dreaming☆bunny

he/him◇ self proclaimed notes-app poet☆ oh my god the heart is such a ridiculous thing get it out of me♡ probably thinking too much again♧

[quotefeeling]

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

[dreamingbunnyboy]

i cut people off for a reason

[dreamingbunnyboy]

i die in my head over and over again. i won't in the real world, id never actually do it... i think. its so odd how, once you start wondering what dying is like, you never really stop thinking about it. its always there in the back of my mind. i made orange chicken with fresh juice and let the sun in through the windows, but i couldn't help enjoy the sting from the oven rack when i felt it through the shitty supermarket oven mitts. im laying on the floor playing a game on a phone I can afford to pay for. under the blankets theres a darkness that wants to swallow me, and sometimes i want it to chew me up whole. i want to feel it grinding my bones to dust.

[nothingspecialjustasoul]

Suddenly I don't want anyone to know me as deeply anymore, which is weird because I have always yearned for someone to understand my soul

[dreamingbunnyboy]

im jus dont feel like repeating myself anymore

[dreamingbunnyboy]

sensitive sensitive boy

carrying a rainy cloud

instead of a brain

on his shoulders

it pulls him down

like a boulder

pressing on his spine

on the back of his neck

his eyes dont meet yours

when they do

hes a deer

caught in the spotlight of your soul

burnt by the hot white light

what you dont know

is its because he just wiped

his burning eyes and soul

clean

and he doesnt want you

to get burnt by his "light"

everyone says he has

[icaseybaybee]

[dreamingbunnyboy]

do u ever get scared that everything u know is fake?

[dreamingbunnyboy]

why cant i stop having INSANE dreams

cptsd brain is gonna make me go insane

[dreamingbunnyboy]

i can feel my heart beating out of my chest and hot tears behind my eyes

but now is not the time to cry, so ill hold it in and complain i have a headache instead, i have work to get to, customers to help, and sadness to avoid

i am back at home and laying on the futon and my heart wont stop pounding

but by this point theres too many thing to cry over and not enough at the same time, so ill push it off because i dont even know what I'd cry about

[mournfulroses]

Makenzie Campbell, from a poem featured in "Room of the Mind: Poems" originally published in 2021

[mournfulroses]

Makenzie Campbell, from a poem featured in "Room of the Mind: Poems" originally published in 2021

[dreamingbunnyboy]

i just wanted to be f-cking important to you

[mournfulroses]

Makenzie Campbell, from a poem featured in "Room of the Mind: Poems" originally published in 2021

[hymnfell]

[mournfulroses]

Momin Khan Momin, from a poem titled "Fury and Death," featured in Humsafar : The World of Urdu Poetry

[dreamingbunnyboy]

i hope if i get m-rdered its at least interesting enough for Rotten Mango to cover tbh

[dreamingbunnyboy]

i dont like being myself anymore. i wont change who i am for anyone else and i try to be the brightest an loudest version of myself i can be, but right now all i can think is: "what's the point".

[dreamingbunnyboy]

i want to be important and im sure i mean something to the people around me but its so hard to feel that. i need physical representation of that, but knowing that hasn't and won't happen for me anytime soon i just...