ugh why does every fucking thing i love attract the worst fucking people ever??
(for context: i am AuDHD and get really intense hyperfixations. like REALLY intense. like i wont shut up about the thing and literally lose sleep and forget to eat over thing. thatâs why i am so passionate about politics and why my music is so political)
in high school, i was extremely hyperfixated on star wars, like REALLY fixated. i studied canon and EU lore for hours a day. my dad called me a walking Star Wars encyclopedia at one point. but of course, the fandom was being infiltrated by the worst fucking people imaginable (mostly gen z and younger millennials who grew up on the prequels) when the sequels came out. i am not a fan of the sequels myself (i do actually think they were lowkey ass), but the way these toxic prequel fans treated younger fans over having anything positive to say about the sequels (some of who were literal children) was disgusting. people were getting sent death threats and being told to kill themselves over liking certain characters or movies. and this toxic behavior spread to any new âDisney slopâ Star Wars these âfansâ deemed as âobjectively shittyâ. and unfortunately, a lot of these people were misogynists who still believe âStar Wars isnât for girlsâ and if youâre a woman/fem person who likes Star Wars, you must only like it because you think the men are hot or think Grogu is silly, and that women canât actually be ânerdyâ and knowledgeable in predominantly male-occupied fandoms. a lot of people being targeted in the sequel hate were women and girls (to prove that all women are âfake fansâ), but men and boys were also receiving hate for ânot liking real Star Warsâ.
i am not part of the Star Wars fandom anymore (i just lost interest) but my biggest hyperfixation now is vocalsynth, which is a fandom iâm sorta newish (like maybe 2 years) in. the hyperfixation was so strong that like 2 weeks after i discovered vocaloid (i knew what it was, i just never really got into it before, and i had strict parents when i was a kid in the early 2000s so i had a lot of restrictions on what i could listen to) i purchased synthv for my computer, and about a year after that i bought a new MacBook to run logic pro.
it is so disheartening to see something i saw as a fun hobby and a way to share my life experiences with others through music, and an awesome community for finding new music also attract the worst fucking people on the internet. i am a black queer person whoâs been writing music since they were 11-12 and whoâs been playing music since they were even younger, and itâs really sad to see a community who i thought would want to hear the music i put out into the world become full of shitheads who will judge you for your skin color before even hearing what you have to say. i donât even know if i want to promote my music on tiktok anymore after seeing how those racist fucks treated slayr for exploring a new music type.
yâall just donât think black people should exist and thatâs fucking disgusting. if youâre a bigot in any fandom, fuck you. fandom is for everyone and no one wants you in our space.
