knee high socks

i’m a dumb idiot who rants :)

[drowsy-candy]

i have no friends, i stay inside every day

i wake up at 2 pm, i’m an only child, i’m homeschooled

i stay in my room, writing, reading, watching movies

all i do is write poetry, read and play

i’m a lost cause but i have had some strong opportunities this year that haven’t worked out, 2 of them. even with my effort but ik there’s another day i just feel like im wasting my prime but i don’t want to objectify my life and who i am out of just vanity and social concepts , me and the average person are more than that.

ur more than that, i’m just gonna keep trying to find and process my passion, but that loneliness just hits u man, rlly does

[drowsy-candy]

i feel so lost and dumb

like i can’t let myself think im a lost cause, bc i still have some hope but really in the end i just want to drift off somewhere

i’m not exactly a true believer in any creative idea. i genuinely wish i could cry to a song or movie, i want to feel connected again . . but anytime i try to, and have gotten reciprocation i genuinely hate it

even when i have to slowly move out of my comfort zone and just do it with ease, it always tumbles in the end. doesn’t seem like a ton of redemption for me,

i can’t share this irl cause i don’t wanna whine, ik people don’t care That much about me, like i get it. i just want to articulate something, or an idea of any kind - something to express, and just find it, find something that matters to me.