~Who ever has to deal with a bad life, don't' be afraid to be yourself. If you keep on hiding your true self, you will never be happy. No one's worth the heartbreak my dear~
aka how jason feels safe even when he feels like heβs dying
HEY today weβre going to play a game where we practice reblogging fics: if you read this and like itβreblog!! lets try to get a 100:100 reblog:like ratio ie, if you like and dont reblog i might block bc im getting sick of the lack of decorum
warnings: angst w comfort throughout
It took less than thirty seconds for the silence of the night to drift into sounds of shrieks echoing off the buildings along the street. The sharp contrast had you and Jason bolting upright on the couch, ears on alert. It only took a few seconds more of listening for you to realize youβre not hearing shoutingβitβs laughter. Maniacal, uncontrolled laughter.Β
Thereβs a beat as you both freeze upon the implication, the unsettling realization dropping in on you. You barely have a moment to process it before Jasonβs pushing up from the couch and heading towards the bathroom.
βClose the window,β he grumbles.
You blink as you register his words before jumping up to do as told, quickly sliding the frame shut and locking it. He returns soon with an armful of towels in hand, and you stand back as he stuffs a couple along the window sill with rough movements. He goes throughout the apartment, doing the same to the other windows. He rounds back to the living room window, looking down at the street with a heavy look on his face.Β
You trust that the towels will do their job in preventing the laughing gas from getting in the apartment, but theyβre unable to block out the bellows of hysteria.
He backs away from the window, letting the living room wall hold his weight. You both listen to the harrowing echoes with still bodies.Β
You watch him, waiting for a reaction. You donβt mean to, but you know youβre looking at him like heβs a loaded spring. You try not to, you know how much he hates how his family does that to him, but fuck, itβs hard not to worry about him. .
When Joker incidents have come up, theyβve usually been something youβre able to ignore or even get ahead of and drive out of the city. But this is raucous and chaotic, clearly enough to shut down the city from the inside. Besides, Jason would be booking it out of here if he thought there was any chance of a clean getaway in this.
But you know heβs got no interest in inserting himself in anything Joker related, especially something so destabilizing. But, whileΒ you know Jasonβs family cares about him, of course they do, but youβve noticed they sometimes put Gothamβs needs first and his second. So the severity of this attack is concerning for you for two reasons.
βWill theyβ¦β you shuffle, βWill they need you?β
Heβs quick to answer, voice firm. βNo.β A long moment passes before he adds on, quieter, βThey wonβt want me out there.β
You nod to yourself, trying to relax your body. You being on edge isnβt going to help him.
You watch as his head thumps against the wall, eyes squeezed shut. Heβs toughβyou know heβs tough. He can withstand a hell of a lot more than youβll probably ever even know. But even for Gotham, this is a lot. And even for someone who hasnβt been through what Jason has, the ringing repetitions of laughter are maddening. You wonder if this is what the Joker hears in his head. You wonder if this is what Jason heard.
The intensity of the laughing increases, more people likely becoming exposed to the gas. You think you can hear it in one of your neighborβs apartments too.
He thumps his head against the drywall again, hands clenching at his sides. It takes one more forceful thud for you to move over to him, cradling your hand to the side of his head, holding him still. He lets you, though he still doesnβt open his eyes.
βJay,β you say softly, stroking his hair. βLetβs take a shower, yeah?β Normally youβd try for a bath to calm him instead but you hope the waterfall from the shower might be enough to drown out the noise.
He takes a second to respond, letting your hand bear the weight of his head. βYeah.β
His voice is splintered though, and his shoulders droop as he stands up fully. He waits to move until you start to lead him, flinching at every spike of laughter. You reach back and take his hand, giving it two squeezes. He squeezes your hand back but doesnβt loosen his grip.
As you enter the bathroom he wastes no time getting straight to the shower nozzle and turning it on. You press the door shut behind you, sealing out a decent portion of the chaos. You decide against turning the overhead light on, opting instead to let the small pink-shaded lamp provide a warm glow that you can easily maneuver throughout the shadows in. You figure he needs a more tranquil atmosphere than the harsh white light the bathroom ceiling can provide.
You turn to him in time to catch him pulling his shirt up harshly, movements jerked and impatient.
You place a gentle hand on his forearm, βHey.β
He pauses his actions, eyes on the floor.
You donβt say anything else, but he understands your objection regardless. You remove your touch and he peels his shirt off slower, kinder to himself.Β
You wait to make sure he continues this method with the rest of his clothes before you start to remove yours.
The downpour of water on the tiles does itβs intended job in creating your own little sanctum away from the noise. You climb into the shower after him, standing in the stray mist sprays that made their way past him. The bits of water that do manage their way to you are hotβnot scalding, but hot enough that you know his chest is going to start getting numb very soon standing in front of the stream like this.Β
You trace lines over the muscles of his back, outlining them and every little indent of a scar. When you run out of canvas on his back you move onto his arms, right then left.
Itβs not until you trace down his wrist that you realize his head is angled down. You donβt need to be standing in front of him to know that his focus is zeroed in on his scar and youβre not sure how long it's been that way. Too long, in any case.
βJay,β you say so softly that the water nearly drowns you out. βWill you look at me, please?β
He does turn to you, slowly, but he doesnβt look up.
You hold his face in your hands, nudging him to look up at you. He looks tired, drained.Β
You know he has to hear that laughter in a different way than you do. Itβs uncomfortable and frightening for you, but for him, itβs layers upon layers of the sound he heard while he was being beaten to death. And even beyond that horrible trauma, the reminder of it brings forth every memory of what happened afterwards, not to mention the heavy baggage you know he feels over being here at all. And you can see it all mulling behind his eyes.
βYou know I love you,β you tell him with sincerity. His gaze stays heavy and you can tell itβs a struggle for him to hold the eye contact.
You lean up to press a kiss to the corner of his mouth, catching his bottom lip slightly. Your next kiss meets his lips fully. You have to push up on your toes a little bit but he does the work of meeting you halfway. Itβs a slow, intimate exchange, as fluid and serene as breathing.
βI love all of you,β you murmur against his lips. You let your hands fall to his chest, resting as gently as they can over his pecs. βEverything about you.β
You kiss the top of his Y scar, trailing down soft pecks to where it forks off. You feel his shoulders sag a bit, tension forcing its way out of him. You lean down to continue your kisses down the vertical line marking his abdomen, your hands lightly following in your wake.
He says your name painfully, like heβs begging you to stop. Youβll give him partial reprieve, taking his hands in yours and kissing his scarred knuckles. Itβs his instinct to push affection away, you know that, but you also know that he needs it. Thatβs why he doesnβt stop you nowβhe knows he needs itβitβs just a lot for him all at once, emotionally. Which is why he gives no warning before he picks you up by your thighs and pulls you close.Β
Heβs got you a full head higher than him and he uses the difference to hide his face in your neck. Sometimes he feels like thatβs the only place he can go. He maneuvers you around so your back is pressed up against the wall as you hold each other tight.
You stay in there like that until the water runs cold, and then some. You have to nudge him a bit into setting you back down then, but he does, letting you collect and wrap the both of you in towels. The second the water turns off you can hear the cackling through the walls.Β
As you return to the bedroom, he only bothers to pull on a pair of boxers before collapsing his weight onto the mattress. The lack of layers wonβt help him any, but you know why he did it.
He canβt always look after himself the way he shouldβhe disregards his own needs and has trouble even thinking of what could help him. Youβve developed a mind for it thoughβfor himβand you know that being exposed and vulnerable like this isnβt going to help him calm down. He prefers being covered up when heβs stressed, it gives him more security, you think.
You open up the dresser and dig through for his most comfortable hoodie and sweatpants. He takes them from you, but he looks remiss at the thought of exerting anymore energy right now, so you help him tug on the clothes, successfully blocking out the now icy air from the AC.Β
Once heβs fully clothed he pulls you forward to sit on his lap. You stumble a bit on the way but he compensates by holding you very tight, not giving your body any option to fall. His grip on you tells you that heβs not concerned with you getting dressed too, which youβre perfectly willing to oblige.
You have to force him to let you break away a little bit so you can reach over to the nightstand and grab your phone and earbuds.
βMovie or music?β
He doesnβt say anything, only nods his head once at the end of your sentence. You take that to mean music and open up your playlist on your phone, handing him the headphones.
Thereβs a harsh spike in the hysterics outside, mixed with what sounds like screams, and it has Jason flinching hard. You think you can see tears welled in his eyes as he fumbles to get the headphones in his ears. He takes the phone from you and picks the first song he sees and turns the volume up, up, up.
You shift yourself around so that youβre laying back against the pillows, giving him room to lay down over your legs, wrapping his arms around your waist with a firm grip. You pull the hood up over his head, but keep your hands woven underneath, threading through his hair.Β
His cheek mushes against your bare stomach, and with the way heβs laying, youβre sure the earbuds are digging uncomfortably into his ear. He makes no effort to move in any case. You can hear the song playing word for word, and while the noise exposure concerns you, if there was ever a time to let it go, it would be now.
Youβre both wrapped up nicely in the blankets and you can only see the tip of his nose and a few strands of ivory hair strewn past his forehead. Despite all the snug layers, he shakes a bit under your touch.
He falls asleep before the problem outside gets wrapped up, and you turn down the music. Not all the way, just enough that he can rest in peace.Β
After a while the giggles die down and aside from a few first responder sirens, things get quiet again. About twenty minutes later, Nightwing ducks in through your window and scares the hell out of you. The interaction does not, however, wake Jason up, which is how you know tonight took a very heavy toll on him.
Even though the lights arenβt on in your bedroom you slide down from the pillows a bit more and let the blanket and Jason drown your chest out from visibility.
Nightwing gives you a silent, if not awkward, wave and scans over Jason. Even in the dark can see the worry in his eyes. He looks back up at you and throws up a questioning thumbs up with a tilt of his head.
You nod and he nods back slowly as he takes one more look at his brother before hopping out the window.
You peer down at Jason and brush his curls back gently. His hold on you tightens just a bit as he turns in his sleep.
warnings: implied that reader is a virgin, age gap (bruce is older than reader), mentions of sex, smut in next part
You twist the stem of the wine glass around between your fingers slowly. Your chin rests atop your knees as you stare vacantly at the tiny puddle left of the drink. You could go refill it, but then youβd have to go back out to the main room and manβ¦you really do not want to do that. So youβll sit here, swiping your tongue across the bumps of the roof of your mouth as if it's a fascinating new discovery.
The creak of hinges has you shooting upright, your back thumping against the stair step behind you. Youβre not immediately sure how to act as though itβs normal that youβre sitting in the stairwell outside the gala rather than in it, fraternizing with old and new money alike. You freeze, trying to relax your posture so it doesnβt look like youβre alarmed at the sight of another person, but not so relaxed that you look as bored as you are.
Your neutrality stutters when you glance up to find the host of the fundraiser. The billionaire host of the fundraiser. Bruce Wayne, the billionaire host of the fundraiser. Your posture straightens right back up and your mouth snaps shut as you make eye contact.
Should you stand up?Β
No, heβs rich, not royalty.Β
You are in his house thoughβ
He looks you over contemplatively, βI donβt know you,β Itβs not accusatory, rather he says it like itβs something interesting.
You perk up at that, immediately formulating reasons to justify your presence. βOh, uh, noββ the words nearly spill out of your mouth all at once. You clear your throat, βIβm just a plus one for my bossββ
βWhoβs your boss?β he asks, relaxed.Β
βArthur Mullins.β
He looks to the side, squinting, βMullinsβ¦heβs the executive at Williamson Industries, yes?β
You nod and he returns the gesture, slower, like heβs processing through something. βIβm Bruce,β he says warmly after a moment, holding his hand out to you.
You nod before you can even think to get any words to come out, βIβyeah, I know,β you accept his hand, shaking it as you tell him your name.
Thereβs a slight glint in his eye when he hears your name, and he repeats it quietly to himself. βA pretty name.β
βOh, itβs justβ¦β Just your name. But rather than fill him in on that fascinating tidbit, you let the sentence die off.
He smiles kindly anyway, βWhat are you doing in here? Partyβs out there, or so they tell me.β
βIβ¦Iβm hiding in here,β you admit sheepishly.
He leans in towards you slightly, lowering his voice. βIβll let you in on a secretβso am I,β he smiles at you like itβs easy.
Your grin matches his, βItβs your party,β
βThatβs why I need to hide.β He tilts his head, βDoesnβt give you much of an excuse though, does it?β
βI donβt know anybody here.β
He puckers his bottom lip contemplatively, βYour boss.β
You shake your head, βIβm just his assistant. Iβm pretty sure he just brought me as a precaution in case he needed a designated driver.β
He laughs at that, βBased on the way Iβve seen Mullinsβ attempts to operate, his assistant would have to be a hell of a lot more important than just a designated driver.β
Well, heβs certainly right about that. Your boss doesnβt exactly βhave it togetherβ per se. Heβs an unorganized man with little to justify his importance in Gotham, so he tends to insist on taking on more responsibility than he has any business having. Not to mention, heβs a bit of a try-hard and youβre constantly left to sweep up the pieces of his reputation that he shattered himself. Not to say heβs necessarily unprofessional, he just will do anything and everything to prove he belongs in any given space. Itβs honestly a bit exhausting to watch. Itβs more exhausting to try and convince him that the exchange went well afterwards.
You nod slowly, eyes on his shoes. βMr. Mullins hasβ¦a unique approach to business. It does usually leave me fairly busy, Iβll give you that.β You take a quick deep breath, plastering on a fake smile. βBut that means I occasionally get to go to fancy parties where I donβt know anyone, so..β
βWell then it sounds like youβve got it all worked out,β he ribs, βOr donβt you agree?β
You smile coyly, βI would never be so bold.β
βI donβt mind boldness. For example, the reason I came in here is because he spotted me.β
You laugh at that, βMr. Wayneββ
βBruce.β
βMr. Wayne,β you suppress your smile as you pause, choosing your words carefully. βI think heβs just networking.β He doesnβt have the money to give.
He nods surely, βHeβs definitely just networking.β He really doesnβt have the money to give. You allow just the faintest wisp of a smile to adorn your face as you look down again.
You check the time and realize that youβve been hiding away for too long and that if he hasnβt already, your boss will notice soon. You sigh quietly to yourself, βI should..β
He turns his head to the closed door where the chatter can be heard from beyond, sighing in defeat as he shakes his head looking back at you. βSo should I.β
You feel a bit insecure as you stand, the gown youβre wearing is pretty but it is very much affordable and youβre sure someone as wealthy as Bruce Wayne would know the difference.
If he does notice he makes no deal of it, motioning you forward gallantly to walk ahead of him.
He follows after you, hands behind his back. βWould it be rude of me to ask you to distract him while I run for the bar?β
Itβs busy, even for a Sunday afternoon, and you have to sidestep past someone nearly every step you take. You stick next to the windows of the line of boutiques down the road, trying to balance window shopping and not bumping into other pedestrians.
You're in a nicer district of Gotham, truthfully an area you don't quite belong in. So far youβve only managed to find a couple shops that werenβt several ranges above your budget.Β
A call of your name has you blinking rapidly and turning around as if youβre lost. It doesnβt take long for you to pick the six foot two billionaire out of the crowd and itβs only half a second longer before you realize heβs walking towards you. A few people collide shoulders with you as they move past thoughtlessly, no regard for the personal space of the idiot that stopped in the flow of traffic.
You let him approach a couple feet closer before you ask him, βIs there something I can do for you, Mr. Wayne?β The presence of his figure in front of you allows for a break from being bumped into, as he seemingly makes for a far more easily seen and intentionally avoided target.
He sways a bit, βBruce. Iβm not sure yet,β he looks down to the couple of bags youβre holding, extending his hand out. βMay I?β
It takes you just a moment to move past your surprise at the request, allowing him to hold them for you. βAre you in a rush?β
You shake your head quicker than you meant to, βNo, Iβnot at all,β he gestures his head forward, allowing you to walk before him.
You traipse ahead in silence for a moment before deciding against biting your tongue, βWhat exactly is it youβre not sure about?β
He raises his voice a bit so you can hear him over the crowd, βWhether or not youβve got plans on the 19th.β
You look back at him, βWhatβs on the 19th?β
He stops with you as you admire a set of jewelry inside a window display, βWeβre hosting a gala for something or something else, hopefully less boring than the fundraiser.β
You blink, βYouβre inviting me?β He nods. βWhy?β
βI could use someone who wants to be there even less than I do.β
He said it so casually it takes you a second to even register his meaning. You blink, face contorting defensively, βThatβs notββ you can barely make out the smile on his face as he continues on walking.
You shake your composure back together and trail after him, rushing to catch up. βI donβt think Mr. Mullins would be very happy to hear that Iβm attending a business gala without him.β
He shakes his head as he scans over the crowd, βHe canβt fire you for that.β
βHeβll try.β He would. A petty little man, he is.Β
He scans across the rows of clothes leisurely. βWell, then he can speak to me about it. Besides, it wouldnβt be for business.β And then he just lets that sentence linger.
It takes you a moment to recover from those words and begin to start processing the world around you again. After a few more feet down the sidewalk he pulls you gently to the side by your lower arm, out of the rush of traffic, and looks at you dead on, βWhat do you think?β
You try not to waver under the weight of the eye contact, βI donβtβ¦uh, I donβt really haveβ¦β you look down, hoping to get the message across without actually having to say the words.
He glances into the store window next to you and raises his eyebrows, βWell then Iβd say weβre in the right place.β
You canβt manage to tell him that this store is definitely far too expensive for you, walking through the door as he opens it for you, albeit apprehensively.
Well. Up close window shopping is more fun anyways.Β
The spotless white of the floors and walls has you intimidated, and just as much so by less by the no doubt designer clothes lining the walls. The saleswomen all look pretty highbrow themselves, hair up in tight buns and uniforms chic.
You only break from gawking at the store to look behind you at Bruce. You note the way his eyes roam around blindly, looking for something and clearly having no means to narrow down where it might be. You take one more glance around, immediately finding the women's section with no such difficulty.Β
βThis way.β You say, nodding your head over to the left. He recovers nicely and lets you lead the way towards the section of dresses. You peer back at him, βYou donβt seem like someone that does much of his own shopping.β
Thankfully, he laughs at that. βWell, special occasions.β
You keep your gaze ahead this time, asking as casually as you can, βIs this a special occasion?β
He hums in consideration, βIβd say so.β
You stop upon approaching the dress section, taking in the immediately stunning display of options.Β
βWhat are you doing up here anyways?β you ask, hand brushing across a particularly plush dress.
βAh, I was headed to a meeting.β
βOh,β you frown, looking at him. βDonβt you need to go?β
He shakes his head with a puckered lower lip, βNo.β
A few seemingly heiresses roam down the aisle mindlessly, not caring much that youβre in their path.Β
Bruce sees them before you do, knowing well that they were not going to excuse themselves. βSweetheart,β he nudges you gently to the side, closer to him as the group passes. His hand remained open-palmed and flat as he guided you to the side, seemingly very careful not to touch you with uninvited boldness. Though youβre quite shaken by the chivalry of the gesture, a brazen touch wouldnβt have been the worst thing in the world.
As your arm brushes against a rack of clothing your gaze follows, met with something rather appealing.
Bruce is quick to notice you admiring the sleek black dress that looks like something youβd see a model wearing on a runway. βYou like that one?β
βItβs nice, yeah,β you murmur, not really thinking. You flip the price tag over and your face drops. βItβs $800.β
He nods thoughtfully, βWe can find a nicer one,β he says, though itβs clear he knows exactly what your problem with the price tag was.
βI canβtββ you restart, βI would never have a reason to wear something this nice again.β
He shakes his head coolly, βThatβs alright.β
Your shoulders drop and your head tilts seriously, βItβs not, though.β
βYou like it?β He looks you in the eyes, his own searching for a truthful answer.
βI mean, of course, but itββ
He nods affirmatively, βThen weβll get it. Problem solved.β He turns his back to the rack, casually observing the rest of the store goers. βPick your size.β
Apparently not one to argue, you thumb through the row until you find one that should fit.Β
You sigh, realizing that youβre running out of time to mention that you donβt have $800 to spend on a dress. βI canβtββ
βYou donβt need to,β he says simply as he takes the dress off the rack and drapes it across his arm, making his way towards the salescounter.
You try to stop your mouth from hanging open as you follow, βIt really is okay, I donβt needββ
His grin cuts you off, just in time for you to hear him mutter, βSweet girl..β to himself. You stop right in your tracks, feeling very thankful that heβs not looking at you right now because youβre certain the look on your face would give you away.
He still doesnβt face you as he calls out, βCome on,β as he continues on.
Obviously youβre not stupid. You know what type of intentions a billionaire playboy must have with a younger girl that he doesnβt even really know. However, if said billionaire is offering to buy you a pretty dressβ¦no, youβre not sleeping with him because he bought you a dressβof course notβand youβve made absolutely no promises to do so, so whatβs the harm in letting him? Really?
And yeah, maybe itβs a plus that heβs not bad looking, but how is that your fault?
You stand a bit awkwardly next to him as he puts his card in the machine, not even glancing at the outrageous number, and declines the offer for the receipt.
As you exit the store together and stand at the doors as he hands your original two bags back to you along with the new shiny black one that on its own looks like something people would pay for.
βYou will be there?β he asks, eyes more hopeful than you were prepared for.Β
You nod, gesturing the bag up, βWell you just bought me the dress.β
He shrugs that off, βI wouldβve bought you the dress anyways.β
You linger in the midst of the ado wearing a dress that you feel far too overshadowed by, fidgeting with the half empty wine glass in your hand. Unfortunately, this time around you were invited by the host of the event and it would be extra rude to run away and hide. That doesnβt stop you from considering it, though.
A hand sliding across your lower back has you momentarily startled, and for reasons you couldnβt quite verbalize, youβd naturally assumed it was Bruce. The disappointment rings strong when you turn around to be met with the sight of an even older man, who looks considerably wine drunk.Β
βHello there, Miss.,β The words themselves are polite but the salacious smile on his face and the way his eyes have no trouble roaming your body gives you a solid idea of what this conversation is going to entail.
βHello,β you fake a polite, tight smile and shift your attention to the rest of the room.Β
This does nothing to deter him, as he takes a sizable step back into your line of sight. βHaving a nice time?βΒ
The man is clearly from money, if his attire didnβt give it away his attitude sure did. Thereβs an heir of entitlement around him, like heβs inherently deservant of your attentionβa quality you were notably surprised to not have found in Bruce.Β
You give him your faux-smile again, this time tighter but half a second longer for the sake of politeness. A rookie mistake.
βCan I buy you a drink?β He asks, gesturing to the bar.
βIβm okay, thank you,β you say, gesturing your wine glass up.
A momentary flash of irritation crosses his face, but to his credit, he does a better job recovering from it than you would have expected. Though, thatβs not really saying much. βWell, pretty little thing like you shouldnβt be all alone here,β
βIβm afraid youβre mistaken,β Both of your heads snap to the side, finding a much more welcome surprise than youβd previously received.Β
Your counterpart's posture straightens immediately, βMr. Wayne,β he fawns, βWhat a lovely event youβve thrown. Iβm sure the Bernsteins will be appreciative.β
Bruce hums, eyes narrowed slightly. βYou areβ¦β
The man startles and rushes to finish off his sentence, βAlexander Watson, senior executive to the accounting department for the research wing of the company.β
He nods slowly, no recognition actually present in his eyes. βAh. The research wing of the company that just blew fifteen million dollars on prototype self-operating computers.β
Youβre trying hard to fight the smile creeping up on your face.
βWhat exactly is a self-operating computer?β
Watsonβs face drops, hurrying to justify his approval of the proposalβs funding. As he rambles, Bruceβs gaze lowers to where Watson has once again placed his hand on your hip, though heβs not close enough to you for it to rest fully or naturally. You donβt know him well but you can say confidently that he doesnβt look pleased.Β
He looks back up to Watson, attitude challenging. βSurely youβre not poking around where youβre unwelcome?β
Watson stutters at that, blinking and shaking his head quickly. βNo, no, of course not! I was just hoping to provide the young lady with some company. Thatβs all.β
βAnd so you have.β
βIβ,β about two steps behind in this conversation, Watson finally decides to retreat, βYes, good evening, Mr. Wayne.β He bows his head and shuffles away back into the crowd.
βMr. Wayne,β you smile knowingly, turning to him. βHow are you?β
The hardness of his gaze fades quickly as he takes in your appearance, quite liking how you wear the dress youβd picked out.
βThings are looking up,β he smiles, βYou look lovely.β
Β βThank you,β you glance over to where Watson has made his way to the bar, likely about to down an entire glass. βMr., uh, Mr. Watson makes quite the impression.β
His smile turns a bit sullen, βYou know last year he tried to convince the board that battery-powered battery chargers were going to be the next big thing?β
You blink, tilting your head, βThought you didnβt know who he was.β
His eyes are fixed on the wall as he tugs the corner of his lip down, knowing heβs been caught but not really caring. βIβm sorry to have been away for so long, it seems everyone needs my attention at these things.β
βAt the gala that you threw? Iβd imagine so.β
He rolls past that smoothly, βYouβre having a good time?β
βI am,β you say with a confirming head bob.
He regards the room with a numb expression, βYou know, I think Iβm getting bored with all of this.β
You smile at him, brow furrowed, βItβs only been an hour.β
He looks at you, eyes wide. βItβs only been an hour?β Heβs exaggerating his surprise to make you smile, and it works.
βI think we should go,β he says lower.
You stare at him, bemused. βYou still have a whole room full of guests.βΒ
He shrugs, βTheyβll filter out on their own eventually.βΒ
He clocks your hesitation easily, accurately noting it to be more out of politeness than actually wanting to stay at the party. βWhat, youβre not ready to leave?β
You look around at all the mostly old, posh guests, disinterested small talk evident all across the room. You take a breath, βAlright, yeah. Letβs go.β
He smiles and leads you out a side door and through a corridor thatβs significantly longer than youβd expected.Β
βDo you always ditch your parties this early?β you ask, following closely.
He makes a sharp right at the next doorway, βIf I can manage it.β
You look around at the high wooden ceilings and grand furniture. βArenβt some of them friends of yours?β
He shakes his head, βMy friends arenβt here.β
You frown at that, βThen why do you throw them at all?β
βWhy did you show up last weekend?β
You nod slowly, understanding. βItβs your job.β
He returns the nod, adding, βOnly difference is, thereβs not a chance in hell you get paid enough for the work you do for Mullins.β
For the sake of maintaining your wishful facade of professionalism, youβre going to not acknowledge that incredibly accurate statement. Instead you smile politely and continue on walking. He seems to get the implication, returning it with an even brighter adornment.
βWell, moneyβs money,β you say wryly.
His smile fades a bit, βYou shouldnβt have to worry about things like that.βΒ
You shrug, βA day in the life,β
He looks sullen upon hearing that, with more sympathy than youβd have expected from someone of his stature. Heβs done nothing if not surprise you, though.
βHere,β he says, taking hold of the handle of a glass door. It opens to a garden, lit up beautifully by the moon and outdoor light. A fountain sits in the middle, water rhythmically gushing out of the top and trickling down the sides. The bite of the Gotham night air burns at your cheeks a bit and you find yourself thankful the dress youβd chosen is so long.
Bruce leads the way to an expensive marble bench positioned nicely in front of it, allowing you to sit first before following suit. Your hands find a place in your lap, clasped together awkwardly in an attempt to find warmth through contact.
It takes Bruce less than ten seconds to stand, remove his suit jacket, and drape it over your shoulders before sitting back down. The material is thicker and warmer than you wouldβve expected, surely reminiscent of the perks of being owned by a billionaire.
He doesnβt look at you to acknowledge the grateful expression on your face, simply carrying on like it didnβt happen. βWas hoping it was warmer,β he murmurs.
Your focus momentarily goes to the icy cold stone of the bench under your thighs, initially finding it uncomfortable before deciding the coolness actually felt quite soothing. You remove your gaze from the gray stone and turn your head to find Bruce already focused on you.
You start to say something, though youβre not sure what it wouldβve been, when he brushes his thumb over your bottom lip, pulling it down.
Well, he certainly knows what heβs doing, doesnβt he?
His eyes stay on your lower lip as he murmurs, βYouβre a pretty girl, you know that?βΒ
God, heβs a professional.
You look up at him and refrain from saying anything, waiting to see if he follows it up with something that will make you regret agreeing to coming out here with him.
He doesnβt.
You shift, moving your hands off your lap to rest on the stone under you. βYou canβt just do thisββ
He smiles and lowers his chin to look you in the eyes, βThen what can I do for you?β
βYouββ you blink rapidly, βStop it.β
His coy beam persists, βStop what?β
You raise your gaze up to him ever so slightly, a pouty expression across your face that youβre trying to sell as serious. βYouβre trying to make me nervous.β
βDo I make you nervous?β He tilts his head down further, a ghost of a smile echoing on his lips, βI donβt mean to, sweet girl.β
Your eyes drop to the ground, biting your tongue. βYeah.β
His simper grows, βIβm serious. Iβd hate to scare away a new friend.β
You laugh at that and he perks up a bit at the sound, βWhat? Weβre not friends?β
You cock your head to the side, βYouβre the one who said none of your friends are here.β
He hums, βMaybe I spoke too soon.β
βYou think so?β You should probably stop flirting so much.Β
βYeah,β he leans in a bit closer, βI do.β
βWhyβs that?β
βMaybe I want to be your friend,β his hand finds a place atop yours.Β
Your eyes flicker across his face as he closes in, βWhat if I donβt want to be yours?β
His eyes are on your lips, βIβm sure we can work something out.β
You take a slow deep breath, βYour intentions are blurry.β
He smiles lightly, amused. βWeβll have to clear that up then, wonβt we?β His lips are inches away and his voice is soft as he says, βIβm going to kiss you now, okay?β
You look up at him eyes wide, barely processing his words as you nod. He gently grasps your jaw in his hand, tilting your head up. His other hand finds the back of your head, holding you in place as he kisses you with intention. Your hands hover in the air for a second before holding onto his forearms.Β
He breaks the kiss only to give you another sweet one right after. Your mouths remain close when itβs over, eyes still shut, trying to catch your breath. You stay like that for a moment until he kisses you once more on your cheekbone before pulling away. His hands drop to rest on your knees, the weight of them gentle.
He hums lowly, βSweet thing..β
Being under the heaviness of his gaze leaves you feeling vulnerable. Itβs starting to get you concerned with the potential levity and implications of kissing him. The expectations.
βYouβ¦β you stare down at where his hands meet your skin, not quite sure that you actually meant to start that sentence.Β
βWhat?β he frowns, brow pinched. Your chin lowers further as your mouth forms a tight line. He shakes his head, βNo, itβs alright. What is it?β he asks gently.
It takes a surge of willpower for you to get the sentence out, βYou just want to sleep with me..β
He frowns harder at that, pulling back a bit. βNo. Iβmβ¦β he sighs, βIβm not trying to lure you in just to toss you out right after.β
That makes you look up again. His voice has a sincerity to it that you werenβt prepared for.Β
He continues, βI would like to, yes. Yeah. Youβre beautiful, of course I would, but..β he looks down at his hands before looking back up at you, βNo, thatβs not the most important thing to me.β
You break eye contact again, thinking over his words. If thatβs not the most important thing to him, what is? You canβt think of what else he could possibly want from you, a billionaire who could have anything he wants..the only thing you could have to offer in his eyes is sex.Β
Right?
He exhales, βIf you want to leave, Iβll call you a car. No hard feelings.β He nudges your chin up gently so youβll look at him, but he gives you the freedom to fight against it if you wanted to.
You let him move you.
βI donβt want to leave,β you tell him, looking into his eyes. βWhat do you want?β
βWhatever you want,β he says it like itβs automatic. You physically canβt help but roll your eyes at the corniness of it. He doubles down, though, βSeriously. Anything.β
You smile in disbelief, shaking your head.
βAlright,β he returns your smile, straightening, βHereβs what weβre going to do. Do you need a ride home?β
You blink at him, βIβm going home?β
βYou are,β he nods softly, βDo you need a ride?β
βNo.β
He nods again, more like heβs working through something in his head. βOkay. Youβre going to go home and think through what you want. If you decide you want to, come back here next Saturday.β he stands up, extending his hand out to you, βThen you can let me know what else you want and we can get to work on that too.β
You start to shake your head, βI canββΒ
He drops his chin seriously, βThink on it.β
You relent easily, taking his hand and coming to a stand.
βAlright?β Again, his question is genuine. He does really want to know if youβre on board with this plan.Β
Already going against his request, you agree without a thought, βOkay.β
He starts to lead you back over to the garden door with a head nod and a kind smile.
It ultimately was not a decision you had to think very hard on.
Youβd considered every scenario of how this could play out and none of them ended with regret as far as you could guess.
Youβll still admit though, there was one scenario you had missed, apparently, which is why you were immeasurably confused when you showed up and he invited you to play chess.
Heβs not wearing a fancy three piece suit this time, but his clothes are still very nice. With the sunlight peeking through the windows, youβre able to see the manor more clearly than you had been the other night. It really is a beautiful home, clearly very old and charmed, but thereβs a lot of little details of character and history scattered around. Thereβs portraits and photographs of his parents from when he was young and furniture decorated with trinkets all throughout, kept absolutely spotless and dust free. Everything is neat and tidy but thereβs still traces of the house being lived in with the patched throw pillows and worn carpets. Still, itβs very, very placid.
Youβve met new money plenty of times over the course of dealing with countless businessmen for Mr. Mullins but old money is something entirely different. You donβt really have a frame of reference here. New money is almost always brash and demanding, they like things done quickly and correctly the first time around. Theyβre usually not very interested in hearing what you have to say (even if it would save them a lot of trouble) and prefer it when the assistants women keep their mouths shut. Bruce has proven to be very different from these standards already and youβre not sure where to begin with placing new ones.
Youβre about halfway through a second game, and while youβre not awful at chess, you get the impression that heβs easing up on you considerably.
You sit on the floor in front of a short coffee table, the game having no clear lead so far.
βI think this is stressing me,β you mumble, no actual weight behind your words.
βItβs just chess,β he says, not looking up from the board.
You watch him move his knight forward as you ask, βAnd thatβs all weβre doing?β
βAs it stands, yes,β he looks up at you, though you donβt return his gaze.
βYeah,β you sigh, sliding your rook, βBut later?β
βLater?β
βWell, you said...β you meet his eyes, βYou said you wanted to sleep with me.β
He nods slowly, βI do. Is that alright?β
You consider it for a moment. You already knew that, if you really werenβt okay with it you wouldnβt have come here. And yeah, the idea makes you a little shaky, but in a good way.
βYes,β you tell him, moving your queen forward two spaces.
βAre you sure?β he presses, moving to sit on the side of the table rather than behind it.
You do the same, sitting on your knees. βYeah, I just..β you shift your weight, eyes wandering. βIβm notβ¦overly experienced.β
He just smiles at that, like itβs endearing. Your words didnβt quite convey your meaning but your tone did. In any case, he understands the implication. βThatβs alright, sweetheart. Iβm not going to throw you in the deep end.β
You nod, looking down again.
βYouβre nervous,β he comments.
βNo, IβmβI mean, maybe,β your voice is barely a murmur by the end of the sentence.
Heβs quiet for a moment, observing the way you fiddle with your rings. βWhat if we get you something pretty to wear? Something that makes you feel pretty. Whatever you want.β
He fishes his wallet out of his pocket, opening and pulling out a lump of cash without even looking. He holds the money out to you wordlessly and you can see from the bill on the outside that itβs at least a couple hundred dollars.
You shake your head instantly, βI canβt take that.β
He doesnβt put the money down but his eyes turn to begging. βPlease. I just want you to feel good.β
βBruceββ
He wavers a bit at that but itβs more of a falter than youβve seen from him before so itβs easy to take notice of. βWhat?β
He shrugs barely, βI like when you say my name.β
Your eye contact holds for a moment and your resolve starts to shake almost instantly.
You exhale, βIβm not taking more than a hundred.β
βTwo hundred.β
βBruce.β
He smiles and picks out some of the cash and pockets it, handing you the rest. You donβt comment on the fact that itβs a hundred and fifty more than youβd agreed on.
You look down at the money in your hand like itβs a foreign object, shaking your head. βI donβt even know what to get.β
His thumbs start to rub reassuring circles by the bend of your knees, βAnything you want,β he tells you. βWhat do you like? Silk, lace, cotton, anything.β
You look up, tilting your head at him with a furrowed brow. βIt doesnβt matter what I like, thββ
βIt only matters what you like,β He says seriously, lowering himself to meet your gaze. βIβll love it, no matter what you pick. Donβt worry about that.β
You lean forward a bit instinctually, βOkay.β
His eyes scan across your face in something that you can only recognize as awe.
βWhy are you looking at me like that?β you whisper.
βI want to kiss you again,β he says, voice even quieter.
Your eyes go to his mouth and you can only manage a nod, lips already parted.
He moves forward not a second later, kissing you with more fire than youβd gotten to see the other night. His hands grab at your waist, squeezing lightly as you hook one hand around the back of his neck, pulling him closer.
You hear the clatter of chess pieces falling over as he moves nearer to you, large frame leaning over you. You push up on your knees, meeting his lips up at his level. His hands caress around your hips as the kiss gets deeper.
You just start to fumble with the hem of his shirt when he takes your hands in his, pulling them away before breaking the kiss.
βEasy, sweet girl,β he smiles, nudging you back with little force.
You groan, βWhy?β
He barks out a laugh at that, stroking your hips again. βIβm not fucking you for the first time on the floor.β
βThen let's go somewhere else,β you nod up towards the stairs.
He shakes his head, that soft smile still playing on his lips. βNot tonight.β
You sit back on your heels again, frowning.
He brushes your hair back, murmuring, βNo. But for now, I'll kiss you βtil you canβt think if thatβs what you want.β
You really hope you didnβt perk up at that as much as you think you did.
πΎπ½ i heard a rumor that if you like without reblogging your crops will be cursed but hey what do i know πΎπ½
I tried to cover most types of witches I can think of but feel free to request some if I missed them! Im gonna make a second post with the ones I missed
Green witch teaπΏ
-1 teaspoon green tea leaves
-1 teaspoon sage leaves
-1 teaspoon basil leaves
Air witch teaπ¨
- 1 teaspoon of roasted dandelion or white tea
-1 teaspoon of lemongrass
-1teaspoon of lavender
Sea witch teaπ
-1 teaspoon of Jasmine buds
-1 teaspoon of hibiscus flower
-1 teaspoon of dried berries or 1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
Rarely does your bedroom simply serve as a bedroom. It can become your office, your garden, your gym, your rehearsal space, your library, and your art studio all throughout the course of a day. It becomes whatever you need it to be while trying to keep your spirits up amid the loneliness of sheltering in place.
Tumblr Creatr Thoka Maer (@thokamaer) illustrates how keeping occupied with your interests and hobbies helps the hours pass when isolation makes time feel like itβs standing still.
living in the old house, growing lemons, making a herbarium, having plants everywhere at home, spending time outside working in the flower garden, relaxing in the shade of the tree, eating fresh fruits with your friends and enjoying the sunshine
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