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[derangedandbestfriend]

breaking up with somebody is so fun i literally left a man and now i'm more anti-men than ever before. no more of that bullshit

[derangedandbestfriend]

just saw this post from two years ago... my first breakup was so fun. current one had me choking on my tears and vomiting <3

[yurivettxe]

happy mcwexler 22nd anniversary :)) ❤️

[kimwifexler]

[kiraalexander]

AND NOW WE COME TO

jimmy became saul in order to stay with kim and it KILLS ME

like, throughout the entire show we’ve been seeing jimmy’s longing to become partners with kim, but most of all, professional partners. 

he started it in season 1 with bingo, when he tried to interest kim in going into elder law with him in his fancy new office.

then he takes the job with davis and main against his better interests and instincts, in order to stay with kim, because she won’t go scamming with him every night, and the only chance he has of really spending quality time with her is to work with her.

it’s only when his ability to freely work with kim on his case gets sabotaged that he breaks away from davis and main, and offers to go out on his own as wexler & mcgill. and he’s so desperate for this that when she offers the imperfect solution of wexler AND mcgill, he jumps for it.

when kim’s stake in their quasi-partnership is threatened, he goes straight to his scammer instinct and not just sabotages chuck, but hurts him in the way that cuts chuck the worst (because siblings always know how to hurt you the most).

and think about how much being co-counsel with kim must mean to jimmy. but the fact is, it’s his own trial, so the conditions are ruined from the start. he has to salvage this somehow, but with a 12-month suspension, how is he going to keep up the partnership he’s spent so long trying to achieve?

giving up the office means giving up the very thing that ties the two of them together in jimmy’s mind. the shared office space is EVERYTHING to jimmy, and he’s going to do whatever it takes to keep it… but he’s going to lose kim in the process.

and all of this could have been overcome if 1. kim had not been so hyperfocused on work and professional success (yeah, I’m going for Kim’s Fatal Flaw here even if as far as sin goes it is minor compared to jimmy’s), and if 2) jimmy didn’t think that the only way he can be worthy of kim is on a professional level. she’s signaled to him that his professional success has nothing to do with her love for him, but he can’t bring himself to understand that his is not a rejection of him as a person. he wants to do the thing he loves most with her, and what he loves most is wheeling, dealing and convincing. he does this as a lawyer and a scammer, and the only way she can accept him and keep her job is if he does it only as a lawyer.

BUT HE WANTS KIM TO BE HIS NEW MARCO. AND SHE CAN’T BE HIS MARCO.

like, i fantasize about a universe where mcwexler actually works, and it’s a universe where kim is able to take a step back from her job and success in order to spend quality time with jimmy that doesn’t have to do with work. but more, it’s a universe where jimmy lets go of the idea that he has to be A Successful Lawyer in order to be with kim in any way, and embarks on entrepreneurship with kim supporting him financially and emotionally until he gets on his feet.

and meantime he gets off on waiting on her when she gets home from work because, you know, sub.

[saulguzman]

@zafiroanejos so true. he’s debuting the sex robot voice

[saulguzman]

I thought of their unfathomable distance, and the slow inevitable drift of their movements out of the unknown past into the unknown future.

-THE TIME MACHINE

[ilex-opacus]

Thinking about McWexler like they're perfect for each other. They're terribly bad for each other. They're the best thing that ever happened to the other and the worst thing that could possibly have happened. They love each other so much and they're also literally married out of legal necessity. They'd stay alive for the other and get their life put on the line in the first place for the other. They're soulmates and they never should have met.

[ilex-opacus]

Thinking about McWexler like they're perfect for each other. They're terribly bad for each other. They're the best thing that ever happened to the other and the worst thing that could possibly have happened. They love each other so much and they're also literally married out of legal necessity. They'd stay alive for the other and get their life put on the line in the first place for the other. They're soulmates and they never should have met.

[justbwilde]

I’ve never really been a fan of angst-heavy scenes. But I have to admit — the post-breakup scenes with Jimmy and Kim have a strangely… delicious kind of angst to them. It’s not only about two people who love each other breaking up, but about what that loss does to their identities, and it’s incredibly fascinating to watch.

The last shared scene where Kim sees Jimmy — his real self — is their breakup. It’s painful because he is completely open and vulnerable in front of her. His heart is entirely exposed, and yet it still isn’t enough. He still loses her.

And then the grief never really comes. Jimmy isn’t someone who knows how to process sadness, how to properly mourn… so he hides completely inside Saul. Not just in moments where it’s useful, not just when he needs to perform for others. It becomes a full replacement of himself. He retreats into the shell of someone who doesn’t attach, someone who cannot lose, someone who only cares about material things because those things cannot hurt him again.

Then comes the divorce papers scene. Before Kim arrives, we briefly see Jimmy alone with the papers, and he clearly isn’t okay. And then, before she even walks in, he puts the mask on. When she enters, he barely acknowledges her, still playing on his phone as if none of it really matters.

Once she hands them to him, he puts his phone down and even gives the table a small theatrical double tap, a kind of “alright, let’s do this.” But when he actually holds the documents, you might notice his hands trembling slightly. He starts flipping through the pages and moving them around more than necessary, almost like he’s trying to bury the shaking inside the motion so it won’t be obvious to her. And then the performance returns, the casual tone and the “I’m totally fine” act. Not out of disrespect, but because if he dropped it, it would reveal how much it actually hurts.

And then there is Gene — the time when he could be neither Jimmy nor Saul anymore. He becomes someone afraid to be seen, living alone in a dull grey existence. Much like Kim, who doesn’t become someone else, but instead turns into a shadow of her former self. Both of them have to let a part of themselves disappear, whether behind a mask or without one.

Then comes the phone call after six years — the moment Gene learns that Kim asked about him, that she still cared enough to check. And we see the shell slowly crack, Jimmy briefly visible again, real emotion returning. First in him, and later in Kim, with her confession and then the bus scene.

When Gene’s shell falls away and Saul returns to negotiate the best possible deal, a single mention of Kim is enough to fracture that shell too.

And when he finally sees her in the courtroom, it all falls away completely — until the person standing there is no longer Saul Goodman, but Jimmy McGill. The moment Kim can once again see the man she fell in love with years ago. Once again, he was seen as Jimmy and not as Saul by someone who mattered.

There is a kind of beauty inside the tragedy. Because Kim was, in many ways, the reason Jimmy became Saul… and also the reason Saul was able to become Jimmy again. And I loved that.

[justbwilde]

I’ve never really been a fan of angst-heavy scenes. But I have to admit — the post-breakup scenes with Jimmy and Kim have a strangely… delicious kind of angst to them. It’s not only about two people who love each other breaking up, but about what that loss does to their identities, and it’s incredibly fascinating to watch.

The last shared scene where Kim sees Jimmy — his real self — is their breakup. It’s painful because he is completely open and vulnerable in front of her. His heart is entirely exposed, and yet it still isn’t enough. He still loses her.

And then the grief never really comes. Jimmy isn’t someone who knows how to process sadness, how to properly mourn… so he hides completely inside Saul. Not just in moments where it’s useful, not just when he needs to perform for others. It becomes a full replacement of himself. He retreats into the shell of someone who doesn’t attach, someone who cannot lose, someone who only cares about material things because those things cannot hurt him again.

Then comes the divorce papers scene. Before Kim arrives, we briefly see Jimmy alone with the papers, and he clearly isn’t okay. And then, before she even walks in, he puts the mask on. When she enters, he barely acknowledges her, still playing on his phone as if none of it really matters.

Once she hands them to him, he puts his phone down and even gives the table a small theatrical double tap, a kind of “alright, let’s do this.” But when he actually holds the documents, you might notice his hands trembling slightly. He starts flipping through the pages and moving them around more than necessary, almost like he’s trying to bury the shaking inside the motion so it won’t be obvious to her. And then the performance returns, the casual tone and the “I’m totally fine” act. Not out of disrespect, but because if he dropped it, it would reveal how much it actually hurts.

And then there is Gene — the time when he could be neither Jimmy nor Saul anymore. He becomes someone afraid to be seen, living alone in a dull grey existence. Much like Kim, who doesn’t become someone else, but instead turns into a shadow of her former self. Both of them have to let a part of themselves disappear, whether behind a mask or without one.

Then comes the phone call after six years — the moment Gene learns that Kim asked about him, that she still cared enough to check. And we see the shell slowly crack, Jimmy briefly visible again, real emotion returning. First in him, and later in Kim, with her confession and then the bus scene.

When Gene’s shell falls away and Saul returns to negotiate the best possible deal, a single mention of Kim is enough to fracture that shell too.

And when he finally sees her in the courtroom, it all falls away completely — until the person standing there is no longer Saul Goodman, but Jimmy McGill. The moment Kim can once again see the man she fell in love with years ago. Once again, he was seen as Jimmy and not as Saul by someone who mattered.

There is a kind of beauty inside the tragedy. Because Kim was, in many ways, the reason Jimmy became Saul… and also the reason Saul was able to become Jimmy again. And I loved that.

[eloiscbridgerton]

BETTER CALL SAUL 4.08 – Coushatta

[birdplushie]

it's just. how much kim and jimmy hate themselves, and how much they love each other, and kim thinking they'll be better off apart (together we're poison) but they're not really, are they, they're just running, they're just hiding, each of them a shadow of who they used to be, her so focused on not being bad that she loses sight of all the good she did and all the good she could still do, him letting go of any desire to help anyone but himself because he has finally lost everything and everyone that mattered. destroying themselves for nothing, to become nothing. she thinks breaking up with him is a good and necessary thing for the world, but it's really just a punishment for herself. not letting herself have the one person that makes her happy, like she threw away her job as an attorney, the one thing that made her happy, because she doesn't believe she deserves to be happy anymore

[bird-butch-moved]

my favorite little things about kim and jimmy's wedding:

- the fact that they have to be reminded by the officiant to face each other instead of him because they're both lawyers and are used to facing the judge's bench whenever they're in a courtroom

- the only person attending the proceedings is a guy who jimmy pays to do crimes for him because neither of them have any real friends. but also he's so invested he's like "Dude you Gotta get her a ring, i'll steal one for you right now" and "aren't you gonna go on a honeymoon??" and "at least let me take some damn pictures for you". love you huell

- them being like "teehee no we didn't do that teehee. we're Different" when asked about the rings and the officiant is just like. Okay.

- the officiant pausing in the middle of reading out the vows just to make a comment about kim not having a middle name??? who does this. and then kim and jimmy just silently laughing together about it like What is this guy's problem

- both of them being unable to stop smiling the entire time and then choking up before saying I Do despite how they've said a million times that it's Just A Legal Arrangement, Nothing Else

- "one more. one more." ^_^

[derangedandbestfriend]

no matter which piece of media i get obsessed with, it always leads me back here

[derangedandbestfriend]

i come back to this app like twice a year lmao but yeah a lot has changed. i'm in a relationship now, one of my closest friendships fell out and i just finished my education two weeks ago...

[derangedandbestfriend]

ALSO I FINALLY GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE I'M UNSTOPPABLE NOW (i'm scared of parking)

[derangedandbestfriend]

i come back to this app like twice a year lmao but yeah a lot has changed. i'm in a relationship now, one of my closest friendships fell out and i just finished my education two weeks ago...

[trvrphlps]

which could Also mean nothing