Too much, Too less!
I have been blessed with immense time and rapid energy by God and I used to utilise it with people I genuinely feel are comfortable and can handle these two blessings.
But after various dialogues with people I realized that God gave me this gift to utilize for myself instead of giving out to people because they don't value it as it looks like 'nothing to do' to them.
Time and time again, I realized that whenever I mold myself to others schedule, they start thinking that maybe I have nothing else to do whereas I have this immense power and gift of excess leisure time after working for my bread and butter.
I have been wasting this gift of God for past few years assuming that I might have found the one person who deserves this energy but it turned out that it was all a dilemma, a dilusion of being different than others that have made me work like this.
Ungrateful people will never understand how blessed they are to have someone ready to give them their time and energy as these two things are meant to be sacred and not to be shared and very few on earth share these two things with others. The only mistake I made was sharing it with the wrong people who actually don't understand the value of it.
They say if you are too much for someone then should go out and find less for them. I have been told on my face the same thing whereas I have seen them going an extra mile for others. Here, I understood that no matter what you do, people will always choose which matches their energies even if it's less.
Raising my bar in 2022 by restricting myself to myself instead of giving out to ungrateful people this year.