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I’m not going to use this vent account anymore. It doesn’t represent me anymore, but I want to keep everything to remember it. It really helped me. I have been through so much with it. I started out as a really depressed and lonely little trans boy, now I’m less then a month away from top surgery, I’m on testosterone, and I have friends that really care about me.

I’m still messed up tho so I made a new vent lol

I’m moving to

@rezidue

#new account #ftm #actually dysphoric #gender dysphoria #dpdr #vent account #trans guy #actually autistic #bipolar #actually dpdr

Nobody cared to notice when I was at my lowest. now they only care because it means I’ll be stuck with them longer

#child neglect #dissociation #disabled #lack of independence #vent #mental health #I can’t drive and I can’t go to college #adult child of neglect #bipolar #actually autistic

It’s always just a matter of time before I’m the only one who texts in the group chat

#vent #social difficulties #dw we are really healthy tho #if this feeling stays I’ll say something #this time

I just realized how badly I want someone to notice I’m dissociating and have them help or acknowledge it instead of not noticing and then later finding out and complaining that I’m not doing good enough to prevent it

#I’m not depressed anymore but I used to be really really depressed #at the time I wanted the same exact thing #nobody ever noticed or said anything #like years dude #I fixed myself alone #I have way better friends now though so if it’s possible this time #but it feels sucky to be in such a similar situation again #dissociation #actually dpdr #parental neglect #vent #I wish my parents would accept my limitations instead of painfully pushing me past them my whole life #disabled

One of the most painful trans experiences is watching everyone around you start their medical transition and leave you behind, unable to transition.

but then you start your medical transition and have to leave your friends behind.

You know how excruciating it is and you can’t do anything about it.

#actually dysphoric #ftm #transgender #lgbt #vent #gender dysphoria #trans man #transition #transitioning

theirdelusion-deactivated202106

Simply living in my god-given body really do be giving me truama

#actually dysphoric #gender dysphoria #trans guy #ftm #i need top surgery

aspergersissues

Yea.... it’s reallly really weird to have a brain that thinks it has a dick, and believes it knows what it feels like, but doesn’t have one

#actually dysphoric #bottom dysphoria

ihatemybones

For years I just desperately wanted a friend or actual loving parent figure to hug me and tell me it’s ok and let me cry.. but it never happened. I would have even settled for a hug. Didn’t ever get it. Still wouldn’t mind to have it. Nobody even asked me if I was ok, and I was straight up depressed and wanted to break my bones and scrape my ribs out

ihatemybones

Hmm

(@estebangomez11 on tiktok)

dedicatedtodysphoricpeople

”I am a rolling wave without the motion. A glass of water longing for the ocean. I am an asphalt flower breaking free, but you keep stopping me. Release me.”

I think all my friends are getting tired of trying to understand me and keep up with my autistic traits

#actually autistic #its hard to have and keep friends #autistic vent #neurodivergent #autistic meme

Wearing sensory-bad clothes + wearing dysphoria-inducing clothes= 🙃 really 🙃 fun 🙃 combination 🙃

#actually dysphoric #actually autistic #spd #sensory processing disorder #gender dysphoria

When I say my body doesn’t match my brain, I MEAN it. I feel like people think it’s kinda a figure of speech? It’s LITERAL

#actually dysphoric

I live in the wrong body and nobody can really see past my shell

#BRO I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LET PEOPLE KNOW EVERY TIME I SEE THEM THAT WHAT THEY SEE IS NOT ME #i need top surgery #so so so so bad #actually dysphoric #😭🤢

Oops. Binder to small. Feet numb

#i was sitting criss cross applescuace tho #itll be fiiiinneee

Why does nobody care about me

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