Empty soul

Just another depressed diary . .

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I just wanna die so badly

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I had everything, and I choose to destroy it

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A love so pure and intense that it breaks me into a million pieces

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For once a happy post on here 💗✨️

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I feel so empty and I don't know how to fill this void

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Where can I delete myself?

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Trauma is a funny thing. Sometimes it hits you without any warning.

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"I hope I give people a good feeling and make them feel comfortable." "Except of that bitch, I hope she burns in hell."

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I feel miserable and don't even have a reason. Just kill me pls

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Continued with sh after years some weeks ago. Now I can't stop. It is really the worst addiction to me

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Sometimes I remember the old me. And realize what she's been throught. She lost three close friends with just 16 years old. Most of her friends were addicts. She was so suicidal and going through so much grief and pain. She was with her abusive ex boyfriend. She spend so much time being on the streets. She never thought she would make it till 18. But somehow she survived all of this. I'm so proud of her.

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Life feels like an endless circle of pain

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Nothing feels right anymore

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Me feeling good lately, stable moods, no sh.

Me catching feelings for someone.

✨Depressions returning to their master✨

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So I started to date someone from my neighbor country. Last week I was in his city but he wasn't, so I left some notes all over the city for him. Today he got back home and now searches for my little letters. I love this so much.

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I spent so much time building the best life for me. Building a safe home. An environment where I can bloom. But I still feel so lost. So overwhelmed. I know I became so strong. But I feel so god damn weak.

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I see your scars

I see your tears

I know the pain in your chest