hair on my arms standing up. The semester is wrapping up, and I've been subbing in a few classrooms and every time I do it, I have that confirmation that I have made the right decision - so much so that I'm think about letting my nursing license lapse in March, which honestly, is a savings of $700+ on my licensing fee so...

Health-wise, one of our assignments this semester was an unsettling act, so I decided self-care was one of those things, including starting to check my blood-sugar regularly and eating better. The blood sugar checks are coming along, the eating better not so much yet.

[deartreadmill]

School is still going well. I subbed all three days I was available last week.

17 days til Xmas break!

[deartreadmill]

In my program, one of our assignments is to perform an unsettling act - something that puts us out of our comfort zone and makes us feel vulnerable. I have been waffling about my unsettling act all semester. I finally landed on it today.

Start taking care of myself. This is a constant drone in the back of my head all the time, but this was an actual decision that required an immediate commitment - I picked up a glucometer today and tested my blood sugar for the first time in at least 2 years.

I will continue to do this and then start making the slow changes I need to make to get back to where I was 5 years ago, but it starts with blood sugar testing to see how fragile I am