Always Here

Admins Tarissa and James.

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I always feel so lonely, but hey, it's okay, as long as everyone is happy then I'm okay!

Admin Tarissa

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"I'm so sensitive...everything makes me break down...Someone doesn't like my art or something I make them.. I feel the pipes turn on...

Admin Tarissa

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"Why do I feel so...unnoticed? I've been siting at home all day, doing nothing wanting to talk to someone but everyone is busy. I don't want to bother them because I always do, so I just sit..and wait and when they have a problem I act like I'm fine to make sure they're better. So I just...act and pretend with guilt and dark thoughts flooding in, but I would talk about it but I don't know what's wrong and I don't want to bother you"

-Admin Tarissa

[jellifish-909]

I don’t exactly want to kill myself but if something happened to kill me i wouldn’t mind

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"Songs that used to make me happy now, make me cry. I recently went to a Fall Out Boy concert and they played Save Rock And Roll, that song came on Spotify. I started crying. Just tears. Steaming down my face for no reason. The songs they played at the concert make me cry now. I have a new perspective of the lyrics, once I hear them sung by the band I feel the pain that they feel I guess. But I can't hide it. Only in tears and words. Not lyrics. Since I'm not them. I'm just a listener that follows. But I have feelings too. So I can cry. And I will 'So fuck you and go cry me an ocean and leave me be'"

-Admin Tarissa

[tarisiris-deactivated20171219]

When I see people hurt, I feel their pain. When I see them cry, I cry. When people are depressed and I can’t help, I become depressed and they can’t help. It’s an endless cycle…

(via tarisiris)

[tarisiris-deactivated20171219]

Demons are real, they’re not just powerful entities that can possess people; they’re also in your mind. They live for your fears, the hate, and the negativity. Both feed off of that. The demons that are entities are worse but the demons in your mind are evil. You can’t ignore entities, but you can ignore the voice.

@tarisiris

[tarisiris-deactivated20171219]

When people ask me how I’m doing, I say I’m fine. I put on a fake smile while I’m actually dying inside. I act happy for them, for the friend or family member because I don’t want to hurt them. But you should know, when I say I’m fine; I’m not. I’m having a huge feeling of regret for everything I have done up to this moment. The voices come in and I don’t want you to feel my pain so I act, and I’m good at it. Sometimes, the end of a sharp object looks good but then I remember; I’m staying here for you. So I put on a smile and suffer through the pain. For you

(via tarisiris)