reality?¿

you are not alone in dpdr honey. i know u are scared. this is a place where i'm gonna share my thoughts about derealization. my dm's are open, if someone wants to share

[dissociating-rn]

hey, you!

derealization/dp is just your brain turning fight or flight mode on, even if it's not necessary. your brain thinks that u need to pay attention to the feeling of dizziness and unreality, just to stop you from thinking of trauma and anxiety or stress.

the worst thing about derealization/dp is that, the only way to stop it, is fully to stop thinking about it. but dpdr is caused by anxiety and dpdr is creating more anxiety. funny, huh?

[dissociating-rn]

people with derealization, depersonalization and all the forms of dissociation, listen up, please.

•you all are survivors every fucking day•

•you all know how scary it is to experience dpdr, and yet still, you all live with this, or trying to get over this, often on your own. you don't even know how strong you need to be, to live in a world without any clue if anything is real, which is of course.

i am struggling with derealization for one year now, it's actually kind of anniversary for me and my enemy today.

i want you all to comment as well: how long have you been struggling with dpdr for now.

keep on holding, people, i swear it's gonna be better for us one day...

[dissociating-rn]

come on guys we living on a flying rock, we can do EVERYTHING. why the fuck do we worry about some stupid dpdr? fuck it. fuck that feeling!!

[dissociating-rn]

take my hand, and i will not feel your warmth on my skin...

ask me how i feel, and i will crumble and stutter, because i'm not a real person in my head, so i don't have any feelings either...

tell me you love me, and i will froze with apathy, because derealization took my feels away...

say that i'm real, and i will laugh straight in your face, because in my head that doesn't make any sense...

but i can still help you, i can still make u a happy person, and try to make you fall in love in the world that i can't understand. if i can't settle here and feel like a real person, at least i can give it to you

[shoppingstars]

ok but no one talks about how bad dissociation really is. there is nothing worse than taking a look out of your window and feeling like you are stuck in a fake reality. you don’t know where you are and you can’t get out of it. it’s like things are fading away, it’s like you are disappearing. people are robots. you are dreaming. you are stuck. you are not a prisoner in a fake world. when you look at your body, you hope to feel something, but those are not your hands, those are not your legs, not your face, not you. who are you? look at the details in your face, your mouth, your eyes, who created all of these things? because it’s not you, it’s not real. you are not a person, you are something, a thought. there is nothing worse than feeling like you don’t belong anywhere, not even your own body or your own place.

[dissociating-rn]

my mind is just like a horse, you know

fight or flight, when on the road is a plastic bag

fight or flight, when the sound is too loud

fight and fight, when there is a war in my heart

flight and flight, when i realize, i'm fucking dissociated and looking for my own hands the fuck

[dissociating-rn]

 i feel like whenever I'm trying to explain my derealization to someone they don't understand it. every time i'm trying to explain it i can't find any words, because they're going to think that i'm mental. why dpdr is not common to talk about...i want to be understood...i want to be taken seriously

[dissociating-rn]

ten...

brain is preparing for a ,,war"

nine...

heart is beating way too fast

eight...

time to dissociate but first - existential panic

seven...

everything around is feeling unreal

six...

family members? they are fake, they are not real

five...

,,stop it, stop it, what the fuck is wrong with u"

four...

copying system, watching memes about dpdr

three...

dizziness, anxiety, more anxiety, buzzing thoughts, feeling like stuck in a dream

two...

waiting for it to pass by

one

now i'm gonna explain. there is nothing wrong with u, the feeling of unreality is just in your brain, you are perfectly real. you are not alone.

today i had a derealization attack too. we all here with dpdr need to help each other understand, what we feel is normal for that mental illness. we need to understand what dpdr is.

[dissociating-rn]

i'm not crying.

i just smoke my lungs out.

[dpdr-donnie]

There's more to dpdr than the detachment. There's a sadness too. How do I explain the agony of doubting the existence of those you most love? How could I describe how badly it hurts to exist so far away from everyone you care for?

[vinesandstones]

it’s so hard to find resources about dpdr bc it’s so underdiagnosed like. i had to tell my therapist what it was . i had to tell. my THERAPIST. what it was. the reddit is full of people who got it as a side effect of drugs which sucks!! it does!! but it makes it so hard for people with trauma driven dpdr to find each other.

[dissociating-rn]

damn, that's what i thought. i have been trying to find people with dpdr for a looong time. after sooo many tries, i just gave up, and decided to go on tumbler and reddit. and here i am, realizing that I'M NOT FUCKING ALONE. THIS IS A REAL DISORDER. if you could see my face...i just felt so happy,