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"I never knew I was in a cage until I finally had my freedom." Deadman Wonderland OC Rp blog; Multiship Tracking: disturbedraven

[disturbed-raven]

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[disturbed-raven]

IMPORTANT

So I will be moving blogs! I have decided to start over and start fresh with a new look, style and attitude! Um, I won;t be posting publicly what the new account is so if you'd like to follow me and plan to roleplay with me please message me and let me know!! There are some people I'll be automatically following on there but for those who wanna rp I'd love to know so we can interact!

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163.   I died two years ago today.

Nagi sighed rubbing his eyes trying to adjust to the light, the one his student seemed hell bent on leaving on to spite him. Though he wasn’t quite sure why she still remained by his side, or even how she had found herself in his house. No she just stood in the doorway with the same smile she always seemed to wear while talking with him, though her eyes seemed a bit angrier than the rest of her demeanor let on. Burying his head in his hands he grumbled “Just what is it you want me to say? I don’t understand anything, especially whats going on in your mind right now. I don’t know what I did…just please shut off the lights already.” he pleaded, avoiding eye contact.

He felt somewhat ashamed to be scrutinized in such a way, sort of like a bug. It just wasn’t right, something happened…it had to of right? Nicolette didn’t act like this, or well he supposed she didn’t; they didn’t really see one another’s personal lives, or anything really outside of the safe bubble which housed their teacher student relationship. While he would have preferred to keep it that way she was already in his house, the morning after a night of binge drinking.

A framed photo was in her hands, but without even seeing it he already knew what she was looking at.

"Isn’t your wife going to be pissed about you bringing a young impressionable girl like me to your house?"

"Not particularly." he muttered refusing to raise his head. It was wrong it was all so wrong. "I think….you should go." he muttered laying back down and pulling the covers over his head.

"You wouldn’t shut up about her last night. It’s not like I didn’t know before I came here."

"Know what? That I died two years ago today? That the only light I had left was snuffed out far too early and it’s made living unbearable? Just what is it that you think you know?"  he shouted pulling himself up and throwing his blankets onto the floor. And just like that the safety of the bubble burst. "You don’t know anything…why, why are you still here." he muttered quietly angry at himself for letting her get under his skin, for yelling at her, but most of all for allowing their relationship to change.

Her expression softened slightly as she set the photograph back down, taking a step closer to the bed. “I know enough, I suppose.” she responded awkwardly trying hard not to be effected by his outburst. He wasn’t like that she knew it, but what was done was done. She had forced his hand, dug deep down and forced up all of the complicated things he had refused to acknowledge.

"I was annoyed at first, all you did was talk about her clutch this photo and cry. It was…difficult seeing you that way. I just wanted…" she paused trying to figure out exactly what it was she wanted. "I’m not really sure what it is that I wanted, maybe for you to come back to class or something." she finished stubbornly refusing to be honest with herself. 

"I see." Nagi muttered crossing his arms over his chest "I wasn’t…" he sighed "you know being a teacher, it’s what she wanted to do but she wasn’t able to. I don’t think I’m very good at it, but it’s reassuring hearing that you still want me to be there. If I wasn’t a teacher right now I’m not sure what I would do, I never really could figure out what I’d be good at. Sometimes I wonder if it isn’t the other way around. Rather than choosing something, it chooses you. I’d like to think that I’ve made her dream come true in some way."

She cleared her throat playing with her hands lowering her head hoping he didn’t notice the way her cheeks grew red “I…I’m going to make some coffee, you look like shit.” she called out before rushing out of the room and making herself at home in his kitchen.

Blinking Nagi looked stumped for a few seconds before laughing lightly and flopping back down onto his bed “I don’t have coffee, but the tea is in the cupboard on the right, bottom shelf, you can’t miss it.” he replied, feeling as though somehow a weight had been lifted. Maybe it was alright to let someone in, even if it was an impressionable young girl named Nicolette, who was also his student.

[gavino-has-got-this]

 ”Maybe we shoul’ go check, huh?” And he was already going off to check on the boy. “Watch th’ camera. I’ll be back.”

[disturbed-raven]

She replies with a loooooong sigh. "I don't feel like it."

She watches it anyways and maybe even holds it protectively.

[gavino-has-got-this]

”Man, I don’ even get shots this good when I hi’ Dan in the face!”

   Wait. “Maybe we shoul’ see if he’s a’right?”

[disturbed-raven]

"He's not moving all that much...it did hit him pretty hard."

"Maybe he's dead."

[gavino-has-got-this]

   ”Yeah! I go’ it on camera, too!”

[disturbed-raven]

"It—God. It came outta nowhere and just pummeled that kid's face!"

"How does that even happen!?"

[disturbed-raven]

"Jesus—did you see that!?"

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      I'm a little let down but I'm not ∂єα∂                          There's a little bit more that ʜᴀs ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ sᴀɪᴅ                                               You ρƖαуєɗ me now I ρℓαу you too    Ｌｅｔ＇ｓ ｊｕｓｔ ｃａｌｌ ｉｔ ｏｖｅｒ

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13: hand kiss

Royalty AU - Nicolette is the princess of the royal family and Shinichi is some knight or something. 

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[disturbed-raven]

♕: Queen or ♘: Knight or both Nicolette would be badass enough to be both

"Bow down and kiss my feet."

[disturbed-raven]

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1: aggressive kiss

He was stupid. Or so she told herself as she sat in the garden, staring angrily at the back of said idiot. Here he was in the presence of a pretty girl like herself who was so obviously trying to get his attention and all he cared about were birds! Were they more interesting than her? Were they funnier? More beautiful? She just didn’t understand it! The whole thing was just so frustrating and she would’ve screamed and torn her hair from her head if she weren’t sane. No need to add crazy to Gavin’s opinion her. Because apparently, boring was already on there. His dumb camera should be on her, not those birds. They were ugly anyways. It wasn’t like she was jealous.

                                               Hє’ѕ נυѕт ѕтυρι∂.

The only rational explanation. “Gavin…can we eat lunch yet?” While she tried to sound uninterested, her tone displayed her true feelings. She sounded rather annoyed, but not only that she was whining quite childishly. “Those birds are boring…you promised we could eat lunch together! I came here out of my way and everything!” Well, he didn’t really promise anything but she found it was more of an unspoken promise. Something that was so obvious nobody needed to really say it out loud. He should be looking at her and paying attention to her. It was merely a fact.

Still, he continued to film, laughing and mumbling to himself on and on. They were animals! How straightforward did she need to be with him? The levels of jealousy only continued to increase and after another ten minutes had passed, Nicolette reached her limit. If he wasn’t going to do something, then she would. “Fine! I’ll just go somewhere else! But before that—” With a sudden wave of confidence, she stood and practically stomped towards him, grabbing him roughly by the arm. “I’ll show you that I’m better than those birds!” He had barely the time to look confused before her fingers curled around his shirt collar and yanked him forward. The kiss was nothing close to sweet and loving. Though, despite the aggression she’d portrayed in the beginning, in the face of such an intimate action she melted. For her first kiss, it was far more than pleasant. The way his lips were soft but also slightly chapped and how the stubble on his face tickled just enough that she almost laughed.

Only a few moments had ticked by before she nearly shoved him back, hands placed on her hips paired with an angry expression that failed to be intimidating due to the reddened tone of her skin. “—I’m going to eat my lunch now! Idiot!” Without another word she was running trough the bushes.

[disturbed-raven]

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12: ghost kiss (paranormal)

His sleeping form was a sight for sore eyes, one that she’d so dearly missed. He was the picture of calm, or he would’ve been if it weren’t for the way his brows crinkled giving off the impression that he was troubled by something. And if she hadn’t known better she might’ve thought that was untrue, but both of them knew that wasn’t the case. Was he feeling guilty? Was he sad or maybe angry? If only she’d given herself in. He’d tried so hard to convince her not to run but in the end, she was still just as stubborn as before. Admitting defeat was impossible. He knew that and she knew that. No matter what her feelings were, she would’ve never allowed herself to be caught. She ran.

                                                           Ｔｈａｔ ｈａｄ ｂｅｅｎ ｈｅｒ ｄｅｍｉｓｅ．

Her undoing came from that of a gun; trigger pulled by a face she’d never seen before. The pain was still there, though not as agonizing. It was like a phantom or a memory. A dull ache in her chest from where she’d bled out on the sidewalk, choking on the sanguine liquid flooding her lungs. She remembered crying too. Both because it had hurt something fierce and because the fear she’d felt had been overwhelming. As she grew cold, his face had been the last thing her eyes ever saw. He’d looked so tortured. Until the very end he’d stayed with her, watching her tremble. Terror and love had been the last two things she felt as her heart stopped beating, her bloodied fingers falling from his. They were all she felt now, staring down at him.

With a smile that held nothing but sadness, her fingertips touched lightly at his cheek. His skin was so warm compared her to freezing temperatures, a perfect contrast just like their personalities. Leaning in close, she felt her eyelids close. She would be crying now too, if she were capable of it. “Oh Shinichi…” It was whisper like wind, unheard and unseen. “I’m so sorry.” They were words she would no longer be able to tell him in person. He would never hear them. He would never see her. A pair of pale lips brushed just barely over his, disappearing soon after as if they’d never even been there in the first place and she finally told him her true feelings as her existence all but ceased and his eyes fell open.

                                                “I Lσνє уσυ.”

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1: aggressive kiss

2: all over kiss

3: back kiss

4: cheek kiss

5: eyelid kiss

6: fingers kiss

7: firm kiss

8: first kiss

9: forehead kiss

10: french kiss

11: gentle kiss

12: ghost kiss

13: hand kiss

14: jawline kiss

15: last kiss

16: neck kiss

17: rain kiss

18: stomach kiss

19: underwater kiss

20: upside down kiss

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"Well that’s doesn’t seem to adventurous! I feel as if it was almost like a failed plan! "

[disturbed-raven]

"I dunno, aiming for a boy's heart sounds more like mission impossible than an adventure."

"Well, the giving up part does constitute a failure."

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"How does one get a boyfriend?"

[disturbed-raven]

"Hope and pray and then eventually give up."

[shitgavinsays]

Girls are scary, they’re terrifying.

Roosterteeth Podcast #205 (0:41:23)

[shitgavinsays]

If I wasn’t wearing any clothes, would it still be shitting my pants?

Let’s Play - Monopoly Part 2 (0:58:33)