TRANSGENDER. GENDER DYSPHORIA IS NOT SELF HATE.

"Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be impossible" - Dedicated to dysphoric people (transgender people) to help you get through. - Please don't die. This is not your fault. Here you can rest. FYI: This place can get really dark sometimes. It's just how it is. Admin: Man (trans man), 25 y/o, 6 and a half years on testerone, awaiting a surgical solusion to my devilish bottom dysphoria.

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

I REALLY liked this girl. Still do, but it’s different now. Me and her really hit it off and connected on a deeper level quite quickly. She told me she was into me too, but then after a while she told she wasn’t. Hurt as fuck. I’ve been off T since November last year and started again a couple of weeks ago. So bare in mind that she thought I was a cis man. Once she officially took everything back was when I told her I’m trans. Earlier she’s told me she didn’t think it’d work out because I’m too emotional. It hurt like hell, because the reason I told her was from the adrenaline from just have had my best friend screamed fuck you and I should BE A MAN and tell her you like her (long story). It felt like someone punched me in the stomach, because I pretty much did it to be a man. If I’m too emotional, what if I’m not a man? This was while I had gotten my period. Because she’s accepting of me being trans and support LGBT people I never thought it might have been that I’m trans that made her take everything back. I felt so desperate to not be emotional that I became really emotional that I couldn’t stop being emotional. I felt desperate to tell her why I was emotional and told her I’m trans and that I’m on this procudure to save eggs. Really didn’t wanna tell her, REALLY not, but I did and a lot in detail only for her to tell me the same day that she didn’t want me. Even told her I’d been given pregnancy hormones. This whole thing made me so sick I ended up at a psych ward.

[chairemoji]

transition is an act of self-love

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

fellas... what prosthetic do you find the best on a budget? budget is around 300 dollars. i'm a 23 year old student. 4 and half years on t and have had top surgery. i try to avoid sexual situations, because it only makes me more conscious of my dysphoria than i already am. by prosthetics i mean trans man prosthetics and "strap ons" that work basically as well for you as a prosthetic and doesn't have a "strap on" look, but an actual realistic look and touch of a penis. i could never use an "actual strap on", it has to basically work as a prosthetic. even if it's always erect.

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

Has anyone had their transition/queue to gender clinic/doctor appointments for transitioning paused or extended because of the pandemic? If so, how have it affected you?

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

😢

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

do you think this will be worth it or should i just kill myself? i cant imagine a world which has a place for me in it and i cant keep living like this

I think it’ll be worth it!! Hold on, it’ll get better! I promise!

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

If you want to send in asks or get advice. (I’ll do my best) feel free to do so! Or if you want to share some thoughts etc. !!

[bootlickerphobes]

how it is reading anything lgbt related

[gay-mcchicken]

Been crying for a good 3 hours or so now. Dysphoria is such a bitch. I can’t help but wonder what life would have been like had I been born in the right body. The things I would have done, friends I would have made, sports I would have played, interests I would’ve had, relationships I would’ve had, and maybe a normal amount of self confidence among so, so, so many other things that I will now never get to experience. Lately I’ve been extremely depressed over my lack of a male childhood. Sometimes I lay awake, losing sleep (like I am now) imagining what I would have looked like at certain ages. Maybe I would have a much closer relationship with my dad if I had been born a boy (but I know that isn’t true, he’s just a shit father). I could accomplish things as his son and he would be proud of me as my father (I guess that’s another problem for another day though). I feel oddly attached to the image I have of late toddler me. I crave to hold him close and tell him I love him and that I’m sorry (although I don’t know what I have to be sorry for). I sort of see toddler me as my own son whom I lost at a young age and constantly wish I had another moment with. This might sound crazy, maybe even a little weird, but when I die I hope that somewhere, to some other parents, the real me is born into my real body, and I can watch him grow up from somewhere else. I can watch him do everything from his first steps to his first day of school, his first relationship, his first job, his first kid, and so much more. It would make me feel somehow like a proud parent and he can have the life and the childhood that was taken from me. I just wish I could tell him I love him and I’m sorry.

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

”I am a rolling wave without the motion. A glass of water longing for the ocean. I am an asphalt flower breaking free, but you keep stopping me. Release me.”

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

I have so much love for you all! It physically pains me to think that there are people out there that haven’t transitioned and are still dealing what that dysphoria, that life. I see you and I know that it’ll get so much better!! ❤️

[genderdysphoriamemes]

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

I want to start something in person that helps trans people. Of course I want to help people get their first binder or talk to people about coming out etc. but I mean the very deep stuff that there is no specified help for (what I know)... Substance abuse, trauma, dysphoria obviously, sexuality, shame, feeling insane... The stuff nobody seems to want to talk about...

but where would I even start? First off, I’m stealth, but also... I have dreams and goals, things I want to achieve, that have nothing to do with this. I only have the energy that I have. I don’t really want much to do with anything like this to be honest, because it is too painful... but it’s so needed...

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

Any blogs that only talk about dysphoria/being transgender?

(Similiar ones to this blog)

[dedicatedtodysphoricpeople]

I’ve blocked out everything before my transition. If I remember things it’s very blurry and if I slightly start to gain back memory my brain is just like “NO” and it all goes away.

[spill-the-gender-tea]

[justyourukht-deactivated2018111]

damn this got me..