ProjectSelf

Always stay true to yourself.

[lovepeacexxoo]

[livinglowercarb]

[discoveringhowtolovemyself]

Finding Yourself

https://www.wikihow.com/Find-Yourself

https://www.psychalive.org/finding-yourself/

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/eleni-makedonas/the-journey-of-selfdsicvo_b_7028362.html

https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-7324/6-tips-to-find-yourself.html

https://tinybuddha.com/blog/3-powerful-insights-about-finding-yourself-and-creating-change/

https://www.success.com/article/6-steps-to-discover-your-true-self

http://www.manifestyourpotential.com/self_discovery/topic_discover_yourself.htm

http://allisonfallon.com/finding-yourself/

[poems-and-word]

[discoveringhowtolovemyself]

Letting Go

A guy told me in September if he could set me up on a date with this friend. 

Problem. He had been leading me on for 4 months, previously 6 months before that. I had fallen really hard for him. I called him out for leading me on...and he claimed that he had done no such thing. He apologized for me seeing something that was not there...but he had told me multiple times that he had feelings, even over text. I refused to accept his apology.  I even sent him a photo of a text message that he had said that. Then he blocked me off Facebook and Snap. 

BUT THEN. 

He started showing up to my part-time gig, Starbucks. He would stare at me, and not say anything. He would show up once a month. It drove me nuts. The last time (January) he came, he sat beside me, as I did some schoolwork. He saw that my claddagh was facing inwards on my right hand, and he left. Have not seen him since. I kept my ring facing inwards because I was emotionally unavailable. 

My friend told me last night that he was in denial of his feelings. And he blocked me off social media because he wouldn’t stand seeing me happy without him. And that he showed up to my work because he couldn’t stand not seeing me. But the ring...he gave up because he no longer had an in because I was in another relationship and had moved on. This is probably true, as I have not seen him since. 

I re-downloaded Bumble last night. I found his profile, which said he was looking for a relationship. IMAGINE! I laughed, and I cried. I called my friend. She laughed with me. What an idiot. I swiped right, but there has been no match thus far. I don’t anticipate a match. 

I was on Pinterest this morning, and my homepage was all about how the right man would not play games and would not risk losing his woman. It hit me. Why am I pining for a wrong guy? Who is not even fighting for me? Has not even apologized for leading me on? Whatever his emotional status, he has not done anything about it. I don’t feel the need to keep fighting for him if he can’t do the same. This is the turning point, I think, to getting over him. I need better. I deserve better.  

[gomcgill]

“I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become.” — Carl Jung

[asking-jude]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

7 Signs that show you’re negatively attached to the past

1. You can’t, or won’t, talk about it.

2. You’re constantly being hit by “those same old feelings.”

3. You can’t relax and be yourself with certain people from your past.

4. You’re attracted to partners who treat you negatively.

5. You over-react, and find it hard to calm down.

6. You have poor boundaries, and always feel you’re being used.

7. You’re always making poor decisions, and repeating old mistakes.

[u-r--lovely]

The girl always walks in at around 8am. I already know her order by heart. “Caramel latte with soy please”. She’s always wearing that same pair of black doc martins. Talking quietly her eyes make me feel sad. She’s always skipping school too–falling asleep in between classes on the farthest seat from the window. One day I went up to her and gave her a free cup of coffee because she fell asleep. That was the first time I saw her smile and damn was it beautiful. I always wondered why she took so long in the bathroom. It was always a bit past lunch time and every time she came in she got smaller and smaller. Her eyes more sunken, and skin pale. It was as though her thoughts became louder then her body. One day. With out any sort of explanation she didn’t show up. Days went by and I got worried. Weeks went by and I missed her and her half smile and doc martins. Then out of nowhere she showed up and said she was ‘away’ and I was confused but happy she came back. She’s different now. The light is in her eyes and her cheeks are the color of pale rose petals. She seems to be talking to me more and her words sound louder now. I hope she knows that I missed her a lot when she was gone and that I’m happy that she’s better now. I’m happy she’s alive. I hope she knows that.

The Coffee Shop Near My School Saved My Life, I’m That Girl (via u-r–lovely)

[leslieknope-s]

[securelyinsecure]

This is so important

[minuty]

[poems-and-word]

[poems-and-word]

[corezi]

what TLJ probably meant: poor Kylo Ren look he had a reason to come into the Dark Side his own uncle tried to kill him :’((( it’s also all Luke’s fault, blame him, he gave up on Ben so easy!!

what I, an intelectual, learned form TLJ: if Luke “there is still good in you dad Vader” Skywalker takes one look at Ben Solo’s mind and thinks this one is irredeemable then well, shit, I absolutely believe him

[poems-and-word]

[stylebychristie]

[rosetty]

Rose

[officialaudreykitching-deactiva]

‪Feel everything and feel it deeply. Don’t avoid your feelings, block or repress them. They are your compass to what needs healing and what needs to change. Honor them.‬