Maya

hellooo | she/he/they | aroace

[dozingdahlias]

Intro post

Hey I’m Maya/Dahlia, use whatever pronouns you want I don’t care, and I’m 18

I’m omni oriented aroace

I’m a multifandom account, I talk about my life a lot, occasionally I talk/reblog stuff about some of the streamers I watch. I talk about books sometimes. What I post about tends to be pretty random. Mostly I talk about being queer, my social anxiety, and my life.

These days though I’m not on as much and tumblr is basically just my diary and I talk about random vague stuff that pertains to me under #me shit

Feel free to ask which streamers/fandoms, I just don’t feel like listing them out here

I listen to a ton of music and my taste is fairly broad (imo) so feel free to suggest artists/songs to me (or ask me what I’m into at the moment!)

I love tag games, so don’t be shy about tagging me in one (even though I’m shy about it myself)

[dozingdahlias]

Behemoth of a vent abt a friend of mine below

How terrible is it that the first time I ever actually got close with a guy I had a huge platonic attachment to, the first time I thought I really had a great guy friend I could trust and count on, he went and made a move on me anyways even though he knows and has shown on multiple occasions how very aware he is that I will never be attracted to anyone, let alone a guy. He knows that even if I were to be into anyone it would probably be a girl if anything. But he did it anyways knowing that. I told him to fuck off and we haven’t mentioned it since. I hate that he’s given me so many reasons to hate him and I’m still just as attached to him and our friendship as I’ve always been. I’m mostly over it now but for a few days after it threw me into a depression and I barely ate. But hey I’m over it now. Because how could I not be when nothing changed afterward. We don’t talk about it, we still joke the same, talk the same, act the same, and even if he’s for some reason harboring those feelings, he knows there’s never a chance, even if sometimes I wish I was able to give him one I really don’t understand his brain. He sends me screenshots of pickup lines he uses on other girls, he constantly calls me a lesbian (contributing to all of my classmates and friends thinking I am one, I don’t blame them, I look like one) he demonstrates how he perfectly understands my sexuality but still decided it would be a good idea to ask if he could hit. Because “game is game” but it isn’t. Not with me. Not with his friend that could never reciprocate. How could he do that to me. How could he make me rethink our entire friendship, because what if it was all a lie. But I don’t think it was. And even though it’s probably not in my best interest. I’ll never cut him off. I don’t have the willpower. Or if I’m being honest? The desire. But we just graduated and he’s leaving at the end of July and I’ll probably never see him again. Which hurts really bad even though it maybe shouldn’t. But oh well

[dalias-in-a-jam]

i just want a girl i can cuddle with and maybe kiss and she's devoted to me and im devoted to her but there arent any romantic or sexual expectations and we would die and live for each other but we're best friends in every universe and we raise a couple cats and maybe a big dog together and share our interests with each other and we're in love but platonically and we're both girls and

[dozingdahlias]

Why can’t I have a single instance of hanging out with a bunch of my friends and having fun without later being hit by the soul crushing realization that I only ever hang out with most of them in pre-organized functions/group settings and they go out and do stuff together afterwards or hang out in other instances and I’m never invited. Ever

[dozingdahlias]

How to tell my friend whom I have an extremely love hate relationship with that I’m terrified that I’ll never see him again after we graduate in less than two weeks and that we’ll never talk after he leaves at the end of July.

How to ask him if he wants us to continue being friends past graduation at all

How to let him know that if he’s ever up north in the future he knows where I’ll be while I’m at college and he can always hit me up if he’s nearby

[risk-repeater]

this job market is a fucking nightmare

[dozingdahlias]

Cannot convey how much I need to get out of this house and this city. College in the fall is exactly what I’ve needed for so long. An entirely fresh start.

[dozingdahlias]

Counting down the days till June 1st so I can finally have a gym membership again

[dozingdahlias]

An aroace person telling me their favorite show as a child was my little pony I said oh I’m sure

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[coffee-or-hot-cocoa]

i need all the help i can get for finals

[finnglas]

Hey so

the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like. 

So you know. 

This might be the real one, y’all.

[avhira]

I could use some luck

[freesiadotcom]

*trying not to doxx myself* shoutout to that one thing in a place somewhere

[dozingdahlias]

Girl? I guess, sorta, not really. But eldest daughter, older sister? Always

[dozingdahlias]

Empathy is crazy because ever since earlier today when my friend out of the blue dropped on me that his mom died so he wouldn’t be at school the rest of the week my stomach feels like I’ve been sucker punched, I’ve lost my appetite, and I’ve basically just been reeling ever since

[dozingdahlias]

How to make the actual physical aching feeling in my chest due to feeling left out by my friends and people around me disappear without actually changing my actions or telling anybody

[fruitviking]

Can we stop with the character development. Where's my beach episode.

[aqueerkettleofish]

For those who have missed it, a tourist in Hawaii decided it would be fun to chuck a rock (a BIG rock) at a monk seal. He missed, but he was captured on video, and when told it was illegal to interfere with them, said "I'm rich, I can pay the fine."

Is the best part that he got doxxed? No.

Is the best part that he got tracked down by a local and beaten? No.

Arrested on state at federal charges, looking at up to 5 years and 50K? Nope.

The best part is the local city council's reaction.

And the best part of that is the look on the attorney's face.

[ralfmaximus]

More of this please, everywhere.

After the incident, another video went viral showing what appeared to be that man getting a beating. The Maui Police Department said they had no record of any reports of disorderly conduct or assault related to the monk seal incident.

Even the local police are being cool about this.

[werewolveswithagenda]

I think Tumblr will love this

[i-am-shitpost]

For the love of GOD turn the volume on

[the-real-seebs]

every day someone thinks of an art form no one did before