Chronically Tired

Run by an avenger. Tired of bullshit syscourse.

[tussai]

Syscourse honestly feels like a war between two ideas:

"Being a system is a disorder, not an identity."

vs

"Being a system is an identity, not a disorder."

And here I am... both. I have a CDD and experience psychotic(-like) symptoms that have profoundly shaped who I am. I recognize that many of these experiences arise from a disorder... but they are still real experiences that have influenced my sense of self. Those things coexist. A disorder can shape a person's identity without ceasing to be a disorder.

Having a disorder is not the same thing as making it your identity. Sharing an experience with a disorder is not the same thing as having that disorder. These ideas are not new. They've coexisted in psychiatry, psychology, and the social sciences for decades, but somehow, syscourse often turns them into this false dichotomy that I don't understand. A false dichotomy so extreme that you are forced to either pick one side or become the enemy of both.

The problem isn't which side is right. Both often flatten a far messier reality into a binary. Experiences exist on continua, diagnoses have thresholds, and identities develop from people's lived experiences regardless of whether those experiences meet diagnostic criteria.

This is why I don't consider myself anti, pro, or neutral. I know too much and have too many opinions that I stand by to actually be genuinely "neutral" on the subject... but I also actively disagree and agree with too much on both sides that I can't align myself with either. I get rejected as being "too pro" and "too anti" by both sides because the moment I reject the false dichotomy, both sides decide I belong to the other.

And perhaps the group most forgotten by this false dichotomy is mixed-origin systems... but that's another discussion for another day.

[dragons-den-discourse]

I'm not a big fan of the endogenic/traumagenic framework.

Both labels seem to encourage a view of these systems as a monolith, when both are umbrella terms that cover multiple experiences that can be very different from eachother. People tend to hold these labels up, and expect you to neatly conform to one or the other.

I think the popularity of this framework does more harm to the community than good. The lines are not as clear as one might think.

[dragons-den-discourse]

"Using pedophilic as sn insult is extremely fucking ableist"

Stfu actually. Pedophilic as an insult is stupid when used in ad hominem but we cannot as a culture destigmatize that label. The label has weight for a fucking reason, and popularizing the view that calling someone a pedophile is ableist will water down the term and cause harm. You cannot water that down. Did we not learn from MAPs?

Fucking. I hope the medical field changes the fucking disorder term. Most times people are talking about pedophiles they aren't talking about the disorder anyway, but it would cause less harm to just change the fucking disorder name.