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Hi everyone. It's Sunrise mun, mother to my dear muse Wuoling.
It's been a really long while. I hope everyone is doing alright. Happy. Enjoying life. I've been alright myself, if anybody is wondering.
I'm writing to explain a little bit of my real life status, and how I've been.
I'm also going to be discussing the future of this blog, as well as my other RP blog that didn't really see the light of day, @flirtykitty
It'll be pretty long so I'll put the long parts under a cut
But in case you're curious but don't wanna read the long parts
TLDR if you will; I'll be archiving both RP accounts, and stop roleplaying them altogether.
Please don't take it too personally; this decision was made entirely by me, no third party or person influenced me to make this decision.
Long explanation cut short, I've been using all this time to think about me and my position on this roleplay community. I've thought that, with how I'm progressing and my current status, roleplaying will probably not work out for me in the long run.
So I've eventually decided this.
It means that all of Wuoling’s and Noctis’ relationships, threads and unanswered asks will also be deleted. I will also not be replying/answering them, since lmao what’s the point if you won’t see me again.
You’re free to erase them from your muse’s memories and pretend as if she/he didn’t happen. That’s fine with us.
I'll make my departure here silent so I wouldn't cause too huge a commotion. I don't want to attract attention either and just... leave as if I wasn't even around to begin with.
It's the best way I can think of.
As promised I will explain my reasons below the cut but for those who won't take the lengths to (which is fine)
I just want to sincerely thank you letting me and my muse Wuoling even into the most insignificant part of your RP lives.
I hope everyone continues to stay healthy and happy on here. I’m always thinking of you and praying for the best for everyone.
“Thank you, everyone, for taking care of me! I’ve been such a troublesome child, but thank you for your patience and guiding me. Now, I’ll move on to a better place. Let us hope we’ll meet again soon.”
“Kinda sad that I didn’t meet all of y’all yet, but hey -- what the kid said. Maybe we’ll meet for proper next time.”
And to all my dearest, cherished Roleplaying friends, is, are and were.
Thank you for the memories.
~ Sunrise, Wuoling and Noctis
OK, to the long ugly truth.
I’ll just start with what has been happening since my last hiatus post in last year November, to now, October of the following (this) year.
Right after I finished my A-Levels, I immediately got a part time job from my relatives contacts (and pressure). It was almost horrible, the hours were taxing and the environment didn’t really click with me. Every day I worked was an emotional and psychological struggle. It didn’t help when I got back my results in April, and I didn’t do as well I should. Pressing after that was searching and battling for a place in university, with mere single digit points away from my desired course, rejected in the end, even with repeated appeals and all. Even the courses I applied for with much leeways and definitely not my desired courses, I got rejected.
Each depressive state after another, roleplaying became the least of my priorities. Of course, you can argue and say that I can just write my problems away, interact with you all and just forget the world. But it wasn’t so easy for me. I didn’t want to translate my depressive state to my writing, especially since my writing is driven much by my own emotions.
If my feelings for my muse was gone, how can I write in the first place?
Don’t worry about me now. I found my way through this. I’m finally doing a course I really wanted. I quit my part time job, and am in the process of finding a new one. I’m alright in this aspect. Do not worry.
Now my second reason:
There really is no nice way to put this. I feel like a no man’s island here.
One of the main reasons why I came into this community is to make new friends, interact with a new world. And yes, I haven’t been doing a good job at that, I’m socially awkward and shy, yes. I’ve stated this on my About page, if you even read it. But I don’t mind not knowing you on a mun-to-mun level, I just longed interaction, maybe more than just one liners, but more often than not I’m just ignored in totality. Even my muse is isolated.
I have tried to interact: responding to asks, starters and talking to you muns in the tags. But more often than not, I’m just ignored. I don’t know why. Is it because I’m an OC non-canon blog? My character fits literally nowhere in history? Or is that you prefer to talk to your already set of friends? Then I’m so sorry for trying to barge into your “cool RP kids” group.
I see people prioritising certain roleplayers over others, and when I try to approach it seems my starter just gets ignored, my ask memes don’t get any attention. Then what’s the point that I even start these initiatives?
I feel terrible that I’m saying these when its one of my fault for not reaching out in the first place. But what’s the point if nobody takes my open hand?
There is literally nothing to come back to here either way, so why should I bother?
I’m thankful for those who went ways to talk to me outside of Tumblr, and really thankful for those who talk to me in the tags. I’m really happy to have met you lot, @eternity-hero @crimsontigerlord, who isn’t around anymore but whom I owe a huge lot to, @ladydiaochan and @the-cherry-blossom-healer especially. Thank you lot for trying to get to know me, and being the first few Tumblr friends I have
These are the two huge reasons I decided to leave this community. There are others, like the constant formatting problems and competition for attention amongst other reasons, but they fall slightly under the two big reasons, so I won’t explain them.
This has gone far longer than I originally planned, but I suppose it’s better to explain my true heart rather than chop it up.
I may come back into RP-ing? But maybe under another fandom, another muse.
Wherever I end up, you probably wouldn’t see Sunrise, but another mun in entirety.
Will you find me? I don’t know. Will we recognise each other? Maybe. Will you talk to me then?
Well, I’ll end here for now. Thanks for reading up till here.
I wish you all the best :)
ooc;; Hiya everyone. I just thought to post this as to update everyone on how I'm doing. I've been away for... about 2 months already? More or less. I miss my muses, but most of all I really really miss RPing with all of you. But unfortunately I won't be able to come back until.... hopefully, end of November. As you may know, I will be taking my university entrance exams (A-Levels) for the entirety of November. This is a really huge leap in my entire life and my future really depends on it. So I hope you understand that I really need to ace this particular exam. I'm really putting my focus on studying because admittedly, I didn't do so well for my preliminaries. Not as well as I had hoped or expected. Although I studied with all my hardwork and determination grrr... It's been hard then: kinda fell into a slump, getting useless repetitive advice, slight depression... But I'm slowly picking myself up, don't worry. I promise to do better. But overall, I'm just making this post to tell you guys I'm not dead, just MIA from tumblr for a little while more, just until I get over this obstacle. I'm ceasing my activity online from now on. I'll come back soon ^^ Remember to take care, drink lots of water and keep yourselves happy. Happy holidays and happy days to everyone~
[ heya i missed you <3 hope you are doing well in RL ]
Hooomi gosh when was this sent I forgot this existed for a moment--HELLO FRIEND First of all yes I am doing well as of now. Swarmed with homework and revision as I reply this (and in dire need of a break) but overall things has been pretty normal on my side.However my muse is still somewhere lost in the woods and I haven't had much time to sit down and get back into roleplaying.. I think this is gonna be the case until my A-Levels are over, which is mid-November (approximately). I still have so many things to improve on (I'm dumb AHAHA) and I think I will need all the focus I can.So until I come back, I hope you are doing ok! Stay healthy ok virus season has come upon us. 😷~Sunrise ♡
ooc;; thought I might make this post... nothing could really explain my absence better than just... lack of motivation. i lost muse for a while now and being drowned with reality isn't really helping that. i'm still around, you can message me and stuff and i'll try my best to reply. i'll just be holding off on replies and asks for a while. i'm sure nobody really misses me and that's okay. i'm just making this post just to remind myself I need to be on here sooner or later.
repulsive || hideous || ugly || not attractive || unappealing || not unattractive || meh || no preference || ok || mildly attractive || nice looking || cute || adorable || attractive || pleasant on the eyes || good looking || hot || sexy || beautiful || gorgeous || hot damn || would tap that || perfect || godlike || holy fuck there are no words
not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending || fuck no! || never || no way || not likely || not sure || indifferent || I’m asexual || maybe || probably || it depends || fairly likely || likely || yeah sure || yes || would tap that || hell yes || fuck yes! || wishing that could happen right now || as many times as possible || we are already having sex
Level of Friendship:
never in a million years || worst of enemies || enemies || rivals || indifferent || neutral || acquaintance || friendly toward each other || casual friends || friends || good friends || best friends || fuck buddies || bosom buddies || practically the same person || would die for them || true friends || my only friend ||
First impression of them:
I hate them so much || I don’t like them || I don’t trust them || they annoy me || they’re weird || I’m indifferent || meh || they seem alright || they’re growing on me || truce || I think I like them || I like them || I’m not sure if I trust them || I trust them || they’re cool || they’re genuine || I think we’re going to get along || I really like them || I think I’m in love || oh fuck they’re hot || I love them
Current impression of them:
I hate them so much || I don’t like them || I don’t trust them || they annoy me || they’re weird || I’m indifferent || meh || they seem alright || they’re growing on me || truce || I think I like them || I like them || I’m not sure if I trust them || I trust them || they’re cool || they’re genuine || I think we’re going to get along || I really like them || I think I’m in love || oh fuck they’re hot || I love them
How good of a kisser:
worst kisser ever || terrible || bad || awkward || just okay || alright || pretty good || good || makes me moan || excellent || exciting || oh god they’re good || I dream about it || fucking amazing || absolute perfection || we haven’t kissed
Chapstick or Lipstick: I use neither of those, but I’d go for chapstick
Last song I listened to: VIXX’s “On and On (Ready to Get Hurt)”.
Tagging: @crimsontigerlord @savageorchids @ladydiaochan @thegracefulflower @perfumednightingale @boldxvirtue @eternity-hero @narsussism @fullallthewei and anybody else who wants to do it too!
⊰ 🌸 ⊱: — “ Of course we can! Hehehe. “ molten hues shifted to her daughter’s visage, “ And if the Heavens are nice, perhaps even with a younger Brother or Sister,” a hand was placed on her flat stomach, in hopes of one day fulfilling her Father’s wish.
“ Hmm, picnics are your favorite, aren’t they?” Diaochan giggled, making haste to the grave sight.
“Brother? Sister?” A look of confusion was laced in her eyes before it all clicked, and her eyes widened in disbelief and joy, “Oh, I do hope so too Mother! I promise I’ll help you take care of them. I -- Ah, I should--” She kept quiet then, shy that she got really excited all of a sudden. Of course, it wasn’t promised so there wasn’t any reason for her to get her hopes too high. “I will take care of you, Mother.”
“I-I hope I wasn’t asking too much...” Her grip on the sunflowers tightened as she bent down at her waist, bowing from embarrassment.
Someone whom I connect to on a personal level. I suppose my close group of friends are one of those people. Recently I think I have been really distant from the friends I make on Tumblr so I can’t really refer to anybody here. It’s not that I want it to be such, but it’s just that... I guess I’m really tired after school and doing replies... I need some alone time too haha... Sorry everyone...
g – ghosts, are they real
I mean there are the stories...
h – heritage
Heritage as in...? Let’s see... I am of Javanese descent, from the islands of Indonesia I think? Although I do have reason to think I have smidge of Chinese blood in me, since I am nowhere looking Malay at all.
i – in love with
Some dude called Jung Taekwoon. Goddamnit. But to be really serious, no. I don’t have anybody in mind neither am I pursuing anybody. I have other things to focus on like A LEVELS D:
o – one wish
See my passed cousin again. I want to thank her for everything she had sacrificed and done for us as a family. She was my source of inspiration, and I want to keep that passion I have for her with me. While she was on her death bed, I had no strength to go up to her and talk to her, not knowing at all that moment would be the last time I see her. I want to let her know we miss her, and hope she’s doing fine wherever she is...
r – reason to smile
The little bits of life that makes you happy. Be it your favourite episode of a television series, an actor or singer, or ice cream from that place down the block. Live for those moments.
