oh, this is my dream journal

hi, my name is cas these are my dreams and fickin memories this is a sideblog [20 | he/they]

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dream log - 2016-11

i had a dream i was talking to lapin i was laying in bed with my eyes closed i think i was trying to sleep and i couldn't get comfortable and lapin kept talking (we were arguing maybe ??) and i kept telling him to leave me alone but he wouldn't

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dream log - 2016-11-14

i hAD A DREAM that i was doing this contest thing where i went through different terrains on this train and when i got back, 28 was mad that i was talking to 06 and we had this huge argument at the platform station/contest headquarter place and i think i walked off so he talked to mothership and mothership came to talk to me and then MOTHERSHIP and i argued and she asked me "why do you even talk to strangers on the internet" and i told her "i don't know so maybe one of them will kidnap me and kill me and bury the chopped up pieces of my body out under the railroad tracks" and she got upset and left me alone and then i went into this bathroom to find a ghost that might've been luna and then i woke up

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dream log - 2016-11-15

okay so i had this dream where i was running from my family (nicholas and rhea i think) and i was in this store that was a cross between a cvs and a walmart in some kind of ocean aisle like there was a rack of starfish and sea sponges and rhea and nicholas showed up so i hid and left the store itook this van to some different part of the city and i ended up at this gloomy bookshop it was weirdly dark inside and and the bookshelves were weirdly tall ?? and the shelves were all full of fanfiction (pfffft) so i was sitting on top one of the bookshelves and the lady who owned the bookshop came out and started talking to me and she really liked me for some reason and she made me do these tests or something i had to like say the colours of these blinking lights idk so then green and dean come into the bookstore and they were like "why are you ???" so i was like "um, i don't know ??? who are you guys like ???" and they were just super like "why are you here ???" and i kinda just ignored them the lady was like "oh you kids are so funny, you're gonna get along great" so we all went to sit in the kitchen and it looked exactly like mine does except there was nothing against the left wall so the table was closer to the left wall so i sat at the head of the table and green and dean sat at the left side of the table and green was like "we're trying to write a book we're here because this lady's helping us" and i was like "cool i play the ukulele and i'm here because i'm hiding from my family" and then i woke up

[oursunandmoon]

[usuallycasualphantom]

Warm Color Picks

Cat - Rainbow

Plain - Star

Color Block -  Color Block

Star - Plain

Cartoon - Plain

Then inventory is limited, order and get it.

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dream log - 2016-11-07

had a dream about rubber band gum speakers and being i was in love with someone and trying to get someone else’s approval (i don’t remember who but i remember i was with 28) i sat on a radioshack floor questioning if i should get the gum speakers and 28 and tested them out i ended up buying two there were rabbit plushes so maybe i was in love with lapin the person who rang me up was the person who’s approval i was trying to get (maybe black) so before i got the gum speakers, i’d bought something else so black would talk to me and he left me a nice message on my receipt but i returned it and went to go buy what i actually wanted and when i was done he gave me a hug then 28 and i left and i think we were talking about black and lapin but we were def in 28’s car and i might’ve been sitting in the back but we were using the gum speakers

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i am missing baku terribly

[celtic-corvid]

“I attract canonmates”

A sigil for fictionkin who feel like they can’t find anyone from their canons! Best of luck to you guys and here’s hoping this sigil will help you find who you’re looking for!

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my stomach flipflops at the thought of ever being able to find jesse and sombra

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dream - 2016-09-23

i had a dream i was in a hospital 

i needed some type of operation

it started with me making an appointment ??? but i don’t remember that part too much and i’m not really sure why i even needed an operation 

but it skips a little bit and i’m trying to get to my appointment, and it’s something like 2 pm i think some time early in the afternoon

so i’m on this stretch of highway and something happens where i end up in this old saloon looking restaurant and i need to call the hospital to let them know i’m going to be late

so i think i call and when i finally get there it’s like 7 pm and i think a lot of my family is there i know my aunt and my cousin are there but i don’t really remember why,, i guess it was an important operation 

so i need to talk to the doctor to ask if he’ll still do the operation and he agrees so i have to go back to a certain room, so i go back to the room i was in before to get my things and mothership is there and she’s not happy at all, she’s screaming and shouting at me and i think i end up hiding in a bathroom. 

but finally i make it to the other room and i’m really scared as i climb on this hospital bed and i think safteypin is there and she’s telling me it’s going to be okay and that she’ll be there and then i wake up

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"by whom?" really sam do you have to be such a fucking nerd ???

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what kind of otherworld magic did they use on charlie

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dream - 2016-08-28

had a weird really jumped dream with two interconnected parts

 the first part was i was stuck in this weird alt dimension  because some guy wanted me for some reason

but before that i was apart of some weird company and the company was sending a bunch of employees to a different locations, like relocating just a bunch of them and i was one of them

so i’m walking out to this field and i’m talking to another employee but i don’t remember what we’re saying 

anyway so something happens where i end up in this alt dimension and that’s accessible to normal people through cryotanks ??? 

and for some reason it skips to me laying in bed with sugaredbones and she’s asking me if i can stay and watch her house bc she’s going away for a small trip and i say yes but she keeps saying things like “i’ve asked you for so much already” and it was super weird but the shadows on the walls were glaring at me because i need to get back to the alt dimension

so she leaves and i go back and whoa there was something important but i can’t remember anymore and i know i asked alexia to bring me something from the regular world and i’m like 95% sure she did but then the dream skips and i’m still in the alt dimension i think, but in a different part of the world and i’m reading a message from 17 about how her ex had visited with her cat and i think she was upset about it but i woke up just as i was about to reply

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the more i think about it, the more i feel like my dean didn't ... like me very much and it makes me feel a little bit sick because i loved him so much

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dream - 2016-08-06

last night i had two dreams

the first was stranger things based, the second took place in a setting where i’ve had dreams before

in the first dream, i was in some town in some forest

i think i might’ve been at a party or at a group event because i’m walking along this trail with some boy talking about getting home and i know him in my dream and i know him in real life but now i don’t  remember who he is

but anyway, we’re walking and we come to this bed in the trail, and the trail keeps going, but two the right, there’s a large field of really tall grass and the area is ringed by trees, but the far side of it has an opening 

one of us has a bike i think because someone complains about the grass and how tall it is, but we decide to go see where the opening in the trees leads to

so we start walking and the trees cast these really big shadows over us and it’s cold and uneasy but we keep walking

when we get close to the opening, this thing comes out (i don’t remember what it looks like anymore) and chases us down, it’s manages to get the boy and the boy tells me to run and not ever come back

and i’m not sure if i take the bike or if i leave it but then the dream switches in the second dream in in some country side with weirdly extravagant and eccentric houses, some of them look like picasso paintings

there’s a skip where i’m in a house, a normal but very cluttered house and mothership and biodad are there and they’re arguing because in the dream i guess, biodad hurt me somehow 

so they come to the decision that i’m going to go live with someone else while mothership finds a house for us to stay and i end up staying with safety pin but there’s already someone staying there

i don’t know them in my dream or in real life

so we end up sharing a room and i sleep very uneasily

sometimes in the “morning” the person gets up and they take a shower and it wakes me up so for some reason, i got to lay on the bathroom floor and it soaks me entirely so i get back up and go over to the sink area and look at myself

i don’t remember how i looked in my dream

so they get out and we start talking and i show them a breaded dragon and they’re delighted 

then the dream skips and i’m standing in a room with safetypin and mothership and they’re asking me if i received a letter in the mail because i owe money to my elementary school and i say no, and if i had any mail it would still be at biodad’s place

some men in hazard suits come into the room and then the dream skips back to the country side

i’m in one of the really weird houses and almost everything inside is black and white and finally mothership tells me it’s time to go so we leave and get in the car and she starts to drive away and we drive along theses huge, rolling hills with many dips

we get to this lake and get into a rollercoaster ride like cart, so we rolling across theses tracks in the water and mothership is talking about how the house we were in would be so great for pupcake and in the dream i’m jealous because she never said anything like that about/for me

i don’t say anything though, i just agree and we keep moving along the tracks and something happens where mothership must get a phone call because she’s telling me i have to go check on pupcake and she’s pretty upset

 so the ride spits me out and i go splashing into the water 

dream skip, and i’m awake in some old-timey town (think morgan’s world), i think my hair is wet, but i’m dressed for winter and it’s really cold with snow sprinkling down

the streets are surprisingly busy considering it’s nighttime so i start walking along the cobblestone sidewalks until i come to this glass window, kind of like the movie theaters or a gas station

the lady asks me who i’m there to see, and i tell her it’s my brother, she nods and writes something down and tells me to put my hand through the opening in the window

she clasps and band around my wrist and tells me i can go see him now, so i go to theses huge double doors and push them open

the lead to this huge lobby, almost like a hotel one, with many people just milling around

i go to the left where there’s a corridor of elevators and get in one

there’s already someone in the elevator i get in and it turns out to be sadstrawberries and she talks about seeing pupcake 

so she takes me up to see him and a lot of her family is there so i’m pretty uncomfortable, but pupcake looks okay and mothership finally gets there 

she makes a comment about sadstrawberries’ family and i nod in agreement and then i wake up

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dream log - 2016-08-03

i had a dream about this australian guy (mental) who was a psychic or something like that although i don't remember what he was doing at our house he was at a table working in some dress and i pointed out something about the style and so he made me make a list of colours for the dress we ended up sitting and talking in the family room and there was a basket of kittens i was petting eventually he left and a holographic vision on a mushroom cloud played before he drove off so the dream skips to a few years later i think, and i think everything is still pretty much the same except i THINK the guy is dead (although i'm not really sure because dream logic) and his daughter is staying with us so there's news on the tv about a war and in the window i can see a mushroom cloud and everything feels hot and dizzy even though in the dream it's not close enough to do damage to us so 28 is there i guess and we go hide in my room for a while and the the dream skips and i'm standing out in a subway type area except way above ground and i'm worried about 17 except i'm looking in the wrong direction,, because dream logic, so i'm on the east looking out west anyway i try to call her but cell services are down and i get upset and a lot of people stare also i have a black flip phone for some reason which is weird given the level of technology in this dream world i end up going back inside and the rest of the apartment complex is like a really businessy hotel, and i'm not sure if i make it back to the room there's a part where we're sitting on some platform between floors with a group of people and the man's girl and they're all talking about her dad and what it could've meant that he had that vision all the time blah blah blah but i'm sitting off to the side,, trying to make my phone work but it doesn't so one of the ladies gets mad at my dream mom (some blond lady, not mothership) and tells her to quit getting up or she'll kick us out of the complex and dream mom gets upset and tries to sit in her spot it happens a few more times, and the last time, dream logic, australian guy tells the worker lady to quit being such s bitch or he'll leave so worker lady shuts up but she's mad about it, so i try to talk to her and i tell her i'm trying to make my phone work and she says something about her room so i suggest we go hang out there but she says no the cue dream skip and i'm panicking because i need to get to some house (i think i need to check on someone ?) and so i make the decision to learn how to ride a bike right then so i grab a bike and get on and i don't know if i get to where i need to go because then i wake up

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dream - 2016-07-29

i had a dream that i was in this very weird city it was huge and had lots if bridged high ways so i was at this house and it was kind of like an old farm house and it was crowded with trees and spiny clothes hangers to dry clothes so there were clothes everywhere and i was talking to someone (i think it was safetypin, but i'm not sure) and they were making me really nervous for some reason, they were saying really weird, almost malicious things so i pick out some clothes and i go back to (what i presume is) my car and there's a girl there (i guess i'm taking care of her) and try to play the incident with safetypin off i change and then we drive off and the dream skips i'm in this hotel room and i'm working a case with sam and dean and two other girls and the girl from the car so they're sitting at this table and the girls are sitting on the beds and i'm sent to go get some forms so cue the dream skip and i'm down in some sort of lobby asking about these papers and the man behind the desk (it's kind of closed in like a gas station) points to a tray of forums so i take a few cue dream skip and i'm back in the room i sit at the table and help fill one of the forms out with sam before dean's decided that i've filled it out wrong he sets my paper aside and puts me on the phone with bobby and bobby kind of helps me refill the form out but he's talking about something about sam and he keeps getting off topic and at one point i ask "does this have anything to do with the form?" and he says no so i sigh and hang up then i scribble out everything that i've written on the form and push it away i stand up to see how sam is doing with his paper and he says something (i don't remember what it was) that makes me hug him to which dean tells me to "stop distracting him" dean does not like me so i start to move back towards my bed and then someone sprays something in the room knocking everyone out but i bury myself in blankets in the corner between my bed and the wall so it ends up not hitting me as hard and i wake up only a few minutes later and drag myself to the bathroom i turn the water to hot because (apparently) steam neutralizes the spray and when i'm completely better, i drag the two other girls into the bathroom there's a slight dream shift and now the room is a part of a really huge house having a party, and there's this shelved closet by the bathroom so i begin handing the girls towels and clean clothes so i notice sam, dean, and my girl are missing and i panic about my girl although i don't really remember why but the two other girls are really upset for some reason and they don't want to work on this case and i'm just worried about my girl so i ignore them i get dressed and i start throwing things i might need into this plushie panda backpack and there's this really shiny, glittery aura-silver nail polish that reminds me of my girl so i take it with me and as i'm leaving the room, i notice sam took the first form i filled out cue skip and i'm down in the living room of the house and i'm walking around there's people scattered and wandering around and the place is pretty trashed but i keep walking and eventually i peek into this room and mothership is in there the room looks a lot like our "hotel" room and she has a baby, a girl, and she complains about this guy who came in and was bothering her because he came in and "played old 80's songs on my violin" and i'm like okay cool, but have you seen my friends and i think she says no so i leave the room,, cue dream skip and i'm sitting in the back of a car, i don't know who is driving, and we're driving in a parking garage going towards the top i think, and it's really weird because we're driving in a spiral but we don't make it to the top because then i wake up

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dream - 2016-07-26

i had a dream i was this weird psych hospital

my room was kind of the same like it was now, and there was this girl who hud against the side of my bed

she was stealing food and trying to escape and i asked her if i could go with her and she said yes

so i started cleaning up my room, making preparations to leave

but then someone threw like a christmas party and the place became more like a house, except my room was the same, the girl was still there, and we were still trying to escape

so i went through things, looking for water bottles, food, and money that we could take with us

at some point i went out to investigate the party, and there was this huge tent in the drive way, and my entire family was sitting around laughing

i found mothership just told me to “stay at the house and don’t get too drunk” and that two of my other family members weren’t coming home for the night

so i went back and hid with the girl

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i peaked into one of the other rooms and it was huge and white like a really nice hotel room and there was a tv that took up the whole wall opposite the bed and it was showing a video of a wave/the ocean and there was someone laying on the bed but they were drunk passed out

there was also something about going out to sea to escape because at some point we were surrounded by water