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I feel that a lot of you need to hear this - life being terrible as a human doesn't mean you're here as punishment, or that there was ever or is now something broken about you. Human life is hard for everyone, including humans. Instead of wondering why you were put here to suffer, instead consider maybe you came here or were put here so you could see what needs to be done to help humanity. Maybe the problem isn't being human, it's human society. That is something that can be helped, even for a small group of people, even just for one person who will then spread those messages. Find the good things and foster them. I'm not saying this because I think it'll be easy, or that you're all magically going to be cured of whatever ills you here. I'm saying this because it's sad to see so many in the divine and angelic tags being so upset and so distressed when you could be finding out what makes humans happy, including yourself as a human here. No entity has ever lived a perfect life, including divine's and that's the hardest truth I have. You're looking back with nostalgia because things are hard now and that's all. There may or may not be a time when you're divine* again, but you're still divine* enough to experience things in a divine* way and learn. If you feel you're learning only cruelty than think about overcoming them and look hard for the things that are good because I promise you good things are out there in abundance on this big beautiful planet filled with weird and wonderful, kind and compassionate, caring and loving humans. These are words from someone who has struggled and still does. Also, you're doing good. You really are. The fact you're still here, living, even though you're having a hard time, proves that. There's no bar of achievement to reach. No awards to win. Just keeping on every day and doing what you can do, building yourself up and allowing yourself to have breakdowns and then recover. That is what makes you close to humans and also utterly divine.* *or demonic, whichever you prefer

delicate-claws

Small vent thing ??

Im just a n g r y.

The syscourse around endogenics. WTF. Systems are formed from TRAUMA. Not because you like the thought of a character in your head. No you did not get a headmate at the age of 13 because your mom took your fucking phone. Systems are formed in early childhood to the ages 7-9 ; from severe trauma that causes disassociative barriers. Like where did we go wrong here? Literal science says you have to have trauma during a certain period- to even have it. Endogenic 'systems' dont fucking exist, end of story. You just want a disorder that you think looks fun and quirky when it's not.

Little side tangent here- about why being an actual system isnt fun. You can get factives of your abusers no matter how old or recent. You can have sexual littles because the littles dont know how to behave any other way due to possible SA trauma. You have a constant fear of someone fronting and trying to take the body's life. You may forget someone died or even a pet died and then be told it, and go through that grieving process AGAIN. Sometimes there's innerworld violence. There's gruelling headaches that can come with splitting. There's the fact you might have to fight to get your own therapist to believe that you are suffering with this.

But no, go ahead and claim you we're naturally born with it, go ahead and say you dont have the trauma that's needed to actually needed to form.

And also, attack me all you fucking want but i could give less than a fuck about your whining. Cause that's all it is, WHINING. Because you think im being 'invalidating' boo hoo, get the fuck over it endogenics.

sigining off, nexa.

thesnowsystem-deactivated202204

EXACTLY thank you!! It’s not fun to have this disorder. 99% of the time, endogenics are systems who don’t realise they have trauma because THAT’S HOW THE BRAIN PROCESSES AND PROTECTS YOU FROM TRAUMA. We need to teach that whilst it’s valid to not remember your trauma, it does NOT mean you’re endogenic.

And that 1% are people who actively know they don’t have trauma and are saying they’re a system anyways- maybe they’re mistaking other experiences for being a system. There’s LOADS of things that you can mistake for being a system.

Let me reiterate the point from OP’s post: DID/OSDD is not fun. If you have it in your head that it is, or you developed “alters” on purpose because it seemed quirky or fun: stop. Right now.

Our experiences aren’t something to make fun of or joke about. It’s not something to pretend you have for fun. It’s not an enlightening spiritual experience you have. They’re real medical disorders, nothing else. Systems cannot exist without trauma. Yes, everyone starts out functionally multiple with ego states, but if you have a decent childhood, those ego states WILL FUSE. No exceptions. They do not stay separated. Trauma, disorganised attachments, and a tendency to dissociate are the ONLY things that cause ego states to separate further and develop into alters. This is not up for debate. You want sources, I’ll give you sources. This has been studied for LITERAL DECADES.

You know what HASN’T been studied for decades, and is literally impossible? Alters without disorganised attachments, severe repeated trauma, and a tendency to dissociate. So until you come back with peer-reviewed research and years of research that somehow doesn’t contradict what science has said for years to be true, please, for the LOVE of god, shut up. I don’t want to HEAR how you’re a spiritual system or how you exist without trauma. This seems harsh. Because it is. I’m sick of endogenic/tulpa/spiritual system acceptance bullshit. It’s fucking infuriating.

Stop claiming to be systems. You’re not. Go see a therapist for the love of god and sort out whatever’s actually happening- whether you actually have trauma you’ve been repressing and you’re an OSDD/DID system, or whether you’re just highly spiritual and you’re experiencing what you think to be alters, or whether you’re kinning characters and think they’re alters, or whether you have another disorder and just think it’s you being an endogenic system, or anything else- it doesn’t matter. It can’t hurt to see a therapist, and you need to understand you’re fucking hurting our community by spreading this fucking false information. I don’t care if you claim to be separate. It’s inherently harmful towards us, and it needs to stop.

Anyone arguing or attempting to start shit in the replies will be blocked. I don’t have the energy to deal with any bullshit right now.

-Tubbo & Tom

delicate-claws

Your reply is LOVELY. Said what i couldnt manage to verbalize, ty !

small thing.

if you're getting mad over a system asking for pluralkit in a server you're acting the same way as people who get upset because they have to change their pretty font nickname in a discord server because people can't read it.

#pluralkit #ableism

rotting-vamp

FRIENDLY REMINDER

If you run a discord server and somebody ask you to add the Pluralkit bot- FUCKING ADD IT AND DONT MAKE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pluralkit is a bot designed for DID and OSDD systems, it is an easier way for alters to communicate within a server. It doesn’t matter if you don’t understand the function of the bot or think it’s a “good edition” for your server, it helps everybody in the long run.

Please listen to server members and add this bot if you can, I literally had to deal with a server making a big deal over Pluralkit.

Small vent thing ??

Im just a n g r y.

The syscourse around endogenics. WTF. Systems are formed from TRAUMA. Not because you like the thought of a character in your head. No you did not get a headmate at the age of 13 because your mom took your fucking phone. Systems are formed in early childhood to the ages 7-9 ; from severe trauma that causes disassociative barriers. Like where did we go wrong here? Literal science says you have to have trauma during a certain period- to even have it. Endogenic 'systems' dont fucking exist, end of story. You just want a disorder that you think looks fun and quirky when it's not.

Little side tangent here- about why being an actual system isnt fun. You can get factives of your abusers no matter how old or recent. You can have sexual littles because the littles dont know how to behave any other way due to possible SA trauma. You have a constant fear of someone fronting and trying to take the body's life. You may forget someone died or even a pet died and then be told it, and go through that grieving process AGAIN. Sometimes there's innerworld violence. There's gruelling headaches that can come with splitting. There's the fact you might have to fight to get your own therapist to believe that you are suffering with this.

But no, go ahead and claim you we're naturally born with it, go ahead and say you dont have the trauma that's needed to actually needed to form.

And also, attack me all you fucking want but i could give less than a fuck about your whining. Cause that's all it is, WHINING. Because you think im being 'invalidating' boo hoo, get the fuck over it endogenics.

sigining off, nexa.

#endogenic #anti endo #plural system #actually traumagenic #did osdd #did alter #traumagenic system

Updates ?? I guess ?? Hell idek

so ! your local friendly derg here to yell and screech abt a few things today.

since ive used this account, ive since realized i am a host of a system. funky shit.

other things, im less faekin but more kith to the fae. similar but not entirely.

ive started up a pack again so that's fun, i have two loving partners and well, have decent ???? mental health.

catch y'all later !

signing off, nex.

bowlofjuiceandtears

that’s alright, let it out, talk to me

A rant

look,

i get you like relating to characters.

i get having several connections to those characters.

BUT DONT CALL A SIMPLISTIC CONNECTION KIN.

Otherkin and fictionkin have and always will hold DEEP meanings to them ! and the way you people that 'kin for fun' water our meanings down .. . is disrespectful.

mock me, cancel me, call me delusional all you fucking want but i've made my point.

you arent otherkin if you do it by fuckin choice. otherkin is not a choice, it is a involuntary realization that, you, are simply not human, but stuck in a human shell.

kinning for fun, isnt even, shouldnt even be considered a real term.

now for those who have DA's this isnt directed at you, as obviously, they are far from being kin.

#otherkin #otherkind #dragonkin #demonkin #fictionkin #angelkin

x-d3ntes

If ill see any demon that thinks they are automatically entitled to flirt, be creepy and make angels uncomfortable ill fucking rip them apart.

If they are uncomfortable with it you should shut the fuck up, its not fucking sinful and cool. Its disguisting and you are emberassing.

Always ask if the other one is comfortable with it and no means no.

distressly-deactivated20210614

consider reblogging to help a fellow suggestion blogger out! the blog with nothing but text posts of vague, minimalist poetry and musings for when i feel like talking but instead i say what i want to on there because the idea of being vague and mysterious is so appealing to me yet i overshare everyday…

This is for the angelkin that feel unholy, that feel cast out.

You are beautiful beings that still are filled with love and light. As godkin, I see that you are still holy and wonderful. You are kind beings that I can see that deep down you find yourself insecure. But alas, don't be. You are great and I bless you.

#otherkin #divinekin #otherkin things #actuallyangelic #angelkin #godkin

I JUST REALIZED IM SPACEKINNNN !!!

#spacekin #space #voidkin #cosmickin