those who wander

Do not fall in love with people like me. I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when I leave you will finally understand, why storms are named after people. -- indie multimuse - created by lydia

[doineann-blog1]

stardustvein replied to your post: do i bring this blog back 2 is the question.

Yes

o no dont twist my arm or anything... 

[doineann-blog1]

do i bring this blog back 2 is the question.

[soliitudo]

                     to whom it may concern; there’s a kind of tired that no rest can fix, a sort of broken that no time can heal. i’ve built a life based on the faith that humans are unbreakable, all while little pieces of me shattered and dropped away. 

                someone give me a reason. give me a reason to fight for one more day. i need something to hold onto. i need someone to see that who i am — is not who i’ve always been. i need a reason for a future. because truth be told — i’m nothing more than a tattered book with a frayed spine and faded pages. know my story, know me — give me something to hold onto.  find me – before its too late. before i’m too lost, or too faded, or too fragile.               

                i have never begged in my life — but — please.                                                       FIND ME.

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richard siken sentence starters.

quotes are all taken from various poems out of richard siken’s poetry book crush.  feel free to change pronouns/etc if needed.

❝  tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us.  ❞

❝  tell me we’ll never get used to it.  ❞

❝  there are so many things i’m not allowed to tell you.  ❞

❝  i swallow your heart and it crawls right out of my mouth.  ❞

❝  i want it back now, baby. i want it back.  ❞

❝  i’m sorry. we know how it works. the world is no longer mysterious.  ❞

❝  that’s a nice touch.  ❞

❝  i like him and i want to be like him.  ❞

❝  i’m sure you remember, i was on the phone with you, sweetheart.  ❞

❝  history repeats itself.  ❞

❝  there are many names in history, but none of them are ours.  ❞

❝  you could drown in those eyes.  ❞

❝  but damn if there isn’t anything sexier than a slender boy with a handgun, a fast car, a bottle of pills.  ❞

❝  sorry about the blood in your mouth. i wish it was mine.  ❞

❝  i couldn’t get the boy to kill me, but i wore his jacket for the longest time.  ❞

❝  you wanted happiness, i can’t blame you for that, and maybe a mouth sounds idiotic when it blathers on about joy but tell me you love this, tell me you’re not miserable.  ❞

❝  there is no way to make this story interesting.  ❞

❝  i want to tell you this story without having to confess anything, without having to say that i ran out into the street to prove something.  ❞

❝  tell me we’re dead and i’ll love you even more.  ❞

❝  you will be alone always and then you will die.  ❞

❝  i’m sorry i came to your party and seduced you and left you bruised and ruined, you poor sad thing.  ❞

❝  who am i? i’m just a writer. i write things down.  ❞

❝  i take it back.  ❞

❝  here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed.  ❞

❝  you still get to be the hero.  ❞

❝  what more do you want?  ❞

❝  love, for you, is larger than the usual romantic love. it’s like a religion. it’s terrifying.  ❞

❝  no one will ever want to sleep with you.  ❞

❝  you know that recently we have had our difficulties and there are many things i want to ask you.  ❞

❝  you had not expected this.  ❞

❝  walk a mile in my shoes.  ❞

❝  a man takes his sadness down to the river and throws it in the river but then he’s still left with the river.  ❞

❝  you are weak and hollow and it doesn’t matter anymore.  ❞

❝  hush, my sweet. these tornadoes are for you.  ❞

❝  that sounds overly valorous.  ❞

❝  do you love yourself?  ❞

❝  i don’t have to answer that.  ❞

❝  you wanted more.  ❞

❝  i had a dream about you.  ❞

❝  there’s nowhere to go. there’s nowhere to go.  ❞

❝  in these dreams it’s always you: the boy in the sweatshirt, the boy on the bridge, the boy who always keeps me from jumping off the bridge.  ❞

❝  will you love me even more when i’m dead?  ❞

❝  you didn’t show up. i kept waiting.  ❞

❝  i swallowed crushed ice pretending it was glass and you’re dead.  ❞

❝  i don’t really blame you for being dead but you can’t have your sweater back.  ❞

❝  you can sleep now, you said. you can sleep now. you said that. i had a dream where you said that. thanks for saying that. you weren’t supposed to.  ❞

❝  hello darling, welcome home.  ❞

❝  please keep him safe.  ❞

❝  i just don’t want to die anymore.  ❞

❝  you want to die for love, you always have.  ❞

❝  you didn’t think you’d feel this way.  ❞

❝  you saved my life. i owe you, i owe you everything.  ❞

❝  please, just for one night, will you lie down next to me, we can leave our clothes on, we can stay all buttoned up.  ❞

❝  you’re all i ever wanted and worth dying for, too.  ❞

❝  drive into that tree, drive off the embankment. ______, make something happen.  ❞

❝  we are not dirty.  ❞

❝  you keep singing along to that song i hate. stop singing.  ❞

❝  here is the sink to wash away the blood.  ❞

❝  this is not harmless. you are not breathing.  ❞

❝  i will come back from the dead for you.  ❞

[doineann-blog1]

viragod‌.

              K-POP MUSIC blasted through the speakers inside of her MEKA cockpit, hood open and allowing the upbeat tunes to sing out in the thin night sky. she, with long legs wrapped in fitted purple and pink suit, lounged openly as she stared up at the stars. a sigh escaped the softness of pink lips, content. nights like these were few and far between where she could hide away, escape without the sense of duty weighing down lithe shoulders.

a rich sense of irony came when a grunt cut through the happy melodics, followed by the instinctive sound of something hitting flesh. brows skewed, ear turning downward towards the vacant park below. sinister surroundings. trees loomed and hid darkness upon darkness, but the sound was unmistakable. 

             she was quick to act, roof door closing with a reassured snap as she jetted off towards the sound. her arrival, a thundering BOOM that had metal meet dirt, was in stark contrast to the petite woman that beautifully cascade from the pilot seat onto the ground. gun remained on her side as she stilled, watching the man dressed comfortably in black hunching over his much bloodier prey.

‘ doesn’t seem like a very fair match. ‘ words were melody in their own right, dripping past lips quirked into a sweet smile.                      ‘ wanna play me instead ? ‘

        it’s a job.  it’s a job.   it’s just a job.     the words ring in his head over and over,  murmured under his breath as he kneels down, checking his victim for signs of life.  if there are any -- it’s his job to put an end to it.  he stays there,  squatting down longer than he needed to.  almost praying that there’d be a breath, a heartbeat.  because he didn’t want to be so very good at dealing death.  he wanted death for once,  to escape his all too efficient hands. 

     his thoughts are broken by the machinations of a newcomer.  he’d seen these kinda machines before.   some of his employers owned them.   but he’d never been much into technology.   eyes are calm as they watch the woman descend from the pilot seat,  she doesn’t belong here.  she doesn’t belong around death.

     ‘   it wasn’t fair.  it wasn’t personal.  it was a job.  ‘   he’s never been much of a talker,  preferring to keep his thoughts to himself and simply exist on a purely physical plane.   ‘ you’re not part of the job.  ‘  but a part of him,  this mad purely self destructive part - wanted to lose to her.   his children would be young enough they’d grow up and find their own way without his corruption in their lives.  they’d be safer without him. 

     he rises from his knees,  gloved hands tucked in his pockets.  he doesn’t tense,  doesn’t prepare for a fight.  because quite simply the fights all gone.  if anything --- he seems more mournful than angry.

[carmen-berzattos]

#FINALLY

[littlelovelymemes]

(    *    & .    —    BILLIE  EILISH  LYRICS .

‘  don’t  you  know  i’m  no  good  for  you ?  ’

‘  nothing  ever  stops  you  leaving .  ’

‘  i  could  lie ,  say  i  like  it  like  that .  ’

‘  don’t  you  know  too  much  already ?  ’

‘  i’ll  only  hurt  you  if  you  let  me .  ’

‘  call  me  friend ,  but  keep  me  closer .  ’

‘  nothing  is  better  sometimes .  ’

‘  let  me  let  you  go .  ’

‘  i  just  wish  you  could  feel  what  you  say .  ’

‘  i  know  you  too  well .  ’

‘  if  ‘ i  love  you ’  was  a  promise ,  would  you  break  it  if  you’re  honest ?  ’

‘  i  don’t  wanna  be  you  anymore .  ’

‘  losing  feeling  is  getting  old .  ’

‘  only  you  know  the  way  that  i  break .  ’

‘  if  we  were  meant  to  be ,  we  would’ve  been  by  now .  ’

‘  all  i  see  is  him  right  now .  ’

‘  go  ahead  and  watch  my  heart  burn  with  the  fire  that  you  started  in  me ,  but  i’ll  never  let  you  back  to  put  it  out .  ’

‘  your  love  feels  so  fake .  ’

‘  if  i  could  get  to  sleep ,  i  would  have  slept  by  now .  ’

‘  when  you  call  my  name ,  do  you  think  i’ll  come  running ?  ’

‘  so  good  at  giving  me  nothing .  ’

‘  when  you  close  your  eyes ,  do  you  picture  me ?  ’

‘  you  should  see  me  in  a  crown .  ’

‘  your  silence  is  my  favorite  sound .  ’

‘  i  like  the  way  they  all  scream .  ’

‘  i  think  you’re  pretty .  ’

‘  i’m  not  your  baby .  ’

‘  where’s  my  mind ?  ’

‘  what  an  expensive  fate .  ’

‘  my  v  is  for  vendetta .  ’

‘  thought  that  i’d  feel  better ,  but  now  i  got  a  bellyache .  ’

‘  i  wear  my  noose  like  a  necklace .  ’

‘  i  wanna  make  ‘em  scared .  ’

‘  don’t  be  cautious ,  don’t  be  kind .  ’

‘  i  don’t  belong  to  anyone .  ’

‘  by  the  way ,  you’ve  been  uninvited .  ’

‘  why  so  sad ,  bunny ?  ’

‘  call  me  calloused ,  call  me  cold .  ’

‘  you  better  love  me .  ’

‘  i  would  hate  to  see  you  go .  ’

‘  i  hate  to  be  the  one  that  told  you  so .  ’

‘  you  just  crossed  the  line ,  you’ve  run  out  of  time .  ’

‘  sorry ,  sorry ,  i’m  sorry ,  sorry …  sike .  ’

‘  wake  up  and  smell  the  coffee .  ’

‘  is  your  cup  half  full  or  empty ?  ’

‘  i  love  it  when  you’re  awfully  quiet .  ’

‘  you  don’t  have  to  keep  it  quiet .  ’

‘  i  know  it  makes  you  nervous ,  but  i  promise  you  it’s  worth  it .  ’

‘  i  promise  you  it’s  worth  it  to  show  ‘em  everything  you  kept  inside .  ’

‘  too  shy  to  say ,  but  i  hope  you  stay .  ’

[doineann-blog1]

" This is the end. It's done." - Erik to Charles

         ‘  i think perhaps old friend we have reached the end too many times to truly call it done.   ‘   they have both reached ends, they have both sought completion. they have both declared themselves done. yet each time. each finish. they have been drawn back to a beginning they’d never been ready for. 

    erik has lived a life of unimaginable pain. but so have most of the mutants that charles has dealt with. yet erik -- erik holds a special place in the telepath’s life. a hum,  his chair silent as he moves across the carpet to the cabinet. reaching for the decanter. 

     ‘  have a drink then before all is ended.  perhaps a game of chess?  you remain the only one remotely competent enough to provide a challenge.  ‘  erik was volatile, charles was staid and dependable. life had shaped them in different ways, broken each in unique methods, but despite it all. he wasn’t ready for it to end. he’d thought he was, thought for certain he’d be better off if he never saw erik again. 

   yet invariably.  the world conspired to rejoin them. 

                      ‘  it is a good vintage if you’re still debating. nearly as old as we are. ‘  charles did have a good stock of scotch... and this one was an alluring shade of deep amber. 

       @dulcisebrietatem | meme from charles xavier

[doineann-blog1]

"My girlfriend left me."

          it’s sad. it should be sad. context however dulls the information. matt’s lost everyone. and those he hasn’t outright lost -- he’s pushed away.  there’s a quietness about him.  sightless eyes starring past danny.  lips pull to a sympathetic smile,  

                         ‘   i’m sorry --- but she’ll be safer.  it’ll be for the best.  ‘ 

    doubtless it was not what he’d want to hear.  but matt had begun to think that perhaps cold truth was kinder than the lies he’d been using to protect.  he’d lost both karen and foggy because of the lies he’d used to hide who he was.  if he’d just been honest... perhaps they’d be a little less hurt, and perhaps he’d have had to make different choices to keep them safe. 

            ‘   it hurts less... after a while.  from experience.  ‘ 

    he’d never forget the night elektra left the first time.  he’d thought then and there that it was over. that he wouldn’t love again. that he wouldn’t know what it felt like again.  but he’d been wrong.  not only had he loved her again, but he’d loved natasha, karen -- and in a different way, foggy.     ‘   but i am sorry.  ‘ 

     @youngdragondaniel | meme from matt murdock

[doineann-blog1]

Angst Starter Masterlist

" Aren't you going to say something?"

" And I thought I loved you."

" And I thought you loved me."

" Angry. I'm.. I'm angry."

" Aren't you even going to cry?"

" Are you going to cry?"

" Are you crying?"

" Are you okay?"

" Ask if I'm okay. Just ask."

" And this is why I don't want to stay anymore."

" Addiction isn't the way to go, ___ "

" Are you angry with me?"

" Are you afraid?"

" And now is the part where we say goodbye."

" And now you're going to leave me!"

" Are you just going to leave me?"

" Be friends with someone else."

" Boy/Girlfriend? Is that what you thought I meant?"

" Because you're such an ass and I- I just hate you!"

" But I've changed."

" But you've changed."

" Buy yourself something nice. Because I don't want this ring."

" But.. you're still alive?"

" Can't you just let me be happy for one?!"

" Can't you be happy for once?

" Can't you just be happy for me?"

" Come on, leave already!"

" Coward. That's all you are. A coward."

" Do you even know what you've done to me?"

" Do you have any remorse? "

" Don't you dare close your eyes on me!"

" Don't you dare die."

" Don't you care about me/her/him/them anymore?"

" Don't give me that look"

" Don't you want me to be happy?"

" Dammit! Everything was just starting to get better and then you do this!"

" Damn you."

" Don't lie to me."

" Don't like to him/her/them."

" Dammit.. Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck! You fucking ass!"

" Everything is fucked up now- everything is fucked because of you!"

" Everything's gone to hell."

" Everyone hates me."

" Everyone hates you."

" Everything hurts."

" Everything's going to be okay."

" Everyone loves you, not me."

" Everything is falling apart."

" Everything fell apart and I can't pick up the pieces anymore."

" For someone whose dying, you seem kind of happy."

" Friends forever, right? Isn't that what you said?"

" Fuck off!"

" Fuck you!"

" Find a new place to live."

" Find a new girlfriend/boyfriend."

" Find a new best-friend."

" Fine. I'll leave."

" Forever and ever. That's how long I said I loved you. But you never said it back."

" Fucking hell, I hate you!"

" Get lost!"

" Get a job, you ass!"

" Get out of here!"

" Go get a life."

" Go. Just go."

" How are you still alive?"

" How long are you going to keep this up?"

" How long until you finally get lost?"

" How about I just leave."

" Hold up. You're breaking up with me?"

" Heaven doesn't exist."

" Hell is the only place we're going to be going."

" How about you leave now?"

" Is this how you're going to treat me?"

" I can't believe you."

" I'm a monster."

" I killed someone."

" I want to kill myself."

" I want to kill something."

" I'm running away."

" I'm leaving you."

" I can't look at you right now."

" I hope you die!"

" I don't understand."

" I'm so angry/sad. But you don't care."

" I can't hear anything."

" I'm dying."

" I have cancer."

" I can feel the darkness coming."

" I can't breathe."

" Just joking, I don't love you."

" Just go."

" Just leave me alone!"

" Just fuck off."

" Kill yourself. "

" Kindly get the hell away from me."

" Kids? I don't want kids."

" Kind. That's the one thing you can never manage to be."

" Lie. Just lie."

" Lie to me."

" Life is not worth living."

" Living isn't possible."

" Like I give a shit about you."

" Lies are all you're capable of."

" Lay down. It'll all be over soon."

" My heart is broken. "

" My.. everything hurts."

" My girlfriend/boyfriend left."

" My ____ is dead."

" Man, you're an asshole."

" My lies aren't working anymore."

" Mutt."

" Many times I lay awake and wonder why I'm alive anymore."

" Never again."

" Never speak to me again."

" No. I won't do it."

" No, I don't like you like that."

" No way in hell!"

" Now, now, is there really any reason to cry?"

" Now and again I really start to hate you."

" No. Stop crying, just stop it."

" Not how I wanted to spend my life."

" Never look at me again."

" People hate me."

" People hate you."

" Person? No, no. You're not a person. You're a robot."

" People like you sicken me."

" People like you deserve to die."

" Perhaps you should just leave, then."

" Piss off."

" Question: why are you still here?"

" Quiet. I'm getting sick of hearing your voice."

" Run away. That's what I'm doing."

" See? I hate you."

" See? You hate me."

" Sometimes I wonder why you stay with me."

" So.. you hate me, then?"

" So this is how it ends."

" Shoot me."

" Shit..."

" So why are you still here?"

" Sometimes people lie to me."

" Stories are just that. Stories."

" Took off with everything I had!"

" Time to go."

" This is the end. It's done."

" The story is ending now."

" This is the end."

" This is why I hate you."

" Then why do you say you love me?!"

" Unlike you I have friends."

" Unlike me, you have friends"

" Under the bed is were I have to hide from you."

" Underwater is where i want me coffin to be."

" Utter it again and I swear I'll kill you!"

" Very mature. Cunt."

" Why can't you row up?"

" Why cant you care about me?"

" Why do you hate me?"

" Why do I hate you?"

" What do you mean?"

" What?You're dying?"

" Why can't you just be you."

" When am I supposed to get my time to be happy?'

" Well. This isn't how it was supposed to end between us."

" Whatever, you asshole."

" Whenever you decide you can stand to talk to me ago, please do."

" Well. I hate you now."

" Well, you hate me now."

[whartwell-blog]

RDJ Challenge

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[judaskisse-deactivated20201215]

SO I REACHED A MILESTONE ABOUT A WEEK AGO & AS EVER I’M LATE TO CELEBRATE !!!  ANYWAYS I JUST WANNA THANK YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I ONLY CAME BACK ABOUT A MONTH & A HALF AGO & LBR IT’S BEEN UTTER CHAOS AT TIMES BUT OVERALL I’M SO THRILLED TO BE BACK & EVERYONE’S BEEN SUPER WELCOMING & SO SWEET. HONESTLY YOU’RE ALL ANGELS & I JUST WANTED TO THROW A LIL SHOUTOUT @ THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE EVERY DAY HERE A GOOD ONE. IF I MISS ANYONE IN THIS PLS KNOW I’M FORGETFUL AF & YOU’RE PROBABLY MEANT TO BE ON HERE. <33

@timefought &&. @ashwritcs &&. @theidealiist // @exbenignitas &&. @thefirstintimeandspace // @exaltedhistorian &&. @helsung &&. @11thdr &&. @kthonia &&. @aidoneis &&. @pondelistic &&. @thansunflowers &&. @youmoveon &&. @crimscnmalice &&. @waredsin &&. @seriouslyaliens &&. @shewhowalkedtheearth &&. @travelledtime &&. @withbox &&. @partiallystcrs &&. @daayaan &&. @lightcreators &&. @mortiiicia &&. @ohbrilliiant  &&. @theholisticdetective &&. @tardisnamed &&. @tcrdisary &&. @moonpleaded &&. @venturousheart &&.  @shegoh &&. @amaeliad &&. @bettercoward &&. @storiiestcld &&.. @doineann &&. @telltaled &&. @spuntale &&. @hiswakes &&. @fiiveroundsrapid

[askboxmemes]

Go on Anonymous and tell me one thing you've been too scared to tell me, but have always wanted to say.

[youngdragondaniel]

@doineann followed me. I am blessed.

[doineann-blog1]

   **my muse fell in a trash can and for the first time felt at home** plz no blessings only loving garbage here.

[doineann-blog1]

You can never listen to enough Pogues, let's be real.

 **irish noises intensify** it is the solid honest truth.

[doineann-blog1]

It's called a trash CAN, not a trash CANT. Remember that.

[ethanhunt-deactivated20230911]

You’re the Aquaman. Aquaman (2018) dir. James Wan