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  Her morning had been going great so far, sheâd woken up refreshed, done some yoga, there had been hardly any traffic en route to the office, her chai latte had been free because of a rewards scheme the coffee shop were running that day and Josephine was looking forward to a stress-free day of simply typing reports, having a few phonecall appointments and filing paperwork. That was until she got to said office and was warned by her assistant of a strange sniffling sound coming from behind the door.    Since moving to Bayview, Josie had managed to mostly fend off the well-meaning offers from her sisters such as, living with them, eating lunch with them every day, video calls at all hours. She thought that perhaps they had both finally come to respect and abide by her boundaries, this was evidently wrong when she stepped into her office and found chaos had moved in whilst she was sleeping. There were enough tissues strewn across the floor that one would be forgiven if they believed the rug was while and fluffy rather than the black and emerald pattern that truly lay underneath the mass of scrunched up discarded squares. Eyes fell to her sister, who looked like sheâd been possibly crying all night, her face swollen with mascara streaming down it and her nose bright red, Josephine took a steeling breath and brushed aside her initial annoyance, Dottie was clearly upset and she needed a sister, not a lecture.    Stepping carefully across the floor, careful not to touch any of the white masses on the floor, Josephine sat on the arm of the couch and reached out a hand to place on her little sisters head comfortingly, âDottie, have you been here all night? Why didnât you call me?â she scolded gently, worried for her sister, but also keeping a reservation in the back of her mind that the younger girl could in fact just be blowing things out of proportion. Eyes cast down to the jacket and she blinked, trying to place it in her wardrobe, finally recognising it as a vintage coral Chanel piece Lottie had bought for her in good conscience that Josie had hung up with the intention of never wearing (under the pretense of it being âfor a fashion emergencyâ, of course) she shook her head and smiled comfortingly.    âDonât worry about the jacket, you know coral washes me out. Itâs probably for the best. now, tell me what happened.âÂ
â âIâm afraid if I tell you,â she said, voice trembling. âThat youâll be disappointed in me.â Dottie fought against the tears, but the last battalions of her stubborn spirit were crumbling. She sounded strained, brittle. âJosie, I have worked so hard for my career,â she said. After years of waffling before the press in a bid to appease everyone, it felt unnatural to speak so firmly.
There was a voice -- a voice, once belonging to her agent that was no co-opted into her own -- in the back of her mind that punished her. It tore her apart for daring to say that she deserved to enjoy the fruits of her labor. She knew it wasnât selfish to want things for herself, but that knowledge didnât stop making it so scary to admit aloud.
Unspoken words choked her, building into a mottled blockage that seared against her esophagus. Dottie's gaze roamed everywhere in the room except for on her sister. âI have worked so hard,â she said. âAnd every time I think things are looking up, I fall flat on my face in front of a million people.â
The back of her mind still tormented her: Why are you complaining? You chose this, didnât you? And in exchange for all the money from reruns and merchandise and ad campaigns, the public owns you. You knew what you signed up for, so flash a smile and perform.
Suddenly, the firm cushions beneath her had all the consistency of a waterbed. She fanned herself with two panicked, jittering hands capped by pink nails. âLike, is it just some sick joke? That never, once in my life I can have one win?â she said. âItâs like in Some Like It Hot, where Sugar says she always gets the fuzzy end of the lollipop. The whole world thinks Iâm some...some brainless...â
Dottie pressed her lips together. The thin, pale pink line wobbled until she could finally confess the truth. âJosie, I might owe a lot of money now,â she said. âI didnât do anything bad, but there were tabloids and troll farms that just...just spun things out of control. My sponsors dropped me and are saying I have to pay them back.â
Maybe her sister knew what came next. Her sister, whoâd always known that Dottie was the type of woman who gave and gave, even when she didnât have anything left. Hastily, Dottie brushed her sleeve across her cheeks to soak up the tears that stung her skin.
âWe have so many nice family members,â she said. âWhat if I have to tell grandma we have to sell the house I bought her? Or do I have to like, call up all our aunties and uncles I bought cars and groceries for? Lottieâs girlfriend was moving in, so I needed to pretend it was fine for me to move out. They think Iâm staying at some fancy condo and I just...couldnât tell her, Josie. I couldnât tell her.âÂ
She looked away.
âI couldnât tell her I donât have anywhere to go.âÂ












