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chrisburke

uninspired-exwriter

Rest in peace king

undonesam

this scene broke my heart into million pieces

hazu-nyan

IM SORRY FOR SPAMMING BUT THEY ARE MY FAVOURITE HET SHIP. THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK.

fae-dree-deactivated20250126

An unbreakable bond

grenzlinie17

Sayonara

vaestro

“You’re the only one who can keep Tamayo-san’s memory alive.”

A panel redraw from chapter 205, this scene is honestly so bittersweet ;w; ❤

RIGHT IN THE FEELS

catbishonen

rest well Genya, you did your best and we love you (a close up on his smile bc we didn’t get any of that)

deerxiaoh

I SCREAMED

zerozerosenpai-art

poxei

sick of my own skin

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head empty just this scene of all the young dudes

#all the young dudes #atyd #harry potter #harry potter saga #marauders #the marauders #wolfstar #sirius black #atyd sirius #remus lupin #atyd remus #remus x sirius #james potter #lily evans #mskingbean89

lancestans

did i stutter all the young dudes besties ??

kaijuno

In highschool I wrote a story about a middle-generation of stellar travelers. Their parents were born on earth and left as children, and the middle generation will not live long enough to see their destination. They live their entire lives on the ship and I wrote about them trying to find their place in everything. They will never know blue skies and warm beaches and open fields with warm breezes. They’ll never know birdsong or crickets or frogs. They’ll never hear the rain on the roof of a dreary day. I never could find the right way to end the story. I wanted it to be a happy ending, but I didn’t know how to do it.

I realize now that it was a book about me dealing with depression before I even knew it. Looking back at how blatant the projecting was, it’s obvious now. It wasn’t then.

In the story, the middle-generation people are lost. They’re apathetic. They’re just a placeholder. The only job they have is to keep the ship running, have kids, and die. As the middle generation of people began becoming adults, suicide rates were skyrocketing. Crime and drug rates were jumping. This generation was completely apathetic because they felt that they had no use.

In the story, a small group of people in the middle-generation create the Weather Project. They turn the ship into a terrarium. They make magnificent gardens and take the DNA of animals they took with them and recreate them and they make this cold, metal spaceship that they have to live their entire lives on into a home. They take what little they have and they break it and rearrange it into something beautiful. They take this radical idea and turn the ship into a wonderful jungle of trees and birds and sunshine.

And I realize now how much it reflects my state of mind as I transitioned from a child into an adult while dealing with depression. You always hear “it gets better” and “when you’re older things will be easier” and I was so sick of waiting for it to get better. I was in the middle-generation stage. And I was sick of it. I was so sick of waiting.

When I was in highschool I didn’t know how to end the story. I didn’t know how to have a happy ending. I didn’t have the life experience then to finish the story in a meaningful way. I didn’t know how to make it better for these middle-generation characters.

But now that I’m older, I’m learning. That if you sit and wait for things to get better, it never will. You have to take your life and break it apart and rearrange it into something beautiful. You have to make the cold metal ship into the garden that you deserve. You have to make your own meaning. You have to plant your own garden.

You have to teach yourself that being happy is not a radical idea.

kaijuno

God you guys I never thought this would become so popular 😱 I was gonna name it The Weather Project after the art installment that inspired it

By Olafur Eliasson

kaijuno

This is the most important post that I’ve ever made. Its for screaming out with every fiber of your being that you’re worth something. You’re worth everything.