exhausted.

[drowningwitchh]

I want to explain how exhausted I am. Even in my dreams. How I wake up tired. How I’m being drowned by some kind of black wave.

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

i really dont think i have a liveable life ahead of me

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

i dont blame you for using me. im not very good at saying no

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

im not anyone's first choice. im not anyone's favorite. people may tell me i mean a lot to them and that im special to them but i know there's someone they'll always choose over me

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

i have completely given up the hope that my life will be any better

[drowningwitchh]

[nothingspecialjustasoul]

It’s hard to accept how easily I became nothing.

[nothingspecialjustasoul]

I break my own heart by expecting people to be as attached to me as I am to them.

[xammyshygirl]

Siento que nunca seré bienvenida ni querida en ningún lugar.

[free-my-mindd]

[burnttoast7272]

i knew i wasn't wanted but i tried to be anyways.

[nothingspecialjustasoul]

My biggest mistake was thinking that people care for me as much as I care for them.

[disintegrationinsilence]

[serendipityscrible-deactivated2]

"If someone would rather lose you than resolve the issue, they never truly cared about you."

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

i have completely given up the hope that my life will be any better

[mournfulroses]

Olga Knipper-Chekhova, from a letter to Anton Chekhov featured in The Selected Letters of Anton Chekhov