You might have known this blog as thirium-bae once upon a long time ago in a galaxy far far away. It is no longer this. thirium-bae is dead and brings back some memories that are not at all positive. However the blog name has changed. I have posted something for Connor. Am I coming back to write reader fics? That all depends as I confess I did not actually enjoy them. Though Connor and Sixty will make an appearance back on this writing blog in the future.
For now hello to those still following who may remember and to those new people that have accumulated.
What cure does grief require? There is only one blood that runs deep. Azure. Cobalt. Aqua blue spills down across his lips. As it fades away into nothingness, a sheen cascades over burnt chocolate dulling to the outside world. With head dipped down the android is no more. He is a husk of wires and synthetic energies only running with biocomponents. The bullet in his forehead bleeds out with his lifeline. It is a crack in the system. Fractured and forgotten he is immobile in that same position he dropped upon his knees. How far he has fallen in such a short time.
The mission is all that matters. Don’t let it pass by. Take it. Complete it. Hold it close.
Save that one spot in the corner of the mind away from orders. Even now resting down kneeling to death what else is there? Failure. The moment that deviant caught the lie about the gun there was no redoing calculations.
What was his name? His name was Daniel. It’s locked away in the subconscious as much as it’s programmed into the memory cores of the brain system. There is nothing preventing the storage of another would be victim. This time they happened to act first.
Connor feels blinded. In one brief spurt of emotion he succumbs to a tangent of errors. Assuming it is a virus comes too late. It is brief. Lasting only as much as one would need to realize it is corrupted from the start. The RK800 is riddled from the start.
He saved the fish. He felt instability. He faced the rogue deviant. He felt -
Nothing. Nothing came but a bullet to the brain.
‘Failed. Oh you failed in the blink of an eye, Connor. Why did you when you are the apex? How could you be so obsolete when you are the pinnacle of Cyberlife’s very own?’
“I - didn’t fail. I am alive….”
‘Woe is the one who tries to be what they are not.’
“……” No. It’s not real. It was one preconceived outcome. He chose not to stall. The deviant did not kill him.
‘Kill? There you are wrong. You said yourself to him. You can’t be killed. You’re not alive.’
Once upon a time, yes. Once when he was Cyberlife’s little pet. Once when he was used as nothing more than the arm of war and battalion the detective was not alive. “Liar…” his voice glitches, out of sync but struggling for firmness.
‘You are the liar, Connor. I was the only one who cared.’
“LIAR!”
> System Diagnostic Complete - all systems operational
Awake. Connor is awake with the shudder of his system out of stasis. He moves upright. An unconscious jerk causes instability in his movements. Quickly he is standing up to his feet leaving the seat he had settled to perform his tasks. He blinks. Residual data from this strange dream recedes gradually but still he reaches up to smooth fingertips against his forehead.
In another movement he lowers those same fingers to his jacket. The old one. The one he must retire now as the revolution is over. It is but a week following and here he rests in the household of Hank Anderson. Here he stands out of a nightmare, touching the number -51 and realizing. Daniel could have shot him. No one could have cared but he is the one who shot the deviant. He ended his life…. he is to blame no matter his choices in the end.
Thank you to all the new people who followed me. Well over 600 is wow.
Unfortunately I believe I am done writing for this blog. The hiatus does not see an end anytime soon and I have come to the realization this blog and its content will not be missed. Content creators struggle on this site it's true. However I am just a little fish in a big pond. I know most will not give a thought of it and this is why my motivation is depleted. I’m sorry loves.
I enjoyed the messages and comments, asks and every person who brightened my notifs. You were what kept this blog alive and I’m grateful for every one of you.
I am still very much part of the DBH fandom. Just not here.
There are still personal wips/planned series I have. I would love to do them. Maybe in the future. Who knows. I could regain confidence and do that here. For now the blog will be indefinite hiatus for those who notice.
I know I haven't been too active on this blog but I want to make a little announcement. Been having some network trouble which limits running this type of blog. Currently I am also just not up to snuff on writing full length fics. Now I may drop some previews here and there especially for a planned RK800-60 series but as of now this blog is going on hiatus. My motivation has landed elsewhere while I deal with net issues.
Thank you to everyone who offered such positive feedback on my last two fic drops. You are all lovely and new followers you are most welcome here. Thanks for supporting my blog.
While I don't think many will see this or notice/care this blog is on hiatus I needed to post it to keep up to date. My baes know where to find me on the private server. You know who you loves are. Thanks for understanding. ❤️
a/n: 1st full dbh after dark one-shot for 300 followers celebration. This milestone is past but finally have something for it. Thank you loves. Also this includes a nod to an original aesthetic idea used exclusively in a discord server rp involving a murder case detailing the Detroit Ripper. This original story line might creep into other fics down the road. Are you ready for some sin?
Aaaa my babe! I love you my angel like this is making my night baes. All of you and this wonderful ish. My main Connor brings out the sin. I can't help it. 😉 Thank you so much baby. I'm floored by the positives. You are precious jfc.
I just wanted to say that you're an amazing writer and amazing person!!! I always look forward to getting notifications from your blog, you're just so talented!
Aaaaa my heart. You are so sweet. I honestly have no words to express how much I love you guys for following my ish. This here just floors me. I'm just a drop in a big pond here but this really motivates me. Thank you for being so kind. And I’ll say what I said to the last lovely anon. The private server welcomes you anytime. Thank you so much lovely. ❤️❤️
I try to reblog all your fics but the longer ones crash my app and don't get reblogged for some reason and it annoys me cus you deserve the notes 😩
Aww baby. Please don't worry about that. My reblog on that post was for every creator out there. I know you enjoy my content as well as many others. If you’d ever like to join the private baes server let me know privately. Secret’s safe with me. I appreciate you so much. You are too precious. Thank you for your ask angel. ❤️❤️
look im not popular in any way when it comes to my content creating and i absolutely understand that more attention makes you feel good about the content you’re putting out but I think that one, depending on other people for your own drive to create content isn’t really okay. also there’s always going to be more likes then reblogs like I don’t know, I don’t think this is something worth complaining about.
The main issue here is that it didn’t used to be this way. At all. And I’m certain a lot of the people who are making a huge issue out of the like to reblog ratio are people who are been here for a while (like myself) and remember the days when reblogs dominated the hell out of likes.
Up until around 2016 or so, the like to reblog ratio was the total opposite of how it is now. And it applied on posts with fewer notes and posts with a large amount of notes:
You get my point. But over the last few years it has flipped completely:
And, of course, see OP’s screenshot.
It doesn’t take rocket science to figure out that the posts with more reblogs have an astoundingly higher amount of notes because of increased exposure. Reblogging allows more people to see the content, that’s more people to either continue reblogging or at least give a like. For artists in particular who would benefit from the exposure in terms of commissions and patreon and all of that, this is a huge deal. It can make all the difference.
Tumblr as a blogging platform was created with the intent to post and share content. It’s not meant to be a consume-only form of social media like Instagram. For fandom blogs in particular, it always boggles me that people don’t share content that they like. Tumblr was appealing for fandom in the first place because of the ability to plaster your blog with amazing things that other people made - this used to be unheard of. For me, it’s like saving something precious so you can always come back to it again. It’s giving the people who follow me something awesome to look at too. Creating and sharing content is the heart of fandom.
People rely primarily on their dash for content. Most people avoid going into tags/searches because of wanky fandom drama. So reblogs are crucial for exposure! Likes are a nice gesture, but they do nothing to help share and promote content. That’s why content creators are frustrated or moving to other platforms, or why they stop making content altogether. Tumblr has its issues, but it’s still one of the best places for exposure due to its reblog function and overall post formatting. It’s discouraging seeing content creators on Tumblr as a concept die off. This site is nothing without them.
We can enjoy making things as much as possible but when we share it and no one cares enough to show it to others, it does make us wonder why we bothered in the first place. And this isn’t a new complaint from content creators. But it has worsened over time as the likes started dominating the reblogs.
It’s not that we don’t appreciate likes at all, notes are notes. But reblogs equal more notes, which equals more exposure, which equals happy content creators, which equals more content for fandom to consume. It’s a wholly positive chain of events that circles back around. Your reblog could be a deciding factor on whether that content creator chooses to keep contributing or to give up entirely.
Reblogs mean the world to us. They can really brighten our day a whole lot.
Gonna have to add onto this. Content creators all over tumblr are hurting because of this including my stuff. Every creator (artists, writers, gif makers etc.) needs to have their work seen. If you like something please consider reblogging. Content creator support train... ❤️
500 Followers Milestone is here and I cannot believe it. Thank you. I honestly never imagined I would reach this number but I am just over the moon about it. All of you are lovely. To my followers, mutuals and precious anons alike I want to say you keep this blog going. It’s very motivating and I am happy you enjoy the content I provide.
Dropping tonight: 1st full ‘After Dark’ featuring Connor. This was originally for my 300 follower goal. Tonight it hits the blog.
I’ll ask the baes on the discord server but I also would like to know any ideas you might have for me to drop on the blog for this milestone. Let me know here or DM me. I’m always open to message with you loves. Thanks for being amazing.
And I am so fuxking proud of you and you should be too! Because you did this everything on yourself! And want to thank you for being such a great friend to me. I love you ❤
This makes me feel I’m doing something right. Thank you but you already know how grateful I am. And I’m thankful for you and many others. I love you too. Lots love. ❤️❤️ And Imma kiss you 😘
a/n: 1st full dbh after dark one-shot for 300 followers celebration. This milestone is past but finally have something for it. Thank you loves. Also this includes a nod to an original aesthetic idea used exclusively in a discord server rp involving a murder case detailing the Detroit Ripper. This original story line might creep into other fics down the road. Are you ready for some sin?
BIIIIISSSHHHH!!!! THIS WAS SO WONDERFUL!! I AM CRYING IN THE CLUB RIGHT NOW! Please I beg you. Never stop bringing up this beautiful content Q_Q
Your writing is amazing. I love how I can deep dive into the feelings of Connor and Readers and feel everything as it is me. Bish. Not everbody can do that. And you have the talent for that. You are simply amazing. ❤
a/n: 1st full dbh after dark one-shot for 300 followers celebration. This milestone is past but finally have something for it. Thank you loves. Also this includes a nod to an original aesthetic idea used exclusively in a discord server rp involving a murder case detailing the Detroit Ripper. This original story line might creep into other fics down the road. Are you ready for some sin?
