day eighteen of MOGAI ABCS : Relationships - how do you approach relationships, romantic or otherwise? what does an ideal relationship look like to you?
@radiomogai, @dragonpride17
i'll specifically talk about romantic relationships
romantic relationships are complex for me, i've had quite a few in the past but they all ended the same way; i lost interest. my primary reason was i grew bored of their attention or they weren't giving me enough attention. i am histrionic, i rely on attention to thrive, and find i lose interest in anything/anyone once i lack a certain amount of attention. i enjoy new, thrilling means of attention so i also get bored of the same thing over.
however, obviously, this is toxic and can be summarized as me "using" them (even if that was not my intention at the time, and i did not recognize these behaviours until after my split with my most recent ex) and thus i have kept away from romance until i feel i can contain these behaviours in a healthy way.
an ideal relationship to me is one where my partner loves me as much as i love them, they give me ample supply while knowing when to shut me down when i'm reaching a level of toxicity. someone who keeps things interesting and helps me when i'm experiencing a low. someone who loves me unconventionally. i require support for many things outside of just my mental health and so someone able to take care of me is also important ☘️overall an ideal relationship to me is a mutual unconditional love