I know I'm not hard to love because my best friend makes it seem so easy.

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@drunk-vampire
I know I'm not hard to love because my best friend makes it seem so easy.
It's funny how u stalked me on Tumblr. How you tried so hard to find my accounts. Just to see if I wrote about you. What I wrote about you. Sth to boost your ego, see how much I was still feeling about you after we broke up. Did it feel nice love? I bet it did. And now you prob forgot all about me writing. Forgot the blog I created just to write stories for you (not that you cared about them anyway), forgot the accounts I wrote all my feelings. And now you haven't been on the app in a while. You got what you wanted. I never got your actual accounts, never got the chance to see your thoughts and feelings. I just got the account you wanted me to see. The blank one. The safe one. But at the end of the day maybe it's for the best. Cause after all, your posts would never be about me.
And what if I miss you for the rest of my life?
Who cares? Does the audience thank the jester for entertaining them? Do they think the jester is funny? Is the jester himself funny or is he just a funny concept? Do they love this certain man's theatrics, or are they entertained just from the concept of a dancing man?
One must consider the jester happy. One must see the theatrics as a reflection of his emotional state, rather as a performance. Yet people don't wish to understand the jester as a person. They're satisfied by the existence of a constant. The knowledge that someone exists at all times just for their entertainment.
However, is the jester happy? Does he perhaps also find solace in the fact that he's perceived as happy? Is his mask a restraint or a blank slate? Does it give him the way out, the freedom that he seeks? A chance to live -even for a little while- outside of his own mind? When do roles stop being shackles and start being chances?
One must consider the jester as a man with a hat. Once it's off, the hat is still a hat and the jester is just a man. The same man won't be as funny to the same people he entertained a few hours ago. Probably they wouldn't even recognize him. Because now he's just a man, he's not THEIR jester.
When does identity become a shackle and when does its loss equal freedom? That of course, depends on the meaning of freedom for each one of us. One would find peace in the anonymity, seeing the endless possibilities of new identities. That of course would bring him back to the identity as a prerequisite for existence. Others perhaps feared the lack of purpose in a life like that, mistaking destiny for fate.
One can ponder till days end about the meaning of any of these. And what a privilege would that be, knowing that they'd never be the jester. And until then, the jester is lying alone, his hat on the floor besides him. And untill then we can lie alone, pretending we leave nothing besides us.
It's cute in a way, until you cannot speak
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Lord I'm one
One person in the world
Lord I'm two
Two lungs barely breathing air
Lord I'm three
Three days of restless nights
Lord I'm four
Four thousand miles away
Lord I'm five
Five senses that haven't known love like this
Lord I'm six
Six months doubled from the beginning
Lord I'm seven
Seven hours far away
Lord I'm eight
Eight years too old for this ache
Lord I'm nine
Nine hours behind on time
Lord I'm ten
Ten minutes until 10:00.
10:00 turns into 7:00 though
So bless the telephone
It's nice the way you say my name
I'd like to hear it once more before I go
If I could.
"But I wanted you to know"
And it's just you writing paragraphs to someone who doesn't care about your feelings, just to feel like you did the best you could. So you can finally sleep knowing you got it off your chest even though you were never understood.
"There's things I wanna say to you but I'll just let you live"
And it's just you bottling everything up again to avoid hurting someone with the fact that you are hurt. And you let them live when you don't even feel alive anymore and you feel like you're dying everyday and every sleepless night.
Is it better to speak or die?
But somehow everytime you end up chosing the way that's gonna hurt you instead. Because you never considered loving someone without sacrificing yourself. You never separated love from pain.
It's all lying broken in my feet again
Every hope, every gentle dream I carried carefully for months
Every portrait of myself I've repainted, in hope it'll represent my progress
Every framed memory I've cherished and idealized
And suddenly I feel too exhausted to even pick it up
I don't wish to salvage any of this
It's funny how something you've been building for months can fall apart in seconds
Perhaps we should measure something's durability, by how long's been falling before breaking, rather than how long's been up
And I keep walking on the broken glass trying not to stare back at my own red eyes on its surface
I'm sure my wounds would heal if I'd stop opening them to prove they still hurt
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Remember me? We met tomorrow Where dreams live And the future Has no past
bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.
Toughen up. Yeah, I said it. It's time you stop expecting the world around you to bend to your feelings. The harsh reality is that other people don't care about you and only you are responsible for your well-being. Stop taking what others say personally and stop placing so much value on the opinions of nobodies. So what if they don't like you? Do they even like themselves? Do YOU like them?.
Once you've mastered the art of detachment from the perception of others and lower your expectations of people who haven't made any pledge of commitment towards you, it will become easier to develop a thicker skin, to become more laser-focused on you and your own well-being, and to disregard that and those who do you no good.
In a world of snowflakes, be a diamond, which never breaks or bends under pressure.