PsychoAnalyze me

Keep it real, keep it psycho

[shattereddteacup]

Call Me by Your Name (2017)

Dir. Luca Guadagnino

Language: English, French and Italian

[crybabyclouds]

“is it better to speak or to die?” is one of those questions that feels impossible to answer because i don’t think it’s really about speaking at all. i think it’s about the unbearable weight of carrying something that was never meant to be carried alone. there are feelings that grow so quietly inside of you that they begin to shape the way you see the world. they settle into your bones, your habits, the things you almost say but don’t. after a while, silence stops feeling like a choice. it becomes a language of its own.

people always say that speaking sets you free, but i don’t think that’s always true. sometimes speaking is the moment you hand someone the sharpest thing they could ever use against you. it’s letting another person decide whether your truth is something they can hold gently or something they’ll dismiss without a second thought. there is something terrifying about being fully known, because once you’ve been seen, you can’t disappear back into the version of yourself that stayed hidden. if they don’t understand you, it can feel like you’ve lost something you’ll never get back.

but silence has a way of changing you too. not all at once, but slowly. almost beautifully. you convince yourself that keeping quiet is easier, that you’ll say it tomorrow, or next week, or when the timing is right. then one day you realize you’ve built an entire life around things you never allowed yourself to say. you begin mourning conversations that never happened, versions of yourself that never existed outside your own mind, and futures that disappeared before they ever had the chance to become real. i think that’s the kind of death the question is talking about. not the end of a heartbeat, but the quiet disappearance of possibility.

maybe that’s why the question has stayed with me. it refuses to tell you which choice is kinder. speaking can break your heart. silence can slowly reshape it into something unrecognizable. one asks you to risk rejection, the other asks you to live with uncertainty. neither lets you leave untouched.

maybe being alive isn’t about avoiding either kind of pain. maybe it’s about deciding which one lets you remain the most yourself. because i think there are parts of us that only exist once they’re spoken aloud. and if they spend a lifetime waiting to be heard, maybe they don’t disappear all at once. maybe they fade so gradually that we hardly notice until we look back and realize we’ve been grieving someone we’ve never even had the chance to become.

[whimsisoul24]

Is it better to speak or to die ?

[promisebetweenus]

“The reason why world is getting boring and dull because lately being ourselves is the harder thing to do than being someone else. We’re hiding in someone’s shadow or even wearing faces that aren’t ours. Not because the standard is too high, but because we’re slaves of idolism and worship nothing but the hottest trends. The society isn’t helping either since they become judgemental, like it’s a sin to be different. Unluckily, it creates a whole new stereotype system, an industry that producing commands of how we’re seeing things.”

— Millennials Era by Melancholy Girl

[coquettemeth]

[welaughuntilourribsgettough]

one gentle summer's breeze and I turn into this mf

[subatoism]

Love love love characters that present themselves as emotionally open social butterflies but the more you see of them the more obvious it is that they’re the most closed off fuckers in the story. Sure, they want to help you with your personal problems and messy emotions, but if you turn that shit back on them, they’ll shut down or deflect every time. Why are you sticking your nose in their business anyway? It’s not like it matters. They’re not a person, they’re just a role being played. They’re the guy who fixes things and saves people. Please ignore the man behind the mask, he’s fine. Everything’s fine.

[sophsun1]

Favourite Looks Series

Justin Taylor & Too Busy To Fcuk T Shirt

[ohneiljostens-deactivated202006]

Brian&Justin + public displays of affection

[may12324]

Dyke Knights ⚔️

[doomed-romances]

A little detail I loved in "Beach Reads": When Patricia first finds the Your Turn book, a fly circles it — the way flies circle something rotten or smelly. Odd, because the book looks brand new, pristine, untouched. Then the twist hits. It is rotten. What Patricia saw as a clean, modern copy is actually an ancient spell book in disguise— and it's been that way from the start. The dark magic was already working on her before she even knew what she was holding.

“One of the writers had this idea of a self-help book that goes wrong, and it started a conversation about, ‘What are Patricia’s fears?' One thing I always think about with Patricia is the thing that is scarier to her than the idea of dying is the idea of dying and no one caring about it. That brought in the one thing we always try to do when we’re using these horror tropes, which is tell a story about a character who is feeling very real, human emotions.” — creator Katie Dippold for The Wrap.

[janployshompoos]

I'm sorry for saying that to you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Lal.

ENEMIES WITH BENEFITS | EP8

[homosexuality-offical]

Lyra wren poem that I genuinely cried at, happy pride month

[reasonsforhope]

By the way, you can improve your executive function. You can literally build it like a muscle.

Yes, even if you're neurodivergent. I don't have ADHD, but it is allegedly a thing with ADHD as well. And I am autistic, and after a bunch of nerve damage (severe enough that I was basically housebound for 6 months), I had to completely rebuild my ability to get my brain to Do Things from what felt like nearly scratch.

This is specifically from ADDitude magazine, so written specifically for ADHD (and while focused in large part on kids, also definitely includes adults and adult activities):

How to Sharpen Executive Functions: Activities to Hone Brain Skills

Executive functioning skills range from working memory to cognitive flexibility to inhibitory control, and beyond. They power our daily func

Here's a link on this for autism (though as an editor wow did that title need an editor lol):

Enhancing Executive Functioning Difficulties in Adults with Autism

Practical Strategies for Enhancing Executive Functioning Difficulties in Adults With Autism - Living with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) as

Resources on this aren't great because they're mainly aimed at neurotypical therapists or parents of neurdivergent children. There's worksheets you can do that help a lot too or thought work you can do to sort of build the neuro-infrastructure for tasks.

But a lot of the stuff is just like. fun. Pulling from both the first article and my own experience:

Play games or video games where you have to make a lot of decisions. Literally go make a ton of picrews or do online dress-up dolls if you like. It helped me.

Art, especially forms of art that require patience, planning ahead, or in contrast improvisation

Listening to longform storytelling without visuals, e.g. just listening regularly to audiobooks or narrative podcasts, etc.

Meditation

Martial arts

Sports in general

Board games like chess or Catan (I actually found a big list of what board games are good for building what executive functioning skills here)

Woodworking

Cooking

If you're bad at time management play games or video games with a bunch of timers

Things can be easier. You might always have a disability around this (I certainly always will), but it can be easier. You do not have to be this stuck forever.

[hug-your-face]

via @swatercolour here on Tumblr and also on [insta]

EDIT: I do not interpret "just managing" as "just suffering, just enduring, curling into a fetal position and waiting for it to be over." Managing is an active process.

So I'm using this post as a platform to make the reminder that "the power of the people is greater than the people in power," and we all are cordially invited to:

Take good care of ourselves. Mental, physical, emotional health. Hydrate. Move if we can, get outside if we can.

Keep up a routine. Remember quarantine and we all had to find a routine? This is the same.

Be intentional in our news consumption. Let's not stick our heads in the sand but let's not doomscroll either. Get an RSS aggregator. Subscribe to WTF Just Happened Today, Yoour Local Epidemiologist, Fix The News (for some inspiring hopeful news!). We'll check our feeds a few times a week, but no more than once a day.

Connect with friends and loved ones. Remind ourselves that while SOME people are horrible, for the most part people are awesome... if complicated. Share our fears but also our hopes. Eat together.

Now that we're keeping healthy, safe, sane, and hopeful... now we also fight. Quietly if we prefer, loudly if we prefer. But sustainably. I hate that I had to live through three rounds of this nonsense where a few people use half of us as tools to fuck over ALL of us, but here we are again. So let us take just one moment every week or so to...

Use 5calls to keep blowing up our reps phones. Tell them to either break ranks with the Orange Administration, or to stand up louder than just matching outfits and signs. Or to THANK them for standing up.

Use Vote411 to find elections before the midterms. A lot of villages, cities, townships etc have local elections that will affect where we live... and more importantly, the people in office there will affect things upwards too.

Use Ballotpedia to know exactly what's on our ballots ahead of time.

Protest, because it actually works.

Use Vote.org to make a plan to vote in the midterms. Make a plan that is immune to voter suppression tactics. Get our documents in order. Reach out to our friends to go to the polls as a group. Plan to livestream our visit, up until the point we have to turn our cameras off.

Make and share memes that promote hope, organizing, solidarity, and/or resistance.

Get involved with an action network like Indivisible, MoveOn, or Working Families Party.

Go to a local town hall meeting. Speak up.

Heck, start our own local activism networks, letter campaigns, call campaigns, or fundraisers with Action Network.

And we will remember our self-care. We will remind ourselves and each other that they want us scattered, focus is how we resist.

It IS coming back. Things ARE going to get worse. The world has become a place where a very few people are pulling levers and pushing buttons that are actively destroying much of what is good about living in a society where people care for each other.

Many others are in shock, sputtering "but can they do that?" MANY many others are waiting for someone to come save us.

But there are those who are actively, loudly, opposing.

And there are more people speaking up, acting up, every day. More people saying it's time to get scrappy. It's time to get into some good trouble. The shock is wearing off.

Yes, it's gonna get worse before it gets better (the long-term damage of the acts of the past momentum of all the damage that has been done will take that long to be felt -- but it WILL get better.

If WE will it.

[kedreeva]

Following the author of The Last Unicorn on Facebook is the only thing that makes being on that site worthwhile.

(source)

[gocheerleader]

men cannot see unicorns 🪽