Where have I been?
Actually, I’ve had a Discord for the longest time. That’s where I’ve been all this time.
Honestly, I don’t know what to do here anymore. All the friends I used to talk to are gone, my old fan messages are gone so I dunno if the people I talked to changed their blog names or not, and my fandom days are past me so I’m mostly reblogging art. Not that I wouldn’t enjoy interacting with fandoms anymore, it’s just that the toxicity from around 2013-18, combined with me becoming super cynical, depressed, and trollish from engaging in political discourse (gods, how I regret that), plus the insanity that was that period of time made me slowly move away from Tumblr. Not to mention I was going through a really rough period of my life, between being verbally abused by my cultist parents and high school draining my mental health.
It was crazy, and I’ve done a lot of things I regret doing here. I didn’t know what the Hel I was doing, I was imprudent, brash, and really stupid.
But I also am happy that I was here. Even if I initially made an account simply due to having a crush on someone I knew, I ended up staying for the great time interacting with the fandoms here, even though I didn’t know much about some of them and I was mostly quiet. I liked the fanart, the music pieces, the crazy funny posts. It was a little light in the darkness for me. Superwholock, Homestuck, Avatar, all of that- it was a fun time. My other regret is not interacting much, and pushing back some of the people wanting to help and befriend me. I was way too shy, and I hate that to this day. So, what am I gonna do with this here blog? Despite my inactivity, I’m gonna keep it. I’m mostly reblogging art, since I barely follow fandom blogs anymore, but I wouldn’t mind reigniting that spark again, see if I can make more friends, and maybe do it right this time.
Although, I’m mostly on Discord these days haha. I’ll be leaving my Discord username at the end of this post, if anyone who still follows me wants to, you know, maybe add me, invite to a server so I stop being such a shy mess. I’ll also be tagging fandoms I used to interact with, so maybe my old friends can find me again.
Tl;dr: I’m mostly on Discord now but I miss the messy years when I was in several fandoms on Tumblr. UlchabanNos#0047












