Imagine being raped by a rotting corpse since fourteen years of age, no choice, no voice, no body that is not to be sold like meat.
A walking and talking corpse, he even looks like a maggot himself, pale, and colorless like the ones of his kind, worming his existence into this world through dark magic and the sacrifice of many others like you, young girls to be treated like breeding mares and then to be treated like pigs.
To be sold and butchered.
Now imagine giving birth, isolated and alienated, no husband to hold your hand, no mother to clean the sweat from your brow, no true allies or friends but the father that like the husband cannot see past the fruits of your womb, the child inside you is the only thing that matters about your entire person and not a single person in the whole world will tell you otherwise.
Now imagine giving birth to the thing born from the loss, the loss of your name, your body and soul. Then it grows to be the mirror of the monsters that robbed you of your innocence: cruel, vile, and entitled to the body of every woman in their lives: mothers, daughters, sisters, and wives, the last two being interchangeable.
Imagine giving birth to a girl then, to have the same fate as yours, to be a body that is a vessel but never a person, and she is the only one that might undestand you, that might share the pain with you, and this child, the girl child, is not your mirror, it's just a blank canvas, dark sky full of stars that you cannot make into constellations, a child you cannot connect to, you cannot undestand, a child you had to raise and love and that will never love you back, no matter how much you try.
And then you give birth again,
Another one like the vile husband, as entitled and vicious as the brother to said husband, a thing of hatred and wounded pride simmering under paper thin skin, a thing that carries a childhood wound like a banner to war and I'm not talking about his eye.
A thing of corrupted love towards you, his flesh and blood, and what could have come of it if not the shattering of natural bonds twisted into unnatural ones? What is flesh and blood to them if not another hole for them to stick their pale cocks into and pull out the things they desire most? A child, love, a promise of glory at the end of the line?
And you give birth again, count four in less than twice the number of years, incessantly pregnant since before you were sixteen, in our world and day, if we care, you were the mother of three before you could legally have a beer.
The fourth one, singled out...
This one you must save and guard and protect because terrible mother as you are, you can only do so much.
Look at your prospects...
That one is a depraved beast with a sexual hunger his birth and rank will allow to be more than just cruelty. The girl one is under the watchful eye of the vultures that want her flesh and blood (their flesh and blood) so they can stick their cocks into and pull out a hostage or two, and you, terrible at this thing of motherhood, did all you could so the vulture pecking at the girl's soft flesh is one you believe you can, if not control, at least tame. Because there is the need for a vulture, that much you cannot change, she is flesh and fresh or rotten she must be meat.
And then they were four, this one is a mirror of you and so much so this one must be yours, the other ones, the mirror of their terrible father and his ilk, were put inside you and pulled out and had nothing of you but your blood and flesh, which was not given but taken. This one was yours, so it must be YOURS, and bless you, as you watch your girl child shout and groan that the one she carries is hers, naive and deluded and full of dreams like the sky is full of stars, like you, she thinks she can own anything... Like you did the fourth one.
One you gave birth and gave away so the maggots would not chew on his newborn skin and the chair full of knifes and the mouths full of teeth like knifes would not have his flesh and blood... But his flesh and blood are yours and your flesh and blood are the father that sold you into sanctioned rape to a rotting corpse. And your father, your flesh and blood, is not an apple under a fig tree, he is of the loins and of the seed of the house that raised you like a lamb for the slaughter and your fourth, lamb in his own right, carries the blood of the maggot but also yours... And yours is to be carried with a purpose you didn't ask for, a crown you didn't desire to wear and a blade you didn't want to wield.