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Happy to report I am down 65 pounds at this point !!!

I am soooooo tired of getting fucked over by people who don’t actually want to work 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

I think no amount of numbing my mind will get rid of the pain of you being ripped away from me.

#my therapist told me I was as mourning this relationship #but I thought I was done? guess not

I literally be crashing out recently

#I hate working with kids who are in their early 20’s because they have no idea how anything works and they don’t even try #I know I’m feeling this way a lot because of my period but like I feel like it keeps getting worse and I’m about to get violent #my psychiatrist upped my meds to twice a day and I don’t think it’s working lmao

Just wanted to share into the void that I am about 45 pounds down 🙌

#I still have a ways to go #but I am proud of my progress #I got about 35 more to lose before I hit my goal

A couple of my coworkers were talking about how therapy hasn’t really helped them much they just need someone to vent to sometimes and here I am with major depression, bipolar, and cptsd like 👁️👄👁️

I’m beginning to think that maybe I’m manic? I’ve been acting on impulsive purchases and I keep having different ideas for things to do (like I just had this idea that I’m gonna write a children’s book? What the hell Sarah? Since when do you do things for the children???). My mind can’t calm down with all the things I want done rn

#I also just made like seven different side blogs for special interests #okay but I just scrolled through my text posts and omg I am manic

I’m so annoyed bc I ask my partner to clean while I’m at work and when I come home there’s still stuff everywhere and he’s like “I swept, did dishes, and took the trash out”. Like okay you did dishes and trash but the floor isn’t swept. None of the counters are wiped down. There’s still clothes everywhere. The bathroom looks disgusting.

Im just so tired of using up all of my energy at work and then coming home to use more energy that I don’t have to clean what should have been done already.

#like I’m greatful for the shit he does #but his job isn’t s not very physically demanding like mine is #and then he goes and hangs out with his band buddies #some days I feel like I need to talk to him like he’s my child or something #’you can’t go out and play until all of your chores are done’

I also bought new glasses on a whim and I’m very excited for that too.

#I got two pairs #one is a big bulky framed one and the other the frames are heart shaped 💖#tbh though I think I’m manic thinking about my purchasing this week as well as my mood shifts #bipolar probs

Ahhhh I bought a cute pair of overalls in two sizes smaller than what I was wearing and they fit and look SOO GOOD.

#and they’re wide leg too #I always wear skinny jeans because I’m afraid anything wide or baggy is gonna make me look bigger #but they look great on me

I really need to get in a job where I’m not working with children and actually surround myself with people my age who have at least a somewhat decent work ethic

I kept thinking about making a twitch again but like who’s gonna watch me.

#better yet where am I gonna find the time to game?

My partner is literally using our smoker to cook dinner out in the fucking rain he chooses the worst days to do this shit

#he also hasn’t used it in months so it needed cleaned #I even TOLD HIM it needed cleaned like two weeks ago

Okay I actually do need to invest in new pants because I actually am losing enough weight to warrant so.

#even with my belt my work pants sag like hell

I took a couple edibles last night and they really weren’t kicking in after a couple hours, so I decided to take two more. Big mistake, I was high all day at work 🫠

I am thinking about the time when I told one of my employees, in confidence, about my bipolar diagnosis and then he goes and uses it against me in a bullshit ethics case lmao.

#literally the shittiest fucking person I have come across in my professional career thus far #if I ever see him in public it is in sight tbh

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