୨ৎ back on my bullshit ୨ৎ

an adult with awful priorities 🫧🪷

[delicatelyboredbabe]

anyone planning to be the most cliché person ever and start again after christmas/for new years 🤣😭

because me too. lmfao.

in the meantime i hope everyone has a good christmas and isn’t too hard on themselves… really. i know it’s easier said then done but give yourself some grace if this time of year is hard. 🩷

[delicatelyboredbabe]

you know what i hate most about binging (well, beyond the obvious gluttony and calories)… it makes me feel so fucking childish.

like it makes me feel disappointed in myself the same way i’d feel disappointed at a kid who stole candy from the candy jar without asking. it is so immature… me, a grown ass woman can’t control herself around some damn treats… really? i see candy, cookies, chips, whatever and you’re telling me that i act like a 6 year old around them, just out of control eating until my tummy hurts. fuck offfffff. we can train dogs to control themselves around food but not an adult woman apparently.

i want to blame my period, hormones, or my current mental health… and sure, there may be SOME validity to those things but not enough, because regardless of those things i should be am able to make a choice and stick to my word like a grown up. period.

and now, here i am feeling sorry for myself as if i didn’t do it to my fucking self. it’s pathetic.

[delicatelyboredbabe]

so far today i ate food like a semi normal person because i have protein goals to hit for muscle growth.

then decided since i burned damn near 500 cals at the gym i deserved a little treat. starbucks has my favorite flavor for winter, so i went and got it, no modifications. the whole 320 cals.

only to come home and open instagram to this photo…

now i want to barf or maybe die.

UGHHHHHHHH.

i have to decide on a goal and stick to it because this bouncing between wanting to be a toned muscle mommy or a literal skeleton is going to drive me to the nut house.

[delicatelyboredbabe]

somehow i didn’t ruin my entire life today… i didn’t do amazing but it didn’t turn into a free for all so i consider it a win. i also exercised even though it was a holiday.

also there is a commercial that plays on the radio station that’s playing all day at my work that keeps saying “calories don’t count during the holidays” and everytime i hear it i have a visceral reaction that includes wanting to punch something. why can’t that be true 😭🤣 like fuck off.

[tinyangeldoe]

[delicatelyboredbabe]

🎀🤍🎀🤍🎀

[delicatelyboredbabe]

i really don’t know what the hell i am doing anymore.

one day i have an insatiable craving to look as though i am withering away and could crumble by a slight tap on my shoulder.

the next, i wish to look like a powerhouse who could take down a full grown predator man in one fell swoop.

basically, the only thing i know for certain to be true about myself is that i am impossible to please.

[delicatelyboredbabe]

cannot wait for stranger things 5 or to stare at how beautiful she is again 🫠

[delicatelyboredbabe]

she really is just….. perfect.

[delicatelyboredbabe]

question for those who binge eat sometimes. (like me ❤️‍🩹)

how do you deal with that time of month?? genuinely.

every month, no matter how good i may have been doing… as soon as my period comes it all goes out the window. well, actually about 2 or 3 days leading to my period is when it hits. then the first 2 days of my cycle. and i mean… i do some serious damage.

any advice? please 🥹

[bronze-goddess]

Is winter coming early in the east? 🥶🍂

[delicatelyboredbabe]

🎀💕🌸💞

[delicatelyboredbabe]

being sick sucks.

i had a two month streak of not missing any workouts. now i have a dumbass head cold and i haven’t worked out in like 4 days 😭

i’m getting back to it tomorrow. idc, i won’t work out as hard as usual but i am getting back on track.

ughhh

[fallenangelswings-3]

𝒹ℴ𝓃'𝓉 𝒷ℯ 𝓁𝒶𝓏𝓎

[delicatelyboredbabe]

just so pretty 🫠

[delicatelyboredbabe]

bawdy 🔥

[delicatelyboredbabe]

i am so fucking sick of my period fucking my shit up man. like so so so so so fuckinnnnng sick of it 😭

every month, no matter what it is- it comes in like a damn wrecking ball everytime.

i start doing hella well, im sticking to my plan of going to the gym or eating better or getting a good sleep routine or whatever the goal is at the moment….

i have a week of struggle but it’s ok because i am getting into routine, then a week of doing pretty damn well, then a week where i’m genuinely proud and feeling like ok, im making real changes, and then boom- period arrives and everything goes fucking down hill immediately…. it’s the week of backtracking and ruining progress (and lives lol). then back to week one where i’m starting over AGAIN to get into the routine of it.

this cycle is viscous and cruel and frustrating and just

UGHHHHHHHHHHHEJEKEKDKIDN

[delicatelyboredbabe]

Never realize how stunning Maude apatow is🫠

[delicatelyboredbabe]

this photo has just altered my brains chemistry… also the way the aesthetic perfectly matches my profile right now… um yes.