If We All Just Take a Moment

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#life #justsaying

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No Need to Panic

Take off my wings Relieve me of the pressure Tell me I can finally live my own life I didn't ask for input I don't ever expect a fuss I just needed my time now Stop your eyes from pouring into mine I don't need reminding of your disappointment I apologise for being human and unique But I don't apologise for following my path Never been the same since Never stood out Never blended in Just puzzled people with my presence Angered people with my lack of simplicity Confused you all with my soul I look forward you know I don't need my past as much as you think Afterall it was only a direction I will pick out my own favourite bits I will miss my own choices of life I shan't be left here alone though Don't ever worry about that I am more than happy with what I have right now I will only get better I will only get happier

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Lost the piece

I woke up today I thought i felt ok But it crept up on me when i wasn't looking It became a chore to breathe properly I felt completely suffocated I had really had enough Maybe it was the stressful calls Maybe it was my time of month Maybe it was the family worries All I knew was it was all encased in stress And the longer the day became the more messed up I felt And i couldn't see the way out and i didn't wanna talk about it And no one wanted to hear about it I just felt utterly alone Where had the sunshine gone? Where was this positivity? Where was my strength and determination? Ohhh there it is Under that cupboard All mixed up But i can see it now Please come back to me I can't do it without you

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Guardian Angel

Should you ever find yourself fit to burst Picture me Should you ever be struggling so much you can't breathe Picture me For i will be there I will catch every tear I will silence your fears I will fix your life For we can't always rely on people And when alone in darkness we can look for blame Please don't Let the thinking subside Let it go Feel the stress release from your shoulders Feel the deep breaths in and out Smile Go on, noone will expect that Laugh a little, tell a joke We all will listen We all will be thankful for your presence Eventually people will see all the good you bring Eventually they will all see your hard work Eventually... but until then, you have me And next to you forever, I will be

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Frivolous moments

And at times i find myself lost The lights dont work and its hard to find the solutions You find yourself arguing and fighting with yourself... remembering your past Random memories flash on by and none of them make life any clearer You look in the mirror and nothing helps Your eyes look lost Your heart is full of scars You can't justify your decisions anymore The word confused doesn't feel strong enough Your life is a mess You believe in your dreams though Life has to get better Please, life I need you to get better

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Time

The time had tricked me I had always thought I had longer I didn't think this was an exam I didn't realise I was being treated to just this and only this and then nothing more I started to run up the road The sweat poured from my face and I just felt overtaken with anger and frustration I didn't want to lose this now, not now Come on now life, cut me a break I need this time It was slipping from my fingers I couldn't seem to grasp at anything It had been a lie Time was always its own boss You couldn't ever offer enough of your soul in trade for more Once it was gone, that was it The stop watch would click The lap of life would be complete Onto the next one Move along and move on This isn't your time or place anymore

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Divorce

And one day the bed wasnt the same She woke up in the nights sometimes with the panic that she felt no warmth as she stretched out The room would throw her off now n then This went on for years For they had been a couple for years They were used to their normal, their love and it took her awhile to adjust She had moved into a new bed with a new person but it didn't stop the waking up in the night She soon forgot his voice and his laugh It happened one afternoon, she remembers calling out kettle on and it just hit her - how had he sounded? She broke down in tears He really had gone It really was over

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Happiness

I don't mean a lot to many people And I won't pretend that I do They'll message me when they need something Or are bored or lonely or drunk I don't mean a lot to many people And sometimes it can be quite shit But then I don't have anyone in my life So why moan at what little I get I dream of past folk all too often Of lovers that fell at the seams Of them being here and all in love But then wake up alone once again I don't mean a lot to many people And people mean nothing to me So I'll just get on and give life my best And hope one day happiness comes and finds me

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JUST SAYING

Stick to what you know

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Entwined in dreams Embedded in hope Drenched in fear Lonely wakes me in the dark of the morning Not a bird singing, not a sound Just humdrum of my own thoughts Bouncing around this room of misery Enveloped in pain Wanting it all Gaining nothing Arguing with shadows The shadows that left years ago They just hang around and haunt me The ink in my skin is deeper Than any sea in this whole world It protects me with a reminder A reminder that I’ve been through it all And I needn’t crawl I am capable of standing tall High above the trees To touch and grab a cloud Entwined in dreams Believing in my future To continue on and prosper On and on

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Train Journey Scribbles

You never ever know Love to tell you different Tell you before you commit But life isn’t like that Maybe a dragons den suggestion though

Skipping around without a clue Looking at me and looking at you Raincoat on puddles surround Not a real time, not even a care

Push it all over, after you built it up Destroy it beyond the fixing ability of glue Stay awake all night and regret it Cry it all out Sleep with the light on and the TV blarring its noise at you The images collage into a blurry mess It comforts you as you understand it better this way Continue with the day Pack up your wordly possessions Sell all you dislike Pass time quickly Because you never ever know No one ever does That’s life for you I don’t think it will ever be different.

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.... Venus

I held my promise I always remember How could I ever forget You were the one you see I remember all of us You made my heart fly And until the promise it never again shall. I often meet you anyway I see you passing by in my dreams It's funny- never direct... not even a word Many moons ago now But never as much as faded in colour Time always stood still On that first moment I met you Love deafened me I drowned in your eyes I fear I fear I will never again receive that kind That it was just once and my time is up Fingers crossed As my heart hangs in the balance

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#NowPlaying Drowning by Banks

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#nicesound #JackGarratt #Fresh #NowPlaying Banks

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Games

I can’t get up They hurt my legs They had so much to say to me They pushed me down They ruined all I had

They used to love me, believe me I was all they wanted I was all they dreamed about No one would ever have guessed this They got bored

They wanted to play They had no toys left People had walked away Didn’t wish to be associated Were sick of the names and fights

I was new, I made them excited Excited to play and destroy Day by day, ounce by ounce They ridiculed me They sucked away the life inside my soul and left me here Lying on this floor

I can’t get up They hurt my legs They were always ruining things They would learn one day You have to trust that

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My first published work. I am very proud to be part of such a great movement. Inspiring and humble to be amongst women who all have the same idea about life, and where women fit