I'm slipping down again.

just a blog about my ED tendacies coming back and taking over my life and how I'm (not) handling it.

[mythinheart-blog]

Ana @ me after seeing my weight go up after a binge:

[skinny45kgs]

Yall ever just “cancel” a meeting with your friend just because you feel ugly and fat but lie them that you are just busy etc?

[no-life-what-so-ever]

All the time

[ana-as-an-adult]

ItThings I hate doing cuz I’m fat

✖️ shaving my legs. Especially my thighs, there’s just so much fat and extra space that needs shaving

✖️ slouching. If I’m not wearing a super padded bra, feeling my boobs and belly stack on top of each other makes me wanna vomit

✖️ crossing my legs. Struggling to get my fat fucking thighs on top of each other is so embarrassing

✖️ putting on pants that fit well but you still have a muffin top

✖️ moving quickly. In any way at all, and feeling all your disgusting soft spots jiggle

✖️ looking down. Feeling my extra chins fold over under my jaw

✖️ smiling. Feeling my giant fat cheeks ball up on my face

✖️ laying on my side. Literally your belly falls to the side because it’s just gross dead weight

[longlashedingenue]

You ever look at your body and think wow this is by far the most unattractive meat suit ever

[mia-memes]

When you refuse McDonald’s once and don’t magically lose 5 lbs

[when-will-this--end]

someone: why are you sad?

me: my man u r not ready for this conversation

[zathinspirowana]

I’m perfect :)

Too fat to sit on somebody’s knees

Too fat to eat with others

Too fat to sit on somebody’s shoulders

Too fat to deal with the skinny

Too heavy to let someone lift you

Too fat to be with him

Too fat to get anything to eat

Too fat to live with anyone.

I’m never gonna to be perfect :(

[happy-empty-belly]

… Unless I lose this weight.

[dainty-skinny]

please tell me im not alone

i can go days where im just like “fuck my eating disorder” and eat normally and then i wake up one day and lie there thinking “i’m gonna have to fast for the rest of my life to make up for this”

[timeaway]

My kink is not opening messages and pretending theyre not there

[death-is-my-gw]

[alienform]

Red and Green Winter Thinspo 🌲

[skinny-sinner-slut]

all i did this october is get fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat

[13lilies]

“One time, I took more pills than I can remember and accepted I’d be dead within the hour. Don’t ever call me weak.”

— Michael Lee, Waking Up Naked (via sleepprincess)

[bipolarprobz]

Me @ myself forgetting to take my medication

[shrinkingbytheminute]

Just remember,

It’s hard at first, but everyday it will get easier. Your stomach will shrink a little more, your thighs will get a little slimmer, and your bones will stick out a little more. Everyday that you maintain self control, it gets easier.

[pariaaaaah]

even after years and years of failed suicide attempts i still want to die so fucking badly

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