Big dreams take big work.

Maladjusted adult (mid 30's). Computer scientist, artist and anarchist. I have an interest in writing, endurance sports and outdoorsy activities. She/they. Location: middle of nowhere (NL).

[deepdrearn]

The most beautiful and saddest moment has happened. March 4th, 16.00, we welcomed our beautiful daughter and had to let go of her too. @cryinginconfetti and I are the immensely proud and profoundly sad parents of a wonderful little girl, 30 cm and 600 grams.

[candlesoul]

mood

[updownfragile]

Varda par Agnès (2019)

[deadpowol]

[tahthetrickster]

[thememedaddy]

[deepdrearn]

Howwww is my 13 week ultrasound tomorrow!!!

Also how am I still alive?!! Been half dead on the couch for hours too tired to write journal but somehow not too tired to youtube

[deepdrearn]

Update:

- anatomy looks good!

- whole exome sequencing results are in and it's great; this baby does not have the same mutation as L (!!!)

Outlook for this child might actually be... good?

[deepdrearn]

10 minutes into a git merge master but it feels like an hour

[bakwaaas]

adult life is crazy because you can be going through the most devastating and heartbreaking things while still having to go to work and do the laundry and grocery shopping

[chocoholicbec]

@hamletthedane’s tags are worth reading.

[deepdrearn]

Howwww is my 13 week ultrasound tomorrow!!!

Also how am I still alive?!! Been half dead on the couch for hours too tired to write journal but somehow not too tired to youtube

[deepdrearn]

We've got obsessions

I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week

We've got obsessions

You never told me what it was that made you strong, and what it was that made you weak

[deepdrearn]

I might be scheduled for chorionic villus sampling tomorrow but at least I'm not on mount Everest, much to be grateful for 🙂‍↕️

[deepdrearn]

Pleased to report that @cryinginconfetti and I repeated our blessing of not being on mount everest out loud throughout the procedure (which went well!!!)

[deepdrearn]

Also pleased to report that this fetus has no trisomy 21, 13 nor 18!!

[aichu-dechu]

[cryinginconfetti]

🕯️04-03-2026

👣 30 cm, 600 grams

❤️ Forever in my heart

[nono295]

[iusedtobecharming-deactivated20]

Do we have a franz kafka diary entry for july 1st, i want to know what he thinks!!!

[rehearsing]

happy too tired July everyone

[deepdrearn]

I might be scheduled for chorionic villus sampling tomorrow but at least I'm not on mount Everest, much to be grateful for 🙂‍↕️

[deepdrearn]

Pleased to report that @cryinginconfetti and I repeated our blessing of not being on mount everest out loud throughout the procedure (which went well!!!)

[ethanmaldridge]

The horrors persist, but so does Pride