I Lived, Bitch

Big brother, war vet, recovered addict, kindergarten teacher. Griffin Callenreese. Banana Fish.

[sevenflats]

Doodles of the best big bro!

[lifeinpoetry]

let me spring from the jaws of what tried to kill me.

Ruth Awad, from “In the gloaming, in the roiling night,” published in Poem-a-Day (via lifeinpoetry)

[lifeinpoetry]

The war was all over my hands.

Donika Kelly, from “I Never Figured How to Get Free,” published in Poem-a-Day (via lifeinpoetry)

[nellyrics]

이제와 이런 생각 쓸데 없단 걸 알지만 I know it’s useless to think this now 미리, 조금이라도 미리 알았더라면 But if only I knew this a little earlier 지금과는 좀 달라졌을까 Would things be different now?

침묵의 역사/ History of Silence (via nellyrics)

[nightruled]

Brothernapped

[deceasedcallenreese]

nightruled‌

“Yes, I have green tea if that’s what you like. Do you have any allergies?” Yue cocked his head at him, fascinated by this man.

“Any and all vegetables. I’m just kidding, I don’t have any.” Griffin laughed.

[deceasedcallenreese]

streetprnce‌

“ BEER pong ? ” Ash inquired – his voice not quiet believing what his brother was saying. And if he did, he was laughing at him along with it. “ Is that where your time and focus in college went instead of actually getting a degree ? Some role model you are, Griffin…”

“Hey! I was a very serious guy! Everyone does that stuff in college. Except you, you’re going to be straight edge and study all day and night.” He grinned.

[nightruled]

Brothernapped

[deceasedcallenreese]

nightruled‌

“No, that’s true.” Ash would be furious when he found out Griffin was missing, that was all that mattered. But Yue wouldn’t be a cruel captor, he was not his brothers. “I’ll have a servant bring you some tea.”

“Like, green tea? That’s really nice, thanks.” Griffin smiled warmly.

[deceasedcallenreese]

undergroundheiir‌

“Yes! Ash, that’s me, Griff, I’m here.” He recognized him, that was more than Ash had gotten from him in years, Griffin was awake and he recognized him, for a second everything felt almost okay. He reached up to wipe a stray tear from his eye, his other hand finding Griffin’s and holding it tightly. 

“Stay with me, Griffin, please.” 

He didn’t think he could bear it if his brother slipped back into the practically comatose state he’d been in before, not after he’d finally gotten him back. Despite his efforts he realized he was crying, and he rubbed at his eyes to keep it from clouding his vision too much. “I- I missed you so much, Griff.”

“Ash...” He repeated again, as if to cement the concept in his head that this adult before him was the little boy he had left. They had the same bright eyes, though, that came to tears far too often...

Griffin’s lips pulled up barely to smile up at his brother. “Not goin’ anywhere. Was just sleepin’...” He murmured as he tried to reach up with his other hand to wipe away a stream off tears, his brow creasing when he found that he was attached to something. His eyes slowly drifted to the IV in his vein. 

Why had he been napping, again..? Was he in the hospital? Had... Had something happened while he was deployed? No, he didn’t think that was it. For some reason, a fuzzy voice was telling him that he wasn’t here for that.

[sunfortune]

listen i know that character died but listen…….that character isnt dead

[nightruled]

Brothernapped

[deceasedcallenreese]

nightruled‌

He took a deep breath. “I will…find you one.” Yue sighed. “You realize you will not be allowed to go lots of places in the mansion, and you will not be allowed to leave.”

“Yeah, I figured. Not like I’m going anywhere fast.” He said with a shrug. Honestly, he’d probably get too tired before he could make it out of the door.

[streetprnce-blog]

3 thought bubbles -griff

 ( thought unfiltered || ACCEPTING )

’ COME  back to me, kuya…I can’t do this alone…I– I’m just a kid and…I don’t know what to do…’

‘ SOMETIMES….sometimes I wonder whether it would have been easier to hear that you died in the war…Losing you is one thing…seeing you like this is another…’ 

‘ I’M not going to lie – it isn’t easy taking care of you…But I’d do it over and over again. When the days get rough, I just think to myself ‘what would Griffin do ? ‘ and over and over again, the answer I find myself having is ‘ love my brother ‘ @deceasedcallenreese

[max-and-ibe]

5 thought bubbles -- griff

“Oh shit I think I love Griffin….man this can’t be good…” - max“I miss him. God I miss him, I hate that my nightmares are of him shooting at me. What is Banana Fish? What happened to him?” - Max

“I want to ask him to marry me.” - Max

“He talks about Griffin in his sleep…screams for him to stop, begging him to be alright…god I worry he’ll never get past this…” - Ibe

“Griffin and Ash don’t look similar at all. I wonder what Griffin was like, if he was like his brother at all.” - Ibe

[deceasedcallenreese]

streetprnce‌

” ARE you talking to me or yourself ? “ Ash asked, raising his eyebrow as he handed his brother a drink to celebrate with. Alcohol included. “Because trust me, Griffin, I think I know how to hold my alcohol better than you.” 

“The audacity of kids these days.” He said with a click of his tongue to show his mock disdain. “If I were my eighteen year old self, I would have to argue but you don’t get the delight of losing to me in peer pong.”

[hoseki7]

[fangedsadists-archived-deactiva]

"You have to be Jessica." Griff grinned brightly despite the exhaustion ever present on his face. (Deceasedcallenreese)

@deceasedcallenreese

 Confusion was written all over her face, until it hit her as to who he was. Eyes widened, and a gentle smile formed on her lips. ‘’Griffin…’’ Jessica said softly, ‘’I haven’t seen you in awhile.’’ By the looks of it, Griffin didn’t look too good much to her concern.

‘‘Would you like come in?’‘ She gestured inside the house, ‘‘I have something cooking if you’re hungry.’‘

[deceasedcallenreese]

“It has been a while, huh?” He smiled as he ducked his head to go inside. “I definitely wouldn’t say no to your cooking.”

[jadedlynx]

[deceasedcallenreese]

undergroundheiir‌

Ash paced the floor anxiously; the chances of Griffin getting up were dwindling by the minute and he couldn’t do a damn thing about it. Even with his brother’s condition Griffin had always been there and Ash wasn’t sure what he’d do if he lost him. It wasn’t a feeling he liked, and he hated the helplessness of it. Revenge wouldn’t save Griffin, though, and he would rather be there if he woke up. 

A sound from the man behind him caught his attention and he was instantly at Griffin’s side, a hand on his shoulder to keep him from moving too much and straining his injury. He was awake, that was half the battle, and Ash finally felt like he could breathe again. He tried to stay in Griffin’s line of sight, praying he recognized him.

“It’s just me, Griff, it’s Aslan, everything’s fine. Try to stay still, you’re hurt, if you get up it’ll make it worse.”

Griffin hated the way the shrill noise stumbled and rushed ever higher. His own breathing climbed to a desperate pace before it all suddenly seized when a hand landed on his shoulder. The voice seemed so strangely familiar. It’s me. Who?

Aslan.

His eyes searched around wildly before he landed on a worried face hanging over him. Griffin blinked. For some reason, this face, too, felt familiar. As if he had seen it every day in the corner of his mind. Aslan. Aslan... Ash? Griffin’s lips parted soundlessly. Was this Ash? He felt like it really was. 

Yes, he had seen his face like this plenty of times. Yet when had he gotten so big, become such a handsome adult? Hadn’t he just been a bite sized ray of sunshine just yesterday?

He reached out, his lips forming that name he had once laughed and shouted and said in broken sobs. Ash. Ash. Ash. Ash, his Aslan.

All at once, he felt his eyes well with tears. He didn’t even realize he was muttering the name filling his every thought. He was just suddenly overwhelmed by that grown up face.