A glimpse inside my screwed up head. @deppressinglittlegirl - Tumblr Blog

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This blog is written by a teen with multiple mental dissorders, who spends most of her days either high, malnourished, or both. There is most likely no verity in what I post about nutrition, excercise, or health. I will share personal stories about my anorexia, depression, self harm, and other difficulties in life, but I will not get specific with names or places.

This is my space to vent. If this triggers you it is your fault for reading it, you have been warned so I take no responsibility for your actions.

Does anyone ever wish they could just meet some fellow rexi in real life, and become instant best friends?

I pretended to be sick today because I didn't have the energy to get out of bed.

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deppressinglittlegirl

#SoundCloud

brb-when-i-am-90lbs

88lbs today. I am so tired.

When you realize your ED isn't about skinny anymore, and it hasn't been for awhile. I am 89 lbs I have a bmi of 16.3 I am skinnier than most of the thinspo I see. I am cold all the time, I hardly sleep but I am always tired, I am to weak to play sports successfully so I quit playing. I am thin. But I am not happy. The world didn't become a better place because I got skinny, instead I feel worse. My brain is ever foggy, I am always tired and cold, I am weak, any muscle tone I had is long gone, people don't treat me better they treat me differently. I used to be one of the last picked for teams, now they ask if I can play or if I'd prefer to sit out. They used to cheat off of me in school but my grades have dropped so much they quit trying. They used to eat around me, now they are too self conscious of their weight compared to mine. People don't treat me like I'm a role model, they single me out to see if I'm OK. My teacher asked if I was sick over the summer and I said yes to avoid questions about my weight, she told me I can't play any sports until I gain 20 lbs.

Skinny didn't fix anything but I still don't want to stop.

Because it isn't about skinny anymore. I like the hunger high, the self control it takes to fast for days at a time, The way the room spins when I stand up. And in some sick kind of way I like the way they look at me, like I might break if they say the wrong thing.

#ana shit #anamia community #anorecsick #anoressic #th1nspø

brokenskeletongirl

Fuck my life! 🖕

deppressinglittlegirl

Mine too. 🖕

just-a-lonely-nobody

It's 60° F today and I am so fucking cold! My hands and feet are numb and I can't get warm.

I just burned 300 calories on a Wii fit board, lol. Like, who does that? My grandparents gave us their old Wii and passed along their Wii fit stuff too. I have actually been using it a lot since we don't have a treadmill and the air quality is too bad for running.

toadallybpd

healthy coping mechanism are so boring like bitch I don’t want to color I want to do drugs

I just finished a 48 hour fast, and then my limit today is 300 kcal. Man I had a bowl of applesauce for breakfast and it brought the hunger pangs back with a vengeance! I had a salad for lunch but I am do hungry right now, it hurts to breathe. It's like cramping on your period.