hi !! i saw that ur doing jjk matchups and they look really good, is it okay if you do one for me? thank you so much 🔥
wait im so so sorry this is long as hell feel free to not respond if you dont want to oh my gosh 😭😭
personality: i dont think my behaviour really matches my thoughts or innate beliefs and feelings. i'm a social person, or at least someone who enjoys interacting with friends and people im familiar with, though i find it difficult to get to that sort of relationship because of difficulties with speech (which has gotten better over time thank god) and how nervous i am in general. im a very anxious person which i dont think is obvious but people keep pointing it out so like . maybe it is obvious. in most casual interactions how i feel tends to show up on my expression (i keep getting told to fix my face 💔) but i get better at regualting myself based on how serious a conversation is or what the people i'm talking to need. i think im good at interacting with my friends and coworkers and peers because i try to stay lighthearted and will adapt my behaviours based on the people around me because it makes them feel more comfortable but i still manage to weird people out sometimes. i can be direct with people but when it comes to feelings and stuff it's hard because like ... what do i even do i don't want to make people like really upset or uncomfortable
apparently im funny but im not good at telling jokes or whatever i just say shit and people start laughing
my personality changes a bit depending on my energy levels, which depends on whether or not i've taken my adhd meds or not 😭 when i have energy i tend to have a lot of it and am much louder and hyperactive- i spend a lot of time walking around or bothering people. it's very insufferable. when i have less energy im much more reserved and will stick to myself.
hobbies/interests: i actually like everything unfortunately so u gotta sit down and buckle up for this one
in my spare time i tend to bake and cook and draw a lot. i would paint more but the only medium that is accessible to me is watercolour and i prefer gouache and oil paints 😓 occasionally my friends will get a 600 cookie jumpscare when i accidentally bake too much. i also write a bit- mostly a mix of fanfiction, essays on media/film for school, and some journalling since im scared i'll mess up other forms of writing (which is counterintuitive because you can only get better by practicing but whatttever). i read sometimes, but im yet to find a book or genre that i really like. i used to aquascape but im a bit too broke for that nowadays. i've also done taekwondo for like nine years- i really like poomsae, and i wish i liked sparring more but unfortunately my sparring partners are very good at what they do ... also know how to handle some weapons (bo staff mostly) and do some groundwork and mma and boxing. oh yeah i play violin but i don't like playing by myself so i bounced around a bunch of orchestras and quartets before quitting. there's a bunch of other stuff i want to get into when i have the time, like jewellrymaking and diving and figure skating and ikebana and tea brewing but i have to do that when im less busy and have more money because i actually have no time nowadays 😭
IM NOT DONE YET. in terms of interests i really like marine science and biology and hope to work in expeditions like the ones done with E/V nautilus and research/discover species. i also like learning about politics, history, theology and philosophy though i dont really know where to start. kind of just asking all of the hummanities majors i know a bunch of questions. a lot of my interests overlap with my hobbies.
likes: shades of blue and green, fish, wet and earthy scents, seals, nudibranch species group, jellyfish, bo staff, poomsae, melon soda, long walks, good food, sunny weather, gachiakuta, sade (music), pinkpanthress (music), nabeel (music), tokyo shoegazer (music), karin hosono (artist) yoshimoto nara (artist)
dislikes: loud and repetitive noises, people who are annoying and arrogant and have no self awareness (one or two is forgivable but i have NIGHT TERRORS of people who bend all three elements omds), dog/cat haters, dry conversations and responses, if you dont like my dogs ill turn you into a pile of ash, burping (PLEASE STOP)
green: i will do as much as i can to help others, im usually honest with people (ill give you a better outfit idea if i think ur fit is kinda bad and i don't like to lie to people because it's not fair on them), im open minded and will try most things at least once, im good with kids and animals, physically affectionate, ill listen to peoples yapping and ranting, im good at understanding what people need, i want people to DO WELL and LOVE THEMSELVES, i care a lot, i will make us matching things, i WILL cook for you, always down to hang out, loyal
red: unless i have a moral/ideological clash with it i am VERY suceptible to just doing whatever people ask me to do, i can be stand offish and argumentative or i avoid confrontation completely (terrible juxtaposition i know), i can take anywhere from 3 seconds to 3 months to reply to a text, i get overstimulated relatively easily, im prone to snaping at people when i get tired and they keep on bothering me, i need people's approval constantly, im extremely lonely despite having a lot of friends, i tend to cut people off because i get very anxious when things are too good or i get scared that i'll start disliking them, i don't really know how to say know when it matters, im very anxious and resentful and i dont know what to do about it, i probably have one of those overachiever complexes or something, i cant order by myself and just whisper the burger i want to my friend so they talk to the cashier because im a WASHED CHUD, i've never had the oppurtunity to really settle down into any relationship in my life and feel comfortable around others and im scared i dont know how to love, i have ALL of the ugly undesirable side effects of autism and depression and adhd and anxiety and ocd, i need someone to hold my hand and walk me through living omg IM SO BAD AT THIS
oughhhh look at that red to green ratio im so tough (i stink like shit and have negative aura)
ideal relationship: i would like to be in a relationship where i am cared for just as much as i care for them, and where we both want to understand and look after each other. i would also like to be with someone who is affectionate because cmon i can't be the only one. i think i would need a lot of reassurance and direct, effective communication in a relationship. it would also be good if we could hang out often. like study dates and going out to eat and staying home and going on hikes and to aquariums THAT WOULD BE SO FUN. i think that someone who doesnt mind how my energy levels fluctuate would be great otherwise they would be sick of me after like 2 weeks 💔 not realistic but i would really like to be with someone who i can comfortably rely on and stop being so guarded around and gets me out of my shell. i also like being with people who i have interests and hobbies in common with because yes lets nerd out or whatever its called but i also like teaching people so it doesnt matter actually
random fun facts: if nobody got me zanka nijiku from gachiakuta got me ‼️ one of my friends said that if i was a dog, i'd be a border collie. i dont know what this means about me but i think she's right
ok thank you so much for reading im really sorry this is quite a lot but yeah. take care of urself and have a wonderful day !!
i definitely think you're a nanami person, you'd bring out such a lovely side of each other!!
you said you want someone who cares for you just as much as you care for them, that you need direct communication and reassurance, that you want to eventually stop feeling so guarded around somebody... that is nanami's strongest quality in a relationship! he is so unbelievably dependable that after a while your brain would just stop waiting for him to disappear lol he'd text when he said he would, he'd show up when he said he would, he'd remember the tiny things you mentioned two weeks ago because if you told him something, clearly it mattered!
you also said you're terrified you don't really know how to love because you've never had the chance to settle into a relationship before and that made me want to hand you directly to nanami. he would never make you feel like you're falling behind some invisible relationship timeline! he wouldn't expect you to immediately know how to communicate perfectly and he'd figure it out with you!
the cooking thing is adorable too because nanami strikes me as someone who'd appreciate homemade food more than almost anyone. you accidentally bake six hundred cookies? congratulations. half of jujutsu high is eating your baking because nanami quietly took boxes to work. he'd be incredibly proud of you in that very understated nanami way!
and i HAVE to mention your marine biology obsession because i think this is where your personalities fit together so well. nanami is patient with people explaining things they're passionate about. you'd be pointing excitedly at jellyfish in an aquarium, bouncing between facts about seals, fish, deep sea expeditions and some incredibly obscure nudibranch species. he'd just stand there beside you listening. then six months later you'd mention one of those species again and he'd casually remember the exact fact you told him. 🥹
i also loved that you said you'll make matching things for people because i think nanami would secretly adore that. if you made him literally anything (a keychain, a bracelet, a little charm for his bag) he'd use it every single day!
your honesty is another huge reason i landed on him. nanami appreciates people who tell the truth even when it's uncomfortable. if his tie looked bad, he'd WANT you to tell him. if you thought his idea wasn't the best one, he'd rather hear that than be lied to. you both seem like people who value sincerity over empty reassurance and i think that would make communication between you very healthy!!
and your ideal dates literally sound like they were written for him 😭 study dates? absolutely. trying new restaurants? his favorite activity. long walks? yes. aquariums?? he'd be completely content spending three hours there while you excitedly narrated everything you knew. hikes followed by good food afterward? that's practically retirement nanami's dream life.
also one thing i noticed is how often you downplay yourself. every few paragraphs you'd say something really lovely about yourself and then immediately follow it with "but i'm insufferable" or "i stink like shit and have negative aura" 😭 and i think nanami would put a stop to that over time by correcting the narrative every single time you try to tear yourself down!!
overall i think this works because you'd bring warmth, curiosity and so much life into his routine, while he'd become the first person who makes love feel predictable – in the best possible way! 🖤
