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I’m tired.

You know amidts this pandemic, (did I even spell that right) I’m just mentally tired.

I’m trying to be emotionally tough but I’m just getting tired too.

I thought I was over these teenage feelings but apparently I’m not.

I’m just imagining myself cutting myself, bleeding to death and drowning in alcohol and just never waking up.

This is why I think it should have been my sister who is alive and not me.

She probably have more will and a better future.

I hate my body’s survival instincts and my fear of pain. If I didn’t have those I probably would have attempted to do it already.

You know, this is why I don’t believe in stability and peace of mind because when I think I finally have them, the carpet seems to be pulled from under me.

I make this sound like I’m the unluckiest person, but well I’m not the unluckiest, probably just the mentally weakest.

This past few night I’m just wishing I sleep and don’t wake up but morning after morning I wake up.

LOL I shouldn’t even be writing this. This is supposed to be a positive diary because I wanted to change and to improve myself, but again and again I’m back in this pessimistic train of thoughts.

My friends are all busy with their lives and I hope they are in a better state of mind than me.

I’m probably jsut being overly dramatic. It’s not the end of the world.

Dreams of Getting Shot many times...

Through the neck and in other parts of the body but not dying.

I can’t remember who shot me but it was someone I know, there is that nagging feeling about the shooter’s identity.

So I was shot, the gun seems to be an air gun. the pellets were penetrating my body and there was a slight pain at least with how my brain interprets that dream...I was pretending to be dead so the shooting will stop which it only temporarily did....like somehow the shooter figured out I was alive and started shooting a me again.

Finally as a last boost of strength I fought back and ran away and I was saved and seemingly I woke up to a year later timeline and just gave birth to a child whose supposedly a prince. Funny enough it was implied I had another child who was born earlier.

Then I was flying and I have powers, I was powerful. The powers were supernatural.

It’s a weird dream I know they were connected because the airgun scars were shown in the second dream and I seem to be getting revenge of some sort.

I woke up in the middle of my ” revenges”

dreams are really strange :))

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It'd be nice if I could sing songs forever;It'd be nice if I could compose music forever.If only I could keep my dreams forever -If only I could live as myself forever… Beautiful things alone cannot live forever -But that's something I already know.And just like the adults all around me,I also have to understand the world. To become an adult, that dream I've thrown away...Could I pick it back up someday?It has lots of things I don't wish to lose,So I can't pass it on just yet:Sorry about this. Because I can't sing songs forever -Because I can't compose music forever -If I kept my dreams forever,It'd be difficult to even survive. Both giving up and persevering…Both are wrong and right.And just like the adults all around me…I will never be able to decide on my own. "Are you satisfied with that life?"If you ask me, this is my answer -"I don't want it that way!"I have a dream!I have a dream...!If there is anyway at all-Please don't take it away from me... To become an adult, that dream I've thrown away...Could I pick it back up someday?It has lots of things I don't wish to lose,And that is why, forever,I will continue to protect it.

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THIS JANUARY 31ST THERE WILL BE A BLUE MOON 🌕💙

It will be a Full Moon, Super Moon and a Lunar Eclipse

And all this as we enter 2018

I’m pretty freaking sure this must mean something if you believe in superstitions or something, a signal that 2018 will be great.

A Blue moon is often associated with doing the impossible hence “Once in a Blue Moon” 2018 is the year where you do things, the things you love and make you happy. Go and take risks its ok. Wheter it turns out good or bad you will know you tried an the satisfaction will be great.

A Full Moon also has a lot of power. 2018 will be the year you become complete and shine. Harvest what your hard work has sowed. Pamper yourself. Love yourself. Its time.

A Super Moon is also a rare occurence and the moon appears bigger and shines brighter than any other time. In 2018 its time be the moon. Shine bright because you are beautiful. Time to recognize your talents and let yourself impress. Shine and don’t be afraid to show yourself. Become big and bright like the moon.

A lunar eclipse involves the moon an the sun coming together. Without the sun the moon wouldn’t be able to shine and so do you. 2018 is time to let go of toxic relationships and get some that will bring the best out of you, that will make you shine bright like the moon. Friends here are a necessary part of life that if well chosen can lead to your success. Dont be afraid to let go.