Stormyskies

"I think I'm broken on a fundamental level."

[brokenskeletongirl]

TW: Anorexia, bi polar, loss, ptsd, depression, dyseidetic dyslexia, self harm, completely full of shit, and one crazy messed up bitch.

I am in a shit place in life right now, and my mental health would make a psychiatrist go insane. Please, please do not copy any of my habits. please leave if you are in recovery or new to this because this is a triggering blog.

Stats: height 5' 6" |cw: above 115| |gw: 80 lbs|

|hw: 151 lbs| |lw: 81 lbs|

🌊Active July 2022 ⛱️

To all my mutuals.

If I like your post where you said you feel like shit, imagine me there as your friend patting your back, or holding your hand while you cry.

I don't mean I like that your hurting, I mean I am here for you.

[brokenskeletongirl]

Waking up at 5 am so you can stare across the room and wish you were dead... great life.

[brokenskeletongirl]

Was lovelyfoxwithskinnybones reported? I can't find her. If anyone knows if she has a new blog please help me find her. Thanks 😊

[brokenskeletongirl]

I am back. 😣 I went into recovery late December last year. It felt a lot like a hospital/asylum you wouldn't believe some of the crazy shit I saw. I was intubated for the first 2 weeks, (which is terrible! If you are ever given the option to eat or be intubated pretend to eat. Intubation hurts, and has so many more calories than a regular meal.) After that I was drinking these awful shakes for each meal (5 meals a day by the way, 5!). Eventually they switched me to solid food. I fought at first but when I found out I couldn't leave until I reached a certain weight I started stuffing things in my clothes anything I could find. They caught on quickly and started making me weigh nude, and I mean bare butt no socks naked!! It was humiliating, and to top it off I wasn't even allowed to see my weight. I knew they wouldn't let me see it but I hadn't really thought about how hard that would be. To step on a scale every day and have some nurse scratch a note on her clip board judging your body as to light. They stuffed me constantly, I wasn't allowed to excercise, (I'm still not) and it took me 5 months to earn phone privileges. And I don't mean my iPhone, I mean an ancient cord phone attached to the wall on the main level. But after 7 months I have finally earned my freedom! I am ugly as shit, and am barely allowed an ounce of privacy but I am back in my Mom's house. I have no scale, no mirror, and no bedroom door, but at least I'm not stuck in that hell hole anymore. I have to go back for a weigh in every three days and if I drop bellow 115 lbs they will but me back in there. I am so heavy it's not even funny I feel like a fat pig and my Mom stares at me whenever she thinks I'm not looking. It's so weird. Also my ex stopped by yesterday to "check in on me" he went on and on about how beautiful I look and how I was too thin before. Meanwhile he is at the lowest weight I have ever seen him! Such a hypocrite!! Ugh!

Anyway, I am back. I'm back on tumblr, I'm back on my Bpd pills, I am back to trying to lose weight in secret, I am just back. 🤷‍♀️

[brokenskeletongirl]

This is my last post for awhile. My parents gave me an ultimatum, I can either go to a home and recover or I can stay home and eat three meals a day. With a tracking app on my phone. I am going to a home for eating dissorders, I am not allowed to have my phone.

[brokenskeletongirl]

I assumed when my boyfriend told me he was Bulimic, he would be fine with me being Anorexic.

I was wrong.

The fucking dick set me up!!! 😡He called my parents and they were all there in his apartment when I got home from work, they want me to go to rehab! 😨 I locked myself in the bathroom but their going to get in.

HELP!!!!!!!

[saphore]

your last words before you die are the 3rd line of the last song you listened to. what are we saying ladies?

[danidoesathing]

“Will I see you when the night is over?”

Fuck that’s kinda sad

[isa-ghost]

“I’m stuck self-torturing, my meds are failing me.”

Oh.

[septic-dr-schneep]

“One side of me says ‘Stop so you don’t blow’; the other side says ‘What would I stop for?’”

RIP

[obsidiancreates]

“I’m a hooker selling songs.” WHY

[conk-creet]

“And i want these words to make things right.” oof .

[nb-nightwing-deactivated2022111]

“felt so close but you were far away”

feels from the Jonas Brothers

[romansleftshoulderpad]

“But every touch is ooh-la-la-la”

Why are my last words horny

[hanramz-the-fander]

“And I stared out in the distance cause it seemed so far away”

….ok then

[starsinger]

必然 必然 なるべくしてなる未来だ それ故 足掻け 

As far as I can figure out, since I can’t read or understand Japanese it says:  “It’s fate, it’s fate A future we achieve with all our might So continue to fight!“

[maya-tl]

“No, I won’t drop you.”

Those really do sound like some famous last words.

[teacupfulofstarshine]

“knew the bands so we never paid our cover”

[tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors]

“how’s your halo?”

oh ouch

[travis-the-extraordinary]

“All my life, I have been waiting for this”

Oooof

[bibwu-movedlol-deactivated20220]

“listen to the mariachi play at midnight”

alright

[loughnesstwo-deactivated2021101]

“A siren sounds like the goddess who promises endless apologies of paradise”

alright i suppose

[memory-bees]

“Love was out to get me”

Aight

[loughnesstwo-deactivated2021101]

-THATS THE WAY IT SEEMS

[datewithanarsonist]

And you’re just out of reach

[grey-tones]

“We all like to be destroyed sometimes”

[silvernatural26]

“Hey, don’t do it please!”

[notakoolekatok]

“Now I just want to make your demons disappear”

[tower-of-trash]

“Crying isn’t like you.”

Fuck.

[rememberrymainblog]

Yall have these deep lines and here I am with “I am the, I am the hunter”

[skimmilk11]

“Is that your grandma’s coat?”

[floating-around-in-the-void-dea]

“but we’re still young”

[vocalovely]

“Ah, fall in love with me.”

[ultralazycreatorfan]

“Look”

[transkingoryx-deactivated202607]

“I’ve tried to understand everything”

[namelesshuman13]

“Done my time and served my sentence”

[awkward-finger-guns]

“its time to do it now and do it loud”

[bisexual-boredom-deactivated202]

Alright alright it’s a hell of a feeling though

[screecher-creecher]

“Oh well”

[bloodcrownedking]

Shrieking skulls will shock your soul

[cause-boys-dont-cry-deactivated]

so throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot

[rockinoutforthdead-deactivated2]

hard times in violent tides

[nothinginterestingh]

and one day we will die and our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea

damn

[thehugwizard]

“So hold on to memories”

Well shit Disturbed hitting me hard

[caen-coffee-and-ninjas-deactiva]

“mala tara aravas” which translates to “your mind journeys”

Yes I am a sucker for anything dragon age, sue me

[cee-of-thoughts]

“She set sail”

Oh

[bitchassslytherinsnakery]

It’s what my rotting bones will say

Lmaooo

[aaa-bees-bees-bees]

I guess I’m a disappointment

…ok

[db4yup]

“On for tonight”

no I ain’t, I’m off for tonight

[violent-backed-starling]

The world’s a shitty, shitty place you see

[leg-stealing-bee]

“Golden idols holding rivals, take my body, anybody”

[starbucks-strider-deactivated20]

and that aint no fuckin lie

[ionlyeatcomfortfood]

There’s angels landing on the shore.

[capt-sparrow]

pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

[silversickles-deactivated202101]

“found another victim”

OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT-

[starsandmoonys]

“Been looking for the answer.”

Never found it I guess

[sirrriusblack]

“I’ve been thinking too much, help me”

Oh dear

[moonscarsandstars]

“liar liar, tell me what you see,”

ominous and deep- i love it

[piss-on-the-carpet-deactivated2]

lit up the world as i fell asleep (fireflies) LMAO

[m0nster-and-skeleton-gloves]

“I can’t escape all these thoughts in my mind”

d a m n hello I Prevail-

[c0ttonc4ndy-p1ckles]

“It feels like flying, but maybe we’re dying”

[dizzybxnnie]

“Hung upside down, holes punctured through half chewed“

death metal.

[manicpixiedreamenbie]

Will I miss the final warning?

(Breaking Benjamin)

[brokenskeletongirl]

"Everthing's in line." (Nightingale - Demi Lovato)

[brokenskeletongirl]

Boyfriend knows now.

After he found out about my sh I thought it would be over so I left. But he looked for me and asked me to come back.

I was hanging at his place watching a movie, and things were getting intimate. First time for us. I was hesitant because I have more sh scars on my ribs and thighs, but then he pulled his long sleeve shirt off to reveal sh scars up and down his arms and abdomen.

Turns out we have a lot more in common then I thought. 😥 He struggles with depression and sh, and bulimia. I wish he didn't struggle in similar ways I do, but at the same time I am so glad I have someone IRL to relate to. And maybe love, idk yet.

Am I a horrible person for being happy about this?

[brokenskeletongirl]

None of my clothes fit I look like a potato sack 😤 😏 #mixed feelings

[chasing-perfection26-deactivate]

Therapist: what made you wanna ruin your life??

Me, sipping vodka through a twisty straw: idk just felt like it ??

[thepiscesactor-deactivated20121]

Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

[minotaursauce]

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t

[xaldien]

“You’d be surprised”, said Xaldien, who just lost four followers and received a lovely “men can’t be raped” anon shortly after reblogging this the first time.

[minotaursauce]

Yowch, disgusting.

[samuraiko]

If I don’t reblog this, assume I’m dead.

[glory-of-hera-blog]

Always reblog this

[nygmobblepot-der-pool-deactivat]

If you Dont reblog this if u see it then i cant call u my friend

[witchofthefuture]

IF ANYONE TELLS ME THAT MEN CAN’T BE VICTIMS OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND RAPE, I AM SICKENED BY THEIR MERE PRESENCE ON MY BLOG.

If you disagree with me, unfollow my blog, block me and never look at my blog again.

If you want to debate about this or send anon’s about this, I will reply but your actions have consequences.

[witchofthefuture]

Out of 19000+ followers I have, only one of you actually reblogged about this issue, yet a lot of you have reblogged and liked a picture by playboy about catcalling and that how men should never do it.

Additionally, I have received abuse in my ask box (which I will be answering when I can) and threats. In particular death threats and rape threats.

I can see the real problem here already. Male domestic violence and rape is just invisible in our society because we don’t want to talk about this because it just damages the status quo of this fucking website.

[tarothy-deactivated20230301]

I’m a male victim of child sexual abuse. We matter. Please, reblog this.

[happerbunny-deactivated20211002]

Please never forget male victims are real and it can happen to everyone/anyone

[brightb-vt]

Make sure the romance is there on both sides people

[protectwoc]

Male victims are REAL

[wokesmalltownprincess]

Protecting our sons

[darkveryhumanteacher]

I SHALL NEVER STOP REBLOGING THIS WHEN I SEE IT.

[drstrangefangirl8900-deactivate]

Never gonna stop

[its-elvis-innit]

ALL GENDERS CAN FALL VICTIM TO RAPE

[smolanxiouscatvoid]

^^^^^

[god-of-identity]

fuckin reblogggg

[nix-rising]

i swear to fuck yall better fucking reblog this

[jacky2244]

The person that was supposed to love me and protect me failed. His definition of discipline was putting me in the hospital and peeing blood for weeks an 8 year old child.

[littlebubblez060222-deactivated]

I know some males who went thro it so I know it can I happen to anyone

[byliever]

Imagine not believing anyone can be abused or raped.

[maddiesmultifandoms]

I agree with these statements 👌🏻

Everyone can fall victim to abuse and rape.

[meadowsmagical]

[be-artistic-deactivated20230306]

[brokenskeletongirl]

I an having a bad day, so I am posting this to remind myself how far I've come.

Sw: 136.5 lbs

Cw: 86 lbs

[brokenskeletongirl]

I am freaking out!!! I fell asleep on the couch watching Netflix with my boyfriend, and he was so sweet 💗 he took off my shoes and watch so I could be comfortable. Which would be fine, except... I CUT MY WRIST AND WEAR THE WATCH TO COVER IT!!! 😳

There is no possible way he didn't see it, he hasn't said anything about it but he hasn't let me out of his sight since he saw it.

I know he wants to talk about it, but I think he is waiting for me to say something.

[residentcrashout]

POV: you’re scrolling through tumblr instead of facing your problems like a normal human being

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I’m not a person. I’m just symptoms and a trauma response.