How I like it

Hi I'm Mari and I suck at life and then I write about it oops

[deserted-daisy]

I was proud of you.

You made changes you said were good and needed. You took a leap of faith to better your life, and yourself.

I was proud of you, until you stopped.

You stopped making changes. You stayed the same. You aren’t bettering your life, or yourself.

You’re running at the speed of light towards the wrong path, and you missed the signs I put up saying WRONG WAY.

WRONG FUCKING WAY.

[remanence-of-love]

[feelingsoftheday]

Late night calls? I miss that shit.

[thoughtkick]

“It is a lonely feeling when someone you care about becomes a stranger.”

— Lemony Snicket, When Did You See Her Last?

[remanence-of-love]

[deserted-daisy]

Shit

[deserted-daisy]

I found some bloodstains on the windowsill yesterday.

I knew it was yours because you had warned me awhile ago that sometimes demons got into your mind and made you hurt.

I found a broken mirror and a bandaid wrapper.

I knew those were yours too because once you laughed and told me you had seven years bad luck for stepping on a mirror shattering the glass, and that you had to bandage the heel of your foot.

It’s poetic when I say it, but when you take your words for how you meant them they lose their desireable poeticness and drift off into pure inexplicable sadness.

I wanted you to be okay someday, but now I’m wondering if maybe you are just wasting away. I wanted you to feel alive, but your life is tearing you up and leaving you scarred.

I wanted to believe you were fine but maybe that isn’t how you really are.

[deserted-daisy]

It feels really good to be four months clean but also sometimes I wish I wasn’t because I was so comfortable with who I was then and now I’m searching to find a way to be somebody I understand and I can’t

[thelastmessagereceived]

“Too bad just lose my number and leave me the fuck alone" 

- a boy who once told me he’d love me till the day he dies

[giggle-star]

I’m gonna be the next Taylor Swift.

[lovelysuggestions]

if you like her, go talk to her. tell her you think her eyes look like sunsets or her laugh is melodic. i know its scary to be vulnerable, but living with the ‘what if’ is all the more haunting.

[filmaticbby]

[thelastmessagereceived]

He never came back.

[suspend]

have you ever felt that tension with someone where out of nowhere you just want to grab them, kiss them and make them beg, make them ask for more. their eyes and body drive you nuts and you just want them and you’ll do anything to get them, touch them, hear them, own them and you know you just crave for them and its like your life depends on it and you will never get enough

[y-o-u-t-h-s]

[deserted-daisy]

The person who fucked up my mental health showed signs of existence today and I'm :')

You are not even worth my time anymore and it didn't even ruin my day.

[williamchapmanwritings]

I am so sick of being sick of who I am.

William Chapman (via boyirl)