Ash 💫

❗INACTIVE❗ 💫Italian💫 🏳️‍🌈Pansexual🏳️‍🌈 💖Brian May stan💖 💀fanfic writer💀 (English is not my mother language! Please point out any mistakes!)

[disco-deaky13]

hey everyone. long time no see. im so very sorry but ive decided to leave the fandom for a few reasons. you're all so lovely and i won't forget how nice everyone has been here. in short, i have some serious medical issues that i had as a child and have returned. furthermore, im very busy with uni and so worried about my family in italy. and i think i just lost my spark. im so sorry for leaving everybody so suddenly with no warning, but i am really struggling and i want to dedicate my time to really important things just in case i don't make it past this illness.

i love you all, and a big hug to everyone, especially those who reached out to me to ask if i am okay.

please don't worry about me. even if i don't make it i hope you're comforted knowing im happy.

soon, ill log out and not come back (probably). but i will stay logged in for a few days just in case anyone wants to say a personal goodbye.

so, goodbye and thank you so much for everything. 🫂❤️

[disco-deaky13]

my new years eve has ended with my dog eating chocolate, me spilling a full glass of wine all over the almost white carpet and my good dress shirt, and my housemate getting drunk and falling off of the roof.

how's your almost 2023 going!?!? 😀

[disco-deaky13]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! BRING ON 2023!!

[disco-deaky13]

hey everyone. popping back here quickly to reblog this post i made in 2023. i was having so much fun, living my life to the fullest and living my life as i should as a uni student. not this year.

instead, i started this year in hospital. it's not going well for me.

i just want to wish everyone a happy new year and i hope you're all doing well. i also want to remind you to take it one day at a time and enjoy yourselves, do what makes you happy because you never know what can happen.

im not asking for sympathy or anything, i don't need or want that. i just want to try and let everyone know that you should embrace life and everything in it, and just have fun.

love, ash

[disco-deaky13]

not me choosing the worst week ever to visit my family in italy. half of it is on fire and the other half has hailstones the size of marbles and tornadoes. brill!!

[disco-deaky13]

guys im having serious writers block and im really sorry but i don't think ill be able to get my stuff done for maylor week :(((( i haven't even been able to write one day and im gonna be so busy in the next 10 days.

please send good vibes and writing power my way because im going through such a rough patch 😭

[beatlegirl1968]

In celebration of the 50th anniversary of Queen’s debut album on 13th July. Pick your favorite track.

Favorite song

Keep Yourself Alive

Doing Alright

Great King Rat

My Fairy King

Liar

The Night Comes Down

Modern Times Rock and Roll

Son & Daughter

Jesus

Seven Seas of Rhye

Voting ended onJul 14, 2023

[disco-deaky13]

great king rat for me!!

[guiltypleasurefandomface]

True Love's Kiss, Or: The Tale of the Man who Kept Secrets and Then A Bad Spell Writer Got Involved - Chapter 4 - MsJackofAllFandoms - Queen (Band) [Archive of Our Own]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

I'm having some issues at the library so having to share in this way.

Chapter 4, had to split it into two so now there'll be a fifth. Brian's awake! There'll be conversation and maybe some other things... (tea....)

Thank you to @disco-deaky13 who cheerleader me through this chapter.

[disco-deaky13]

i love this story so much!! go check it out :)

[theprophetsaid]

Listen… Brian disclosing to The Sun (!!!) in 1992 (!!!) that he took an AIDS test after Freddie’s death and was terrified of the results took more courage than all of his teenage haters online have combined. Holy shit. 

He didn’t have to say that, but he did because he wanted to dismantle the serophobic and homophobic nonsense surrounding the disease. Disclosing that information was not risk-free at the time by any means. He put that out there because he cared, and he still does. People just like to undermine his advocacy.

[lonelyasawhisper]

A very rough transcription of the article below (it was too blurry and grainy to make out some of the words, correct me if I got something wrong!):

Keep reading

[theprophetsaid]

Thank you so much for your service! God, your poor eyes must’ve been burning from trying to read this. 

My personal favorite bits:

Brian disclosing that he took the test and later saying that, if he had had AIDS, Freddie’s way of facing it would’ve been ‘the model’, and he’d want to face it like he did. 

Brian stressing, as always, that Freddie wasn’t any more promiscuous than himself or the rest of the band. And that it’s a common misconception that gay people are more promiscuous than straight people.

Brian mentioning that Freddie was in a stable relationship with Winnie during the Munich era. 

Brian pointing out that Freddie donated a ton of money to charities before his death (something which is often overlooked), but how some greedy people took advantage of his generosity. 

Overall 10/10 interview. He really did The Most. 

[disco-deaky13]

bri can be such a hero i love him 😭

[eileen-crys]

I must admit, I'm always really happy to see new Queen fans, and specially new Deaky fans, enjoying Johnica not only because it's my OTP but because it's often seen as a "minor" thing in the fandom (like the general shipping with Queen and their wives/girlfriends, compared to Jimercury) and kind of "aside" from the band, and seeing John fans appreciating and respecting also his family which has been -and still is- such an important aspect of his life despite all the hardships, is something that makes me genuinely happy.

In the years Johnica has faced so much unnecessary hate and disregard online from people that were either jealous of Veronica, or aggressively shipping something else, or upset for some reason by John's long marriage, that every hint at a positive or respectful reaction to this relationship and this family is something to treasure.

Same goes for fans who vocally appreciate and respect Jim, Chrissie, Anita, Dom, Debbie or Sarina, as important people and relationships in Queen's lives, of course. Here comes in Johnica being my favourite hahah Misogyny in this fandom still exists sadly and is often hard to call it out, it's hidden in snarky comments, insults, false claims and allegations, in the jealousy of some fans and in the exclusively negative depiction of the wives in fanfics but it's worth to try and contrast the hate with more appreciation for them.

So if you're a new Queen fan, thank you for the effort in learning about and respecting not just our beloved four boys but also the people who loved them and they loved back during their crazy lives. The fandom is quiet but you're not alone 🙏🏻💕

[disco-deaky13]

this is important!!

[thought-pourri]

(x)

[disco-deaky13]

this photo is the epitome of beauty and grace

[disco-deaky13]

It Ain't Easy

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

i realised i completely forgot to say that i finished this a while ago!!! prompt from @guiltypleasurefandomface thank you once again <3

[tenderbri]

Brian May, backstage interview at Live Aid, 1985 (x)

[myallnaturallife-blog]

A nurse has heart attack and describes what she felt like when having one

I am an ER nurse and this is the best description of this event that I have ever heard. 

 FEMALE HEART ATTACKS 

 I was aware that female heart attacks are different, but this is description is so incredibly visceral that I feel like I have an entire new understanding of what it feels like to be living the symptoms on the inside. Women rarely have the same dramatic symptoms that men have… you know, the sudden stabbing pain in the chest, the cold sweat, grabbing the chest & dropping to the floor the we see in movies. Here is the story of one woman’s experience with a heart attack: 

 "I had a heart attack at about 10:30 PM with NO prior exertion, NO prior emotional trauma that one would suspect might have brought it on. I was sitting all snugly & warm on a cold evening, with my purring cat in my lap, reading an interesting story my friend had sent me, and actually thinking, ‘A-A-h, this is the life, all cozy and warm in my soft, cushy Lazy Boy with my feet propped up. A moment later, I felt that awful sensation of indigestion, when you’ve been in a hurry and grabbed a bite of sandwich and washed it down with a dash of water, and that hurried bite seems to feel like you’ve swallowed a golf ball going down the esophagus in slow motion and it is most uncomfortable. You realize you shouldn’t have gulped it down so fast and needed to chew it more thoroughly and this time drink a glass of water to hasten its progress down to the stomach. This was my initial sensation–the only trouble was that I hadn’t taken a bite of anything since about 5:00 p.m. 

After it seemed to subside, the next sensation was like little squeezing motions that seemed to be racing up my SPINE (hind-sight, it was probably my aorta spasms), gaining speed as they continued racing up and under my sternum (breast bone, where one presses rhythmically when administering CPR). This fascinating process continued on into my throat and branched out into both jaws. ‘AHA!! NOW I stopped puzzling about what was happening – we all have read and/or heard about pain in the jaws being one of the signals of an MI happening, haven’t we? I said aloud to myself and the cat, Dear God, I think I’m having a heart attack! I lowered the foot rest dumping the cat from my lap, started to take a step and fell on the floor instead. I thought to myself, If this is a heart attack, I shouldn’t be walking into the next room where the phone is or anywhere else… but, on the other hand, if I don’t, nobody will know that I need help, and if I wait any longer I may not be able to get up in a moment. 

I pulled myself up with the arms of the chair, walked slowly into the next room and dialed the Paramedics… I told her I thought I was having a heart attack due to the pressure building under the sternum and radiating into my jaws. I didn’t feel hysterical or afraid, just stating the facts. She said she was sending the Paramedics over immediately, asked if the front door was near to me, and if so, to un-bolt the door and then lie down on the floor where they could see me when they came in. I unlocked the door and then laid down on the floor as instructed and lost consciousness, as I don’t remember the medics coming in, their examination, lifting me onto a gurney or getting me into their ambulance, or hearing the call they made to St. Jude ER on the way, but I did briefly awaken when we arrived and saw that the radiologist was already there in his surgical blues and cap, helping the medics pull my stretcher out of the ambulance. He was bending over me asking questions (probably something like ‘Have you taken any medications?’) but I couldn’t make my mind interpret what he was saying, or form an answer, and nodded off again, not waking up until the Cardiologist and partner had already threaded the teeny angiogram balloon up my femoral artery into the aorta and into my heart where they installed 2 side by side stints to hold open my right coronary artery. 

I know it sounds like all my thinking and actions at home must have taken at least 20-30 minutes before calling the paramedics, but actually it took perhaps 4-5 minutes before the call, and both the fire station and St Jude are only minutes away from my home, and my Cardiologist was already to go to the OR in his scrubs and get going on restarting my heart (which had stopped somewhere between my arrival and the procedure) and installing the stents. Why have I written all of this to you with so much detail? Because I want all of you who are so important in my life to know what I learned first hand. 

1. Be aware that something very different is happening in your body, not the usual men’s symptoms but inexplicable things happening (until my sternum and jaws got into the act). It is said that many more women than men die of their first (and last) MI because they didn’t know they were having one and commonly mistake it as indigestion, take some Maalox or other anti-heartburn preparation and go to bed, hoping they’ll feel better in the morning when they wake up… which doesn’t happen. My female friends, your symptoms might not be exactly like mine, so I advise you to call the Paramedics if ANYTHING is unpleasantly happening that you’ve not felt before. It is better to have a ‘false alarm’ visitation than to risk your life guessing what it might be! 2. Note that I said ‘Call the Paramedics.’ And if you can take an aspirin. Ladies, TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE! Do NOT try to drive yourself to the ER - you are a hazard to others on the road. Do NOT have your panicked husband who will be speeding and looking anxiously at what’s happening with you instead of the road. Do NOT call your doctor – he doesn’t know where you live and if it’s at night you won’t reach him anyway, and if it’s daytime, his assistants (or answering service) will tell you to call the Paramedics. He doesn’t carry the equipment in his car that you need to be saved! The Paramedics do, principally OXYGEN that you need ASAP. Your Dr. will be notified later. 3. Don’t assume it couldn’t be a heart attack because you have a normal cholesterol count. Research has discovered that a cholesterol elevated reading is rarely the cause of an MI (unless it’s unbelievably high and/or accompanied by high blood pressure). MIs are usually caused by long-term stress and inflammation in the body, which dumps all sorts of deadly hormones into your system to sludge things up in there. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let’s be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chance we could survive to tell the tale.“

Reblog, repost, Facebook, tweet, pin, email, morse code, fucking carrier pigeon this to save a life! I wish I knew who the author was. I’m definitely not the OP, actually think it might be an old chain email or even letter from back in the day. The version I saw floating around Facebook ended with “my cardiologist says mail this to 10 friends, maybe you’ll save one!” And knew this was way too interesting not to pass on.

[shinysherlock]

snopes.com says this one’s true.

[elegantmess-southernbelle]

Save a life–Reblog.

[knittingpitbull]

Female heart attacks are much different, and most people don’t know it!

[naamahdarling]

This is so much more helpful than the fucking lists that basically describe everything that happens during a really nasty panic attack and then tell you to go seek help as if you don’t have an anxiety disorder that does this to you on a regular basis and can afford to go to the emergency room.

[notaflexitarian]

Auto-reblog.

[peashooter85]

Many women have silent heart attacks as well, where there are no symptoms at all until BAM! Then it happens.

[guiltypleasurefandomface]

I can't write this fic because there really isn't enough to this to make a fic but imagine Brian and Roger going to a carvery type place, where there's a high chance of being in a queue with other people but unmistakably also there with someone.

Roger: I remember when you ate meat.

Brian: hmm me too. 😬

Roger: and no chance of being enticed back?

Brian: 🤨 no, Rog.

Roger: So you're just going to have a plate of vegetables?

Brian: they have little vegan sausages

Roger: Yeah I bet that-

Richard, a friend of Brian's from university: Brian! I thought that was you.

Brian: Richard! Hello. I've not seen you in a while

Richard: You can say that again. How the hell are you?

Brian: I'm good thank you

Roger thinking to himself, he nearly died 3 months ago and he still hasn't gained weight back. Funny definition of good... 🤔

Brian: How're you? How've you been?

Richard: Fine, yeah, but busy. Glad to be off for a couple of weeks.

Brian: us too. Oh, erm, I don't think you met Roger-?

Roger: Hello.

Richard: No. Hello- Oh. 😳 Oh shit, Brian, am I interrupting a date? I didn't realise and there I am prattling on at you

Brian: No, no, it's not a date. Not with Roger, he's my drummer. I mean. Not my personal drummer-

Roger: the bands drummer Queen. Also, a Founding member.

Carvery guy: Which meats would you like?

Roger: all of them, please.

Richard, not convinced: Right. Well. Lovely to meet you. We'll catch up properly yes? *quieter* I'm so sorry old chap your secrets safe with me.

Brian: No it's really-

Roger, who has thrown one singular helping of cauliflower cheese on his plate and no other veg: See you at the condiments station, love.

Brian: Funny. *to Richard* he's just messing about.

Richard: I didn't hear anything 😉 I am a wall of obliviousness, I remain unknowledgeable in the face of romance.

Brian: No really -

Carvery guy: Which meats would you like?

Brian: just the vegan sausages for me

CG: Alrighty.

Richard: You take care Brian, alright?

Brian: I-

CG: and then as many vegetables as you like on the next station.

Brian: thank you.

Carvery guy, to Richard: Which meats would you like?

Richard: ohhh all but the pork please.

Brian: I-

CG: if everything is alright sir I do have to ask you to move up the line to the veg station.

Brian: *gives up* okay. Thank you. Nice to see you Richard

Richard: You too, Brian, enjoy your... Meal 😉

Brian: you enjoy that too much

Roger: The beef is very nice, yes, you're missing out

Brian: I meant *waves hand vaguely* that. People mistake you for being my boyfriend. I'd be getting ideas if I didn't know any better

Roger: Ideas are dangerous. Eat your sea fungus sausage before they go cold

Brian: *Sigh* they're Linda McCartney

Roger: hmm... I didn't recognise her underneath the gravy

Brian: *Sigh* Why....

[guiltypleasurefandomface]

Rules: no cheating! You're starring in a movie with the last celebrity you saved in your camera roll. The last song you've listened to is the title. Who/what is it?

I stole this from @novemberhush

Uh oh he'll have to get dangerously close to acting again...

And we'll be in Film 4's much anticipated God Bless This Broken Road together.

Cut for the plot of this movie I've instantly imagined and plotted out.

I tag whoever wants to play!

I imagine two lonely people who meet through sharing a common hobby and develop a wonderful but unlikely cross generational friendship.

The trial and tribulation will be other people's reactions. And everyone thinking they're both in the friendship for nefarious reasons.

People will think my character is some sort of Merry Widow type character, wanting to marry the older man and taking his fortune when he dies. And people think Brian's character is a dirty old perv trying to recapture his youth.

In actual fact, Brian's character lost his wife at some point before the film starts, and he fell into depression. The grown up kids don't visit, the young grand children have their own youthful lives to live. Friends his own age spend a lot of time drinking, reminiscing about the good old days when they were all jack the lads getting up to all sorts. Brian's character wasn't like that as a young man and realises he doesn't really like these friends of his.

He'd tried a few hobbies before settling on this one and he even joined a similar hobby group run by another person, but the person who ran it stopped doing it for some reason so he had to find a new one.

But the twist! Everyone is so convinced Brian's Character is going to snuff it that it shocks everyone to their core when it's my character who ends up in hospital!

And excuse me for self indulging in this idea. Brian's character reading a book at my character's bedside.

Friends or family come to visit. They want Brian to leave. Brian doesn't want to leave. The friends or family accuse him of taking this too far and it's time he made friends his own age, and he rightly informs them that my character has been in hospital for three whole days!! And he's been there whole time and this is the first time they have visited!!

And then miracle! My character wakes up!! And asks what happens to the characters in the book...

The film ends with both of them back at the social club for their hobby. Someone mistakes them for father and daughter and says its so great she can come support her father, and they both say, oh no, not father/daughter, we're best friends.

Brian's character gets up on to the stage and shows off the depression/happiness blanket he's finished knitting. It starts off mostly dark blue and ends mostly bright yellow.

[disco-deaky13]

well..this is my photo...

and the title is "Californication"

guess we're off to the dark side of hollywood bri!

[raspberriesinthesun]

embarrassed to be british today. not in a ‘haha lol bri’ish’ way but in a genuine. ‘my country are monarchy bootlickers and we spent millions of pounds on the old cunt getting a hat whilst by fellow working class people freeze or starve to death’. disgusting. it is a stain on the face of democracy and i hope we abolish the monarchy within my lifetime.

[guiltypleasurefandomface]

Who did it better?

[disco-deaky13]

definitely bri

[jetrocks]

Non-Britons! Instead of being distracted by the pomp and fanfare of the coronation, here’s a reminder that:

The coronation was funded by tax-payer money. This same tax could have gone towards the cost of living crisis. People are starving and freezing to death as this is going on.

Protests (peaceful or otherwise) are illegal now. A lot of anti-monarchists are being arrested for simply holding signs.

Our government is currently trying to push through a revision to the Equality Act that will exclude trans and non-binary individuals.

Oil companies have made a record profit in the past couple of years. Oil and gas prices aren’t rising because of an inflation issue.

Our NHS is crumbling because funding is going to stupid projects like this coronation.