Feat the Dimitrescu and Tired Crow Mom(tm) Paradoxical Masterlist: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/745152768238567424/copy-of-paradoxical-masterlist
Hey! Now that you’re back I wanted to ask about Resident Lover? I remember you were on the team- but then the game came out and your name wasn’t on the dev list... what happened?
I can’t escape this question can I- and for those of you who messaged me, I did delete them in hopes of avoiding this- but I don’t want rumours to spread so lemme be transparent.
Also pls read this for how I’m handling coming back to this blog: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/741337986608873472/complex-feelings-and-absolute-pandemonium-about-my
No, I wasn’t kicked off the team, nor was I invited back when I left- and they made the right choice doing that. I was not mentally stable. I didn’t take the project seriously, I had jealousy issues, and didn’t take criticism well- I self destructed badly- blew up and burned that bridge to ashes, not to mention what sorta hurt I caused the team.
It did hurt a lot when I saw the game release. I was so upset, and spent so many weeks thinking about “what if I didn’t fuck up”. But there are no “what ifs” in history, we are meant to go through what we do in order to become the best versions of ourselves. The whole ordeal was part of the last push I needed to finally seek professional help. And the fact it still hurts whenever I see it around means I still care and carry guilt about everything that happened.
I’m practicing exposure therapy to try and heal that gaping wound. RE8 has turned my life completely on its head and I don’t want to abandon it- the best outcome will be the day I can download and play the game and find it within myself to genuinely love it with no more wounds to lick- but for now I’m content with seeing it float around every once in a while on my dash.
Out of respect- I hope none of you will pester the devs about this either. They did something amazing, and I’m so proud of what they’ve accomplished. Out of all of them I really miss MJ. They were the best, most hilarious friend- I always thought they were super attractive- and the whole reason the game was possible. Show them some love- idk message them “you’re cool!” for me or something. Anon ask if you have to. Don’t tell them I’m the one who sent you- I think it’ll be funny to just have a whole buncha people messaging them outta nowhere bahaha
And with that I hope this clears it up and stops people from messaging anymore about it. It’s still a sensitive wound I’m working to heal and I’d like to do it at my own pace<3 I don’t regret the experience, I’m in such a better place now because of it. I would love to make peace with my past self and accept the pain as a part of growing.
Until then enjoy me going back to my usual shenanigans before all the shit hit the fan. I’m very excited to draw more Spider Donna and Beneviento Sisters, I hope y’all enjoy it too<3
Update that shows old sprite: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/738487941680316416/want-me-as-a-professor-okay-damn-ignore-the
Update where I rant about Angie and Daniela with a cat: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/740499151828156416/can-we-see-the-png-of-the-angie-sprite-holding-a
Update about the dangie ask on the RL blog: https://www.tumblr.com/donnabenevientosimpingzone/742312364040454144/hey-just-a-heads-up-that-the-rl-team-recently
I have travelled back home and received my drawing iPad back, however jet lag has me in a chokehold (15 hour difference) and there’s a massive change in my art style from not having been able to draw for half a year (help)
But I’m alive! Paradoxical shall continue the moment I banish this jet lag and get my art habits back :D
Okay first: Paradoxical is NOT abandoned. Life has just happened-
I graduated with a bachelors, worked several labs, studied and took the MCAT, started to apply for med school before getting approved to study abroad- flew across the ocean for said studying abroad- and during that time I ended up forgetting my iPad on the plane. It went missing for a few weeks, was found, but they cannot ship it to me… sooooooooo I have nothing to draw on expect good ole’ pen and paper haha!
My iPad will be picked up by my parents so I will eventually get it back when I go back for the holidays, but that does mean I got nothing to continue drawing Paradoxical on until then. I briefly got a replacement but when my original iPad was found, I returned it (but not without drawing Elena first-).
K2 and I still actively plan Paradoxical together and are working to complete the document we have for it. But until then I will focus most of my efforts in my year in a completely new country with zero idea of what I’m doing XD
Expect an update sometime around New Years? I know it’s a really long time but I don’t get a holiday until then. I am still determined to see this comic through- even if it takes a decade or two!
I felt really nostalgic today and went through some of the pictures I had saved and found your Elena art.
Your art has improved so much !
Just wanted to say hi, and thank you, you were one of the nicest, kindest and most welcoming people in the RE fandom ❤️
Hope you're doing well 🫶
Awwwwwh thank you for stopping by, I’m so glad to be hearing from you!<333
I took a break from the RE8 fandom as well, and when I came back- I heard you’ve moved on. I hope everything has been treating you well, and you get to expand your talents to much more places that you have passion for<3
You’ll always remain as someone I cared for while I was freshly hatched into this chaotic fandom during its peak. Whenever you see this: much love and support from me!
Update on life: didn’t die! Been swarmed with finals and research, graduating May 4th so everything has been a whirlwind. Hopefully after this week, I’ll be able to pick back up sketching again!
I hope everyone is going to have an amazing month! <3
Finals and exams kicking my butt, but still get dopamine here and there. A new dragon got released on Flight Rising that I immediately adopted like… 12 of them-
tell me you love- tell me you love me- you are the antidote to my heart- take me for a ride, I wanna see inside, Baby, you’re paradise
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it mah gettin’ old day! So I did this sketch for myself of the ship that got me back to loving RE8 and helped me heal as well as finding passion for drawing again- it includes teasers for where the plot of Paradoxical is going as a bonus treat<3
