December Lights

I'm not a blogger. I'm just a regular girl with some thoughts. No one is going to find here what they're searching for.

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How does it feel to be someone's favorite person?

[marckald]

Kees Scherer    Relief in a Ptolemaeische Temple ,   Egypt 1968

[december--lights]

I have no one at all. Nobody is willing to listen. But everyone is aware that I do listen that's why they seek me when they want to talk. But what about me? What about when I need to talk?

Monday, December 9th, 12:40 a.m.

[december--lights]

There is a kind of beauty that break hearts. Breaks them but fixes them while doing so. It makes you feel your chest clinching, your stomach droping, your knees weakening and you can feel the butterflies everywhere. It's so ethereal and unique. You'de be so lucky if you could experience that even if it was for just a moment in your lifetime.

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I can see him, vividly, In my mind..

Waiting, smiling

With his beautiful brilliant eyes

Is it "deja vu"?

Will it come true?

Saturday, August 6th, 1:20 a. m.

[december--lights]

Why is it so hard to write even when I have so much to say?

Thursday, June 23rd 2022

[deokmis]

Jo Yeong is right and he should say it

[leerang]

“I will go with you, no matter where it is, no matter what battlefield it is.”

[henricavyll]

We are the glitch. The glitch in the matrix

[december--lights]

What if I can't connect to my emotions? If I can't express them with painting or writing? What if I don't have anything to say? I have emotions but I can't let them out? What does that mean?

[kalbindenoperim]

[mutecevvil]

Kurukahveci Han / İstanbul

[light-intothedarkness]

Rainy nights.

[ashstfu]

I am an overly emotional unemotional clingy but distant private person who likes to overshare at any moment and I'm still trying to figure out how that works.

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AFTER, Hardin and Tessa. Or simply "Hessa". It was a roller-coaster of emotions reading this series for the first time but I ended up falling in love with it. It was all kinds of things: growing up, friendship, faithfulness, betrayal, hate, compassion, parenthood, repentance, second chances , and above all forgiveness and love. Then these books turned into movies. Movies I fell inove with despite how different they were from the book. And last night, it was the last day of shooting the last 2 films. It was like reaching reading the end of the series again. With all the overwhelming feelings that accompanied it. It was heartbreaking ans joyful and happy. But the most dominating feeling of all, was "missing". I can already feel missing all the news and pictures and discussions. I can feel the loss. I don’t know if I'm ever gonna love any book or movie like I loved "After". It's like what Hardin once said "that is "it" for me".

Friday

December 18th 2020