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knowing you’re autistic is a relief at first but a year has passed and the truth is I’m still different and no matter the circumstances I will never be normal. If anything, I’ve only become more isolated. I masked to keep people around. Almost everyone leaves now. I’m too much when I open up. Having the real you be the person no one likes is… tough to live with I guess.

[danskjavlarna]

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Lighting the way: my collection of vintage lanterns.

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I don’t think I’m autistic but I def “mask” to be more normal and I’m just not gonna do that anymore lol. I didn’t do it today and I just felt so much freer I rly am over caring if ppl think I’m weird or rude or anything

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well, turns out…….

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buggy mood

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Ive always followed some pretentious rules when it comes to making art just because I’m such a proud person but I’ve realized how much that really limits me, I need to return to the lawlessness of pre-education creation… so here’s a drawing on top of a picture, a borderline tracing, which I would never post out of pride normally. I still have to grapple with the outdated idea that the ability to draw an accurate physical representation of something is the height of craft and ability. I take pride in the fact I draw my own figures, even if it takes forever. This is silly. There is no reason to be proud of doing something for external merit at the expense of the actually interesting aspects of my brain, the parts that work without guidance… I thought if I were to do something like this, something that has a base and isn’t purely from my minds eye, I was a fraud. How pretentious!!! Everything had a base, nothing in your minds eye is anything but a collage of what you’ve seen before. Ugh I forgot what my point was

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I don’t think I’m autistic but I def “mask” to be more normal and I’m just not gonna do that anymore lol. I didn’t do it today and I just felt so much freer I rly am over caring if ppl think I’m weird or rude or anything

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I need to find a Buggy the Clown fandom I am so desperate to gush with someone ugh

[plastiboo]

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Seiichi Hayashi

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Chimera - Lorenzo Mattotti

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Works of Alfred Kubin (1877-1959)

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my soul sister

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"Wound from a rupture of a projectile" Medical illustration by William Schultz, 1863

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the paper architecture of Russian architects Brodsky and Utkin

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[thunderstruck9]

Antoni Tàpies (Catalan, 1923-2012), Cadira i blanc [Chair and White], 1999. Soil and acrylic on canvas, 97 x 130 cm.

[secretcinema1]

Zen, 1969, Ikko Narahara