🩸 Adam — a playlist in three acts
(what he ruined, what he commanded, what he’s learning to atone for)
I’ve been working on this playlist for a while, and I finally feel like it says what I wanted it to say.
This isn’t a “vibes” playlist.
It’s a narrative one.
It’s my interpretation of Adam’s story — not softened, not justified, not romanticized — but understood. A character who starts as a man, becomes a symbol, and ends up facing the weight of everything he’s done.
The playlist is divided into three parts, each one marking a stage of his life:
I. The Man — Eden & the Fall
(from “I Was Made For Lovin’ You” to “Take Me Back to Eden”)
This part is about Adam before the myth.
Before the titles.
Before Heaven.
Before the violence.
These songs represent him as a human: emotional, flawed, proud, in love, and deeply unprepared for what was coming.
The first half is centered around Lilith — desire, ego, passion, resentment, the feeling of being left behind.
Then it shifts toward Eve, survival, regret, and the slow realization that Eden is gone forever.
By the time we reach Take Me Back to Eden, it’s no longer about love.
It’s grief.
Grief for innocence.
For safety.
For a life that will never exist again.
And then comes the real fall:
exile, a hostile world, the death of a son.
This part ends with Adam wanting to go back — not to fix things, but because he doesn’t know how to exist outside of what he lost.
II. The Angel — Power, Control, Denial
(from “City of Angels” to “Had enough”)
This is the longest section for a reason.
This is Adam at his worst.
Here he’s no longer just a man — he’s an angel, a commander, an executioner.
He hides behind authority, cruelty, humor, and arrogance.
A lot of these songs are about:
pretending to be fine
using sex, violence or ego to fill a void
convincing himself he’s right because Heaven said so
He becomes obsessed with control.
With dominance.
With the idea that if he’s the one judging others, then he doesn’t have to face himself.
There’s anger here.
And emptiness.
And a lot of self-loathing disguised as confidence.
By the time the playlist reaches Hell Is Forever, he’s fully trapped in that mindset:
righteous, cruel, convinced he’s untouchable.
And then he dies.
Not as a hero.
Not as a martyr.
But as someone who never stopped running from his own guilt.
III. The Sinner — After the Fall
(from “Outrunning Karma” to “Live Again”)
This is where my headcanon starts.
Adam wakes up in Hell, not as an angel, but as a sinner.
Not powerful. Not respected. Not justified.
Just… there.
Outrunning Karma is the turning point of the entire playlist.
It’s the moment he realizes something he’s avoided his whole existence:
you can’t outrun what you’ve done.
This part isn’t redemption yet.
It’s shame. Confusion. Anger. Self-disgust.
He doesn’t suddenly become good.
He spirals. He hates himself. He lashes out.
He tries to pretend it doesn’t matter.
But slowly — painfully slowly — something changes.
He starts to feel again.
To question Heaven.
To understand that being “right” didn’t make him good.
That being powerful didn’t make him just.
And little by little, he begins to see the truth:
The Hell he feared isn’t as cruel as he thought,
and the Heaven he worshipped isn’t as perfect as he imagined.
By the end of the playlist, he isn’t redeemed.
He’s just… trying.
Trying to take responsibility.
Trying to live with what he did.
Trying to become something better, even if he’ll never be forgiven.
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If you decide to listen to it, feel free to tell me what you think — interpretations, feelings, headcanons, questions, anything !!
I’d love to know how it hits you, and I hope it resonates with you the way it does with me ❤️🩹
Also, just so you know: every song is placed in a specific order for a reason.
Nothing here is random — the progression matters, and each track is meant to lead into the next part of his story.
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