[diaryofsblog]

Can I be sick of something so much it changes me?

Or do I learn to be resilient

I’m so sick right now

[diaryofsblog]

My mom doesn’t know me

I find it randomly

A sense of wonder, really a question

Do I cross her mind?

And if I do, what does she think

I find joy in the excitement of her not knowing

Her answer would be a bunch of guesses

Because she doesn’t even know my name

but she named me

[diaryofsblog]

Bless the telephone

Hey! I remember you

Such sweet innocent times

How are things with you?

I wonder if i'm still in your audience..

But l am no one.

I miss how you said my name

PBS kids is possible with viewers like you

I'm still in love with you

Is it odd for me to feel fuzzy?

Do I have the luxury to be lax

I miss you, terribly.

We were taken from eachother too soon.

[diaryofsblog]

Can I be blamed for falling in love when it was supposed to be transactional?

CAN I?

[diaryofsblog]

“A girl who doesnt have a mom”

I don’t know how you do this

By day 2 I would’ve quit

But for some reason you persist

I wish you wouldve..

Every new year, new endeavor

I like to call it adventure

But in my mind; to you its whatever

Sadly i’m always looking for my mentor

But they’ll never come

I am my own compass

You are nothing to me. Nothing, none

Who did that? almost 25 w nothing to grasp

Not your fault

Just my responsibility,

just acknowledge where you were default

Whats all my life including my ability

[diaryofsblog]

Something about turning 25 soon into 2026 makes me think about my years on this app.

Ive grown, my milage has increased

Ive seen so many leaves and trees

So many smilies and so, so much greed

I didnt think it would be like this

Honestly, I thought someone(a man) would save me

I took the lenses off, it was ridiculous to think

But not stupid, it saved me

In a way…in a way I miss you

My private blog <3

[diaryofsblog]

The leaves of fall are all around

I love to see them

I love their sounds

A sweet transition, a treat

To be involved

in such a masterpiece

But oh

Woe is me

[diaryofsblog]

Diary about dating men who just want to sleep with me vs. want something more with me and how it affects me bc I have bpd

I don’t know why or ever

They think i’m the one.

The one to play. Or the one to take serious

Either way, i’m both

Idk how I mean

I can be both at any given time.

But if you catch me in the opposite

Its bad for me…not so much for you. Lucky you

It could offend me or put me in a state of mania

[autodiscipline]

another day of saying things I don't necessarily even agree with

[pirulesenvinagre-deactivated202]

[talldarkandautistic-deactivated]

[screechingfartdinosaur]

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

This was the post directly beneath this:

[tyaz]

The fuck is an open relationship? I will behead you and take it with me everywhere

[catchymemes]

[hispanicin]

[after saying something completely normal] be honest do you think i should ever speak again

[cashmerecorey]

she dissociative on my identity til I disorder

[zerounwantedvibrations]

[diaryofsblog]

The thing about bpd that aways puzzles me. Is that its never a “little bit” of anything

Its never just a little bit mad

Its never a little bit sad

Its never a little bit empty

When i’m mad. I’m always fuming

When i’m happy. I’m ECSTATIC. even just thinking about being happy, I automatically portray it by using all caps.

When i’m sad. It feels like i’m grieving

When I feel empty. I am a void

And this is my life? Over not being able to find the pen I just had?? Over my charger cord not charging??? Over, my favorite food not being readily available?? Over the leaves looking just so pretty in the morning.

JUST BECAUSE OF THAT? You cannot be serious.

But you are. Fuck you

[francisforever2014]

if tumblr shuts down you can find me in everything you see by looking for me there