drew

he/him

[drew-drew-is-cool]

intro post :)

my name is drew

he/him

i live in america (PST timezone)

strongly suspect npd but cant get it checked out currently for several reasons, although i do plan to get it checked out in the distant future

diagnosed with ADHD and dyslexia

prolly mainly gonna post vents on here

not my main account btw — not sharing my main bc i’d like to keep them seperated

dni if you’re homophobic, transphobic, racist, sexist, maga, ableist, etc.

my asks are open, feel free to also dm me if you want

some of my hobbies are art, poetry, and music

some of my interests are the hunger games, doki doki literature club, and young sheldon

that’s all i can think of

[drew-drew-is-cool]

how i feel after intentionally showing someone i hate them but not making it obvious so i can say it was an accident if they question me later

[npd-confessions]

when no supply but scared to ask for some. kill me already

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[drew-drew-is-cool]

does anyone else have a month that theyre always their worst mentally in?

personally for me its june

[npd-confessions]

I think the concept of moral sincerity is deeply flawed. I think actions are more important than intentions especially for people with personality disorders.

When I hurt someone, I can see the situation from their perspective. And so sometimes I will apologize.

I'm never actually "sorry" because I can follow my logical thought process of why I did that and understand myself as well. I wasn't wrong. I just hurt that person.

So I make amends and I don't do it again because I care about them. But I never FEEL sorry. This makes me feel like a bad person. But I wouldn't say that to other people who feel this way.

Hope someone who sees this can relate idk.

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[npd-confessions]

theres this guy that i HATE with a whole passion bcuz he shittalked me behind my back (for drama that was not his business btw it was relationship troubles that already got sorted out??) and turned one of my old friends against me. and now is trying to act all nice and shit like i would forget what happened like im fucking stupid.

but... im forced to be nice to him because my ep and other friends are supposedly friends with him.

whatever. not much i can do about that besides ignoring him. but what pisses me off is that he's trying to force himself in my already established friendgroup and all our hangouts. GO AWAY youre literally ruining MY safespace.

whats even worse is that i get genuinely so paranoid that hes gonna turn my other friends against me and shittalk me again because i know hes that type of person. hes genuinely the worst but i have no idea how to get rid of him without making me look bad.

- 🗯️

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[asexual-amanita]

Screw ‘narcissistic abuse awareness day’

PT: Screw ‘narcissistic abuse awareness day’ End PT

Your abuse was valid. Your ableism is not.

Narcissistic people don’t have some special secret way of abusing people that no one else is capable of doing.

If a NPD haver happened to be abusive, they’d use the regular abuse tactics every other shitty person uses.

Autistic people can be abusive, but we don’t call it autistic abuse. People with cerebral palsy can be abusive, but we don’t call it cerebral palsy abuse.

Being abusive is a choice, having a personality disorder is not.

Blame the person, not the disorder.

[narcitism]

my abuser had brown hair im a victim of brunette abuse :(

[npd-confessions]

Sometimes i have to remind myself multiple times That is friend not competition That is friend Not competition That is friend not competition (more like acquaintance but you get the drill) but agahagahgahshahdhhvhhavsv sometimes i perceive people being better and more charismatic than me a threat and i have to be better

yeaaaah turns out trying to win at social interaction is not normal guys. Wdym keeping track of how charismatic and likeable you are every time you interact with others to see how much you are winning is not a very normal and sane thing to do. Whoops

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[npd-confessions]

Sometimes I don't feel as unique as I thought I was and I feel like everyone should explode for sharing interests with me or "liking them more than me" . I was here first Dude get out of here

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[drew-drew-is-cool]

me when i dont win at something so im the worst person ever and deserve to die in a ditch

im so normal about everything

[npd-confessions]

i typically ask people if they need help to seem like a better person but then i get annoyed if they actually say yes

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[npd-confessions]

I sometimes want to lash out at my friends for making me feel so little, but then again, that'll ruin the image they have of me so I gotta shut my mouth and keep acting.

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[drew-drew-is-cool]

i hate it when i have to hang around people who i recently gained hatred for

like they dont know it yet and or they’re too useful to let go so i still have to pretend i kinda like them

brings my whole mood down

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd culture is getting painfully annoyed when someone you consider a close friend (or EP) starts talking about and praising their other friends to you and you just feel their status go down a little in your mental hierarchy. no i really dont care if you think its aura that your online friend is selling drugs at 16

(jic me and them are both 17)

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[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd culture is talking on a discord server and getting annoyed that one of the side characters answers instead of the people you actually care about. not that I'd tell them that, side characters are part of the server ecosystem, it's just slightly grating that they think I care

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[narcissisticpdcultureis]

NPD culture is fully believing for your entire life that you were capable of truly loving others the way you were supposed to until you realized you only love what people can provide for you and you always prioritize yourself and your ego. And that you'd rather be loved than love others unless its necessary to get what you want. Does this make sense. Help

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