DepressedBean

[depressedbean0618]

hi. welcome to my blog. half the time i'm talking to myself, and the other half is me reblogging and adding onto other posts. i don't follow people or like posts because this is my side account. and before you ask, my main blog was deleted for stupid reasons. it's not like it had anything important on it anyway so i don't care. my humor is dry and my posts are shitty, hope you enjoy anyway.

[depressedbean0618]

i had a dream that my dad found my ao3 account and when i woke up the first things i did was make sure that my account was still there and my search history was cleared.

[depressedbean0618]

this is my own opinion don't jump me for it.

i've seen a lot of people talk about how romantic it'd be if Mike just suddenly kissed Will after confessing.

and honestly?

i think the most romantic version of that scene is the exact opposite. i don't think Mike would assume. i think he'd ask.

not because he's insecure. not because he doubts that Will likes him. but because he respects him.

Will has spent almost his entire life having choices taken away from him. he didn't choose to be taken into the Upside Down. he didn't choose to be possessed. he didn't choose to be connected to Vecna. he didn't choose the fear, the isolation, the expectations, or the years of surviving things that no child should have had to survive.

so much of Will's story is about things happening to him.

i don't think Mike would ever want to become another one of those things.

i imagine him stopping himself halfway through confessing, looking at Will properly, and actually asking if Will chooses Mike and feels the same way. and then, after Will says yes... "Can I kiss you?"

Mike would be recognizing that so much has been taken from Will over the years that he wants this moment to be one where Will has complete agency. where the answer is entirely his. where nothing is assumed, expected, or taken.

to me, that's infinitely more romantic than a surprise kiss, because Mike has always tried to protect the people he loves, and in that moment, the thing he'd be protecting isn't Will from monsters.

it'd be Will's ability to choose.

after everything he's been through, i think that's one of the greatest acts of love Mike could offer him.

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this was all inspired by a post by @wriwi (who also happens to be rewriting several moments in the script which is awesome)

[depressedbean0618]

as a non-religious person, i have so many different things to say about religion but if i ever do i'd probably get jumped.

[depressedbean0618]

even if the future me went back in time and told younger me a bunch of advice on how to get better and a whole bunch of crap like that there is a 70% chance that i wouldn't listen to a single thing.

[liquidstar]

If my mom sees a significant amount of blood she gets lightheaded, and has fainted on some occasions. Once it happened when we were kids, I wasn't there to witness it but I heard the story from my dad. Basically my brothers, around 7 or 8 at the time, were playing outside while my mom was making their lunch, and she accidentally cut her finger. It wasn't anything serious, but it drew a fair bit of blood and she passed out. My dad saw this and rushed over, but he didn't really know what to do so he just sort of started slapping her to wake her up (not recommended, but he had no idea and panicked)

At that exact moment my brothers both came in from playing, and all they saw was our mom unconscious on the floor and our dad slapping her. So, like, without even saying a word to each other they both just INSTANTLY start whaling on him, like, full blown attack mode to defend our mom. Which obviously didn't help the situation, but she did wake up and everything was fine.

Now our dad says that he's actually really glad they attacked him over what they thought was going on, because it means he raised good boys. And I still think that's true, they're very good boys.

[liquidstar]

Same guys btw. So they did turn out good yeah

[depressedbean0618]

things I have zero desire to get involved with:

dark romance - y'all please get your 8ft tall mafia CEO alpha wolf out of here. i don't want to hear how he growled into her face and snarled near her ear and drooled onto her clothes.

@satan-offical BRO GET OUT OF MY FEED. I KNOW I'M GOING TO HELL. I'VE ACCEPTED IT, NOW LEAVE YOU EVIL BRITISH DEMON.

the summer i turned pretty - FOR FUCKS SAKE STOP CONTAMINATING MY YOUTUBE. PLEASE. I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR THREESOME OR WHATEVER RELATIONSHIP Y'ALL HAVE.

[depressedbean0618]

"say that again."

“i— i was only joking.”

"then laugh."

[depressedbean0618]

I rehearse my goodbye in the bathroom mirror— its steam writes live across the glass before it disappears.

[depressedbean0618]

live because they said you wouldn't. live because the alternative is letting them be right. live with your hair unbrushed and your heart unguarded. live through the days that feel like chewing glass and the nights that feel like drowning.

live because your blood is still warm and your lungs still know the rhythm. live because somewhere in the wreckage you are still here, still breathing, still stubborn as hell. live out of spite, yeah, but live past it too. live until spite isn't the point anymore. live until the living is the point.

[depressedbean0618]

if you receive this, you make somebody happy! go on anon and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. if you get one back, even better!!! (❀❛ ֊ ❛„)♡

THERE'S ANOTHER ONE?? NO WAYYYYY

[depressedbean0618]

Just wanted to say I love all your 'random trope idea' posts. You're so creative!!

thanks anon! that means a lot!

[problematicghosty]

you’re allowed to be a boy btw. You’re allowed to be a girl. You’re allowed to be both or neither or something else entirely. You’re allowed.

[depressedbean0618]

you're not weird. you're not unnatural. you're different. and that's not the same thing. you can be whoever you want to be. you get to decide. living a life trying to satisfy others isn't a life. it's a performance. and every performance, no matter how big or small, eventually comes to an end.

and when it does end — when the curtain comes down and the audience goes home — you're the one left standing on the stage. you're the one who has to live in the quiet after. so make sure the quiet belongs to you.

so be the boy. be the girl. be both, be neither, be whatever they haven't found a word for yet — and if there's no word, invent one. people have been inventing words for as long as there have been people, because sometimes the language takes a while to catch up to the truth.

and the truth is this: you were never the problem. the problem was a world that handed you a costume before you could walk and called it a skin.

take it off. it was never yours. what is yours — the only thing that has ever truly been yours — is the person underneath. and that person has been waiting long enough.

you're allowed.

[depressedbean0618]

if you receive this, you make somebody happy! go on anon and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. if you get one back, even better!!! (❀❛ ֊ ❛„)♡

i don't know who you could possibly be, but thanks!

[tastefullyoffensive]

Portals to Hell by hrmphfft

[marchqueen-deactivated20161002]

IT’S BACK

[lady-dirtbag]

I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND THIS AGAIN FOR MONTHS

I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW

[2ndratewig]

ITS BACK 

[trumpetnista]

This is one of those posts that you need to save and tag or you’ll never see it again for 84 years.

[lyninabin]

it’s from 2013 with 2.4mil tags how the fuck have i not seen it before?!?!?

[depressedbean0618]

my favorite post hands down

[stqrrin]

i really like how 98% of my moots never question me and just like my posts

[depressedbean0618]

i have no moots (except one who i appreciate very much) but i like scrolling on blogs and seeing the posts turn from 'guys today was awesome!' to 'the world is fucked up'.

[depressedbean0618]

was outlining my whump story thing and the word count is 3.1k words as of now... y'all i'm only like half way. to those who are interested, this is the whump story i'm talking about.

Part 1 - The Beginning Part 2 - uhh Something after the Beginning Part in the future