sanctuary and crucible

Lover of patterns and their transformations Bandcamp Bluesky

[deciphra]

I started this blog with the desire to turn over a new leaf and I want to find and share any hope for transformation from the inside out ❤️

Part of that goal is to make a graphic novel that deals in the same themes. I'm still scripting things, the disorganized notes are haunting me at the moment, and the story has a lot more moving parts than is likely wise, but I'm committed at this point :)

I usually share drawings and snippets of my planning for my longform story, and music I'm practicing making as a beginner!

Bandcamp

Art tag: #my art

Music tag: #my music

Character tags (for the ones I've shared so far): #Clare #Nora #Ani #Cap

[salmon-n-hazel]

Clover and daisy

My print shop: INPRNT

[mirrraf]

Watercolor portrait of my character Sonya!!

I am really proud of this one. It feels a little bit like a turning point, because it means that even if it takes two or three attempts, and even if it is not easy, I can create something, that actually expresses how much I love these silly little characters that live in my head!

[artbylittlebug]

[reeddraws]

A very simple landscape today, but I wanted to try out a brush I altered for pine trees. I really like the look of it! Daily drawing 2435.

[deciphra]

Trudging through ancient, heavy rot to get to new beginnings ❤️

This one's still close to my heart. I was and am struggling with becoming more aware of and growing beyond unconscious blocks, really uncomfortable process but so so worth it.

[deciphra]

Making instrumentals started as a way to motivate myself to act out a faith I didn't yet have, to work towards a better future I didn't quite believe in yet. I wanted to give up on everything so I started making music just to keep the ball rolling on something as if it'll lead to a future where I've not given up.

I'd heard the whole start doing the work and trust that you will get there even if you don't know how yet sentiment, and how you should create more than you consume, but couldn't believe it until now. It's been surprisingly effective! Taking such a large step out of my comfort zone and showing myself that what I thought was impossible is in fact possible over weeks did shake me out of that giving up state.

Turns out it gets easier to build up the momentum and confidence to overcome challenges in other areas if you start and keep at even one small thing as if you have faith. Anything.

[deciphra]

I think I'm finally done with this for good! Kept going back and wanting to change things so I did =)

[deciphra]

WIP Update

[headspace-hotel]

I...tried to make a meme and got carried away and made A Thing that is like partially unfinished because i spent like 3 hours on it and then got tired.

I think this is mostly scientifically accurate but truth be told, there seems to be relatively little research on succession in regards to lawns specifically (as opposed to like, pastures). I am not exaggerating how bad they are for biodiversity though—recent research has referred to them as "ecological deserts."

Feel free to repost, no need for credit

[snakeybreakyheart]

A weed is just a scab on land trying to heal itself. Don't pick at it. Tend to it like you would give loving care to any wound. Something something idk am I allowed to be sincere on shitpost website?

[moomeecore]

drawing in my sketchbook of part of my yard i did in the spring

[deciphra]

I can't count how many times being willing to let go of things I'd defined myself by, including nonsense rules I made for myself, has rescued me.

Speaking as someone who gets very obsessively strict with myself under stress, don't overlook other options and viewpoints, reinvent the things you're most afraid to examine. If you're holding onto something out of rationalized fear, admitting to yourself you might've went the wrong way when it's the hardest thing to do can save your life.

[deciphra]

Latest WIP

[greencheekconure27]

[witchofpumpkinspice]

"I asked ChatGPT —"

Well, I asked Samwise Gamgee, and he said that, in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow; even darkness must pass, a new day will come, and when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer, and there's some good in this world, and it's worth fighting for.

[shitilyposting]

"I don't wanna bother you"

Have you considered that this is how your presence feels?

[goodthingcounter]

You don’t have to be constantly distressed about the state of the world to prove you care btw