There’s this girl I used to be friends with about three years ago. We were friends for about two years and I didn’t realize how toxic her behaviour was back then. She wouldn’t let me hang out with any of my friends, she manipulated me into doing drugs with her, she didn’t allow me to do anything without her permission, she had manipulated me into doing so many things and I didn’t realize she acted this way till we stopped being friends. We ended up getting into a fight because I hung out too much with another friend, and that’s how things ended between us. After that day I saw her like two more times and we didn’t have any contact after that.
She dropped out of school to go do something else, I was glad I finally had some freedom and we never really talked again. I had this best friend at the time, but he was friends with her. They didn’t talk for about two years, or at least that’s what he told me. At one point he sent me a text, saying that he got into a relationship with some girl. I was happy for him, knowing he had a tough breakup before he got into a new relationship and I was glad that he had moved on. But when he told me the girl he was with was her, I didn’t know what to say to him. I couldn’t believe that he got together with the person that hurt me so much, the person that made me feel so depressed. I lost contact with him as well, everytime I wanted to hang out again with him he ditched me, and we haven’t talked in a long time now.
I gratuaded and moved on, or at least, that’s what I thought. I heard that she went back to school, to finish her study. She’s in the same class as my brother right now, and I’m honestly so scared that she will try to ‘befriend’ him and manipulate him, just like she did with me. I thought I didn’t have to hear about her anymore, that she had finally left me alone. I cried for a long time because of this. In some way she just keeps coming back into my life and I want her gone. I can’t deal with the fact that she hurt me so much and that I keep getting reminded of that in so many ways.
I am so sick of being reminded of the past all the time, when I just want to move on and feel better. It’s been three years since I saw her for the last time, and the fact that this still bothers me so much, makes me feel sick.
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